Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[elfin]

right now it's around a 6 or 7 maybe? it's definitely been better but it's also been much worse than this. i have a couple of things to look forward to at the moment so it's not absolutely unbearable right now.

 

[bad luck]

10 but I'm calm. I've lost all hope long ago

 

[noname223]

5. I am really scared and my anxiety is high. High stress-level. I have problems to cope with it. Sometimes taking emergency medication.

 

[......]

10. I've hit rock bottom

 

[allesistgut]

was feeling relatively ok, but suddenly back to a 8/9.

 

[Squiddy]

7. I get my neuropsychological test results back from my psychologist soon to see why my memory and attention is so bad and depending on what she says and my treatment options, I may or may not plan my ctb. I might start writing letters just in case I do decide so at least that would be done

 

[Crazy4u]

7 - I am suicidal but can't ctb right now. trapped

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

10. Lost everything that mattered a long long time ago. Just waiting in the suicide limbo. I hate my existence

 

[sad_gurl_thoughts]

8 today…would've been a 7 before the ex who broke my heart reached out with a half-assed attempt to "check on me."

 

[8livesleft]

I always find these rating scales subjective.

For me:
10 = just did the lethal act since it cant get any higher
9 = on the way to do it since it's just below a 10 which would be you already did it
8 = last rating where you are still thinking about it

I am an 8 ;) ....."just smile and wave boys"

 

[hatedanddestroyed]

7-8. Ironically, the failed attempts recently are giving me depression and doubt about suicide. I want to die painlessly as possible but the chance of a successful suicide seem to be against me.

8 today…would've been a 7 before the ex who broke my heart reached out with a half-assed attempt to "check on me."

Why do they do that? It's like a slow knife twist.

 

[SimpleSimon]

7. But I am never able to ctb even when I hit 10 - too many family responsibilities. So 7 is fine

 

[noname223]

My biggest problem currently is not suicdal thoughts but my biggest problem could lead soon to very acute suicidality.
My anxiety goes through the through, through the roof and through the roof.
I need extra sleeping medication otherwise I think I could not sleep well. I probably will add lorazepame soon.
If I fuck it up I soon have to kill myself. The pressure is immensly...

suicidal thoughts 5,5

 

[Niirvana]

10. I tried the sn again with my tongue and I doubt that it is good. Having it so close makes me want to take it always

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

7.

 

[Jack4230]

Normally I'm at a 3 but some days it goes to 10

 

[Squiddy]

7. My mom was talking about work and her one client and how amazing he is and far along in life he is at a young age and I feel kind of incompetent and like I should be farther along than I currently am. I feel like a loser and a failure

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

5. Not that suicidal, but really weird in a bad way and empty

 

[Hurt]

7

 

[Of The Universe]

9

 

[allesistgut]

9.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

Absolute 10. No doubt about it today

 

[Numbtopain97]

10

 

[Squiddy]

8. I feel like I'm destined to ctb. I feel like I'll never get a job and move out of my parents house because of my memory and attention issues. I was supposed to get a call back from a job interview by today, but they didn't call and I'm pretty sure I didn't get the job because of how badly I did at the interview having to ask the interviewer to repeat the same question 4 times and still not getting it. I feel incredibly slow and unintelligent and I hate myself for it. I really hope I pass away in my sleep tonight, but I probably won't knowing my luck.

 

[deletednumber]

10 i'm ready to die 100%

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

8-9.

 

[deletednumber]

10 i feel too sick

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

6-7

 

[Sherri]

4

 

[Squiddy]

8. I'm so sick of fighting, I just wish something could end me