Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[noname223]

Not so much suicidal. 4. But my anxiety goes trough the roof. I feel sorry for all the people with such high suicidality.
I feel really huge pressure to avoid my suicide. Ironically in the past exactly these behaviors led to extreme suicidality.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

7-9. Want to go now. Not sure whether ready or not. Conditions are not favourable

 

[creaturecomforts]

My suicidal thoughts usually sit at a bearable but uncomfortable 5. When I get hit with waves of depression it bumps that number up a bit though, maybe to a 7 or so.

 

[FractalTears]

7

 

[noname223]

7

Sorry but your profile picture is not funny. I would suggest you change it. This is not our niveau.

My suicidality is like 5-6. I am extremely scared about the near future.

Cannot sleep. I am so extremely anxious...It overwhelmes me. Not sure what to do now. I have some emergency medication here. Not sure whether I should use it...

 

[allesistgut]

currently a 9, feeling very low and wishing i could go without hurting the people i love.

 

[Death is beautiful]

9

 

[medjooled11]

6

 

[orange]

A surprising 7? Today I actually got out of the house and had a nice time, but I was still fantasizing and planning my suicide when my mind drifted away. Looking up at the trees I thought maybe I would like to die outdoors and not in my car like I had planned, but having a nice view wouldn't justify the added risk.

 

[Solar1703]

6 now

 

[S like Siren]

10

 

[ineedrope]

it was a 3-4 for the whole week, but something happened yesterday that brought it up to about 8 for me.

 

[Squiddy]

7. Even though I have a job interview on Tuesday and my life could improve, I feel like I'm going to fuck it up plus it's not really enough hours to get enough money and move out of my parents for good. I tried applying for a customer service rep at another place, but I think I fucked up the assessment due to my ADHD being so bad. Idk how I'm going to get work done and pay attention when it's this bad :(

 

[raghu1977]

10/10.

Decided to ctb. Just winding up stuff, found a great home for my pup. Now crossing stuff from my bucket list. And will then ctb

 

[Death is beautiful]

10
my ctb is coming

 

[Squalo]

9, I have almost lost all interest in doing anything, I just want to leave this world.

 

[daddy Phil :)]

1 or 2

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

10 atleast

 

[motel rooms]

3.14159

Mmmm, pi.

 

[ncmxm]

8 today

 

[Arrow]

todays a 4 but the more i think about why, the higher the number goes. writing helps a bit though.

 

[davidgeorge]

6, but this is my last year on the planet

 

[JinZhin]

I feel like my default state is steady at 7ish
It gets higher if something disturbing happens

 

[Crazy4u]

around 5-6. no particular reason. I feel so comfortable knowing I can exit anytime I want

 

[ultrafuntimes]

10, don't want to deal with tomorrow. There is nothing I want to do. I can't motivate myself to do anything but stare at the wall and ruminate.

 

[davidgeorge]

7 today. This is going to happen. I like being in control of when

 

[noname223]

5-6. I have these shame or embarassment attacks/flashbacks. The only thing that comforts me in these moments is the thought of commiting suicide. I have currently a lot of responsibilities I normally have no time to think about offing myself. I hope it does not become even worse.

 

[allesistgut]

at the moment about a 4/5.

 

[sleepisanescape]

8. Feel like I'm alone on an island.

 

[Nanako]

10. God I'm so tired of everything. If I could do it right now I would.