Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[Notrobotbeepboop]

Considering I'm on this website right now, about 5. I probably wouldn't be here if I were lower.

 

[allesistgut]

right now i'd say that i'm at about a 9. really wish i could just ends things now and not have to wait.

 

[downndone2]

Currently a 3-4, depends on day and time of day. My weekends are usually the most hopeless, so I anticipate an 8 soon.

 

[height jumper 69]

10, have been bothered by intrusive thoughts being full of rage during the thoughts becayse i have no control of it.
Pressured to look for work thoughi don't want to be slaving away my life for some worthless green numbers that I'll have to grind for 40+ hours per week for about 40-50 years just so i can stay alive

Can't wait till shit hits the fan again when the paralyzing fear comes back and thrn I'll just die right after since it's a really horrible feeling i hate

 

[Kristicide]

I'm at the time of the night where i hallucinate so that's fun...maybe 9

 

[arquebus]

today it's 7. going to ctb in about a month with either SN or SA

 

[Josh007]

9 Life handed me all the shitty cards, just hanging around cuz in my mind I got nothing better to do

 

[nottheend]

I'd say 5 today not feeling anything at all really

 

[needed_]

it breaks my heart to say it but it's a 10

 

[trying2understand]

I am at 6-7.

 

[Chiisai]

 

[forgotten15]

10. I've been crawling through life the last couple of weeks. I feel so depressed my body hurts. The only thing that comforts me is the fact that I will soon get my sn.

 

[needed_]

10. I've been crawling through life the last couple of weeks. I feel so depressed my body hurts. The only thing that comforts me is the fact that I will soon get my sn.

I know exactly how you feel. big hug.

 

[ClownMe]

Solid 9 today

 

[Squalo]

9, I want to fall asleep and never wake up anymore.

 

[bloomingdark]

8

 

[forgotten15]

I know exactly how you feel. big hug.

I am so sorry you are going through the same pain. I hope we will find peace some day soon. Hugs back

 

[Death is beautiful]

7-8

 

[lobster salad]

8. I just had a lot of beer in the afternoon and it's 2 am and I feel so hungover, my head and belly are throbbing so badly and I can't sleep. I feel lonely but guilty to talk to my friends or people 1to1. I feel so tempted to walk out of the house and fall off a building. Fear, is holding me back. And guilt. It's so unsolicited thereby feels unfair to the surrounding people as well

 

[willitpass]

probably about a 6 today. mostly i've just unbelievably anxious today

 

[Crazy4u]

10. the search for a good dog rescue is daunting

 

[LionsTigersAndBears]

10, drifting in and out of psychosis for the last few days.

 

[forgotten15]

8. I just had a lot of beer in the afternoon and it's 2 am and I feel so hungover, my head and belly are throbbing so badly and I can't sleep. I feel lonely but guilty to talk to my friends or people 1to1. I feel so tempted to walk out of the house and fall off a building. Fear, is holding me back. And guilt. It's so unsolicited thereby feels unfair to the surrounding people as well

I hope the hungover will pass and you'll feel better. No matter what are your instincs, please don't ever do something that could put you health in danger when you are in this type of state. You can never know how bad could things end so it's no worth it. Wait so the hungover goes away and you'll see things more clearly. I know it hurts…

 

[Nanako]

9 for me

 

[PreussenBlueJay]

2 today. It sure fluctuates a lot but getting a good night's sleep seems to help. I'm sorry to see so many high numbers

 

[Death is beautiful]

8

 

[noname223]

5-6 I read about a new very restrictive assisted suicide law that might will pass soon. It gives me the feeling I should rather ctb soon and try to get approved for it as long as possible. But in fact this is nearly impossible. I still want to fight and my dad told me he would stop giving me money if I did that. But this new law makes me pretty depressed. I hoped my country would develop in the right direction concerning this issue. I am very sad.

 

[Enigmatic Sailor]

0

 

[noname223]

0

How and why?

 

[LeSamourai263]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

8