Venting Ready/Not Ready

[TBONTB]

I've just been left in the house alone for 22 hours. I have the strongest wish for today to be the day..to ctb in this private time, to short circuit all the coming work and problems. Yes, to escape the suffeting

But i am not ready in any way. I don't have all the prep for my plan, I don't have financials set up to advantage. It's not time

But it sure is nice thinking about time.

 

[knickknack81]

I feel that way all the time. Thinking today could be it but knowing deep down I don't have anything set up or have it in my to CTB. But it certainly crosses my mind how it would be to just end things now.

 

[TBONTB]

I feel that way all the time. Thinking today could be it but knowing deep down I don't have anything set up or have it in my to CTB. But it certainly crosses my mind how it would be to just end things now.

I guess that's why most of about here. Ack...this is super tough to deal with.

 

[knickknack81]

I guess that's why most of about here. Ack...this is super tough to deal with.

Very tough and just never ending. It's like im living my life on a repeating loop. Although I have good times/days here and there, it always comes back to this feeling.

 

[tanshakti]

I am in a similar boat, sometimes you just want to deal with all the real life stuff to not create more problems and the CTB planing needs to be done. You just want to be done and over with. spending each day in the loop is the worst.