Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[W3akCr3atur3]

Solid 6. Studying and preparing for exams fucked my mental state pretty badly

 

[S like suicide]

10 i'm unable to be a normal human being,there is something wrong in me

 

[Squiddy]

7. I was feeling okay earlier, but want to ctb as I'm afraid my job might fire me for being really slow at stocking and I feel that's the only job I can really get due to my attention and cognitive issues. If I do get fired and can't find another job, I think I might just end things as I've had enough of constantly losing at life

 

[J007]

10. For sure.

 

[noname223]

5. I am scared about mania. I did nothing productive today but still I am quite manic this evening. My sleep rhythm is crazy. WIthout addictive sleeping pills I wake up like 10 times. At least I have found a method how I can sleep on.

This all makes me anxious as fuck. I am so scared about another mania or psychosis. My anti-manic medication is just not working correctly. I am quite desperate. My therapists also have no solution.

Maybe I have to kill myself soon...if the extreme psychosomatic pain returns...

 

[lostmylove]

8 right now . Insides are really messed up, but emotional pain really driving me crazy. Keeping it together quiet well. Doubt will see June though

 

[Lullaby]

9.

Trying really hard not to be impulsive. My psychiatrist prescribed me some sleeping pills, so I'm just grateful I'll have an escape from all of this. Complete irony that being awake is total nightmare.

 

[710]

7

 

[Capsaicin78]

Solid 7. But it's only this "low" because I am patient enough to be waiting for the moment I can get my hands on some N. With N in my hands it would be a 10.

 

[novem]

It varies during the day, the highest score is in the morning when i wake up in the fucked up reality.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

8 today. Waiting for my tipping point.

 

[Squiddy]

6.5. A bit lower today. Having a decent day at work so far. Haven't really been bitched at for going slow on stocking which is nice. I wish everyday was like this, but I know it won't unfortunately :(

 

[lazyquestionkid]

I am a strong 7. Some days are worse than others(about 9). Some days are not as bad but it is always on my mind. I am scared but I think I can do it.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

10

 

[Squiddy]

8. I just woke up a few minutes ago and am in a somewhat bad mood. My BPD is acting up and I'm sad because some of my so called friends who say they are haven't messaged me in months/years and I'm like, if you don't like me anymore just say it so the friendship can end. I'm also sad because I'm losing hope things will get better. I really wish I could ctb right now

 

[lostmylove]

9.5 ready to explode. Wanted to say goodbye to one of the people I've loved the most in the world and they told me to go away pretty much.

Reaffirmed my decision massively couldn't stop crying. Am I not even worth 5 Mins of their time? After everything we've been through.

They told me they would never leave me. So they lied. I'm in crisis mode and can't even get 1 single thing to smile about. Death awaits bring it on.

 

[Forever Sleep]

At my very best, I'm a 6- I always lean towards death. At my worst, maybe a 7 or 8 because I haven't obtained the means yet and that I think that would be a clear indication to myself that this is it.

 

[M Berry M]

8 1/2 today feels horrible

 

[sweaterpaws]

9.5/10 I'm in so much pain. I'd do it right now if I could. Trying to get ahold of N first

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

6. Ongoing misery. Hibernating.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Today I am a 7, l'm really struggling to get over my Dog's passing,my flat seems so much bigger and empty without him here!

 

[lostmylove]

9.5 again today. Ready. The 'everything gets better' crowd can rot in hell

 

[Squiddy]

8. I'm getting tired of this life. I might have to switch jobs as my siblings won't be considerate and stop squealing in the mornings for me to sleep and I don't know any other jobs that would go well with my cognitive issues. I might have no choice, but to ctb if I can't find anything. I hate when people say it gets better because it hasn't for me

 

[lostmylove]

9

 

[partialhang]

7. Boredom and depression is killing me.

 

[αmber]

9/10

 

[outrider567]

Big mistake today--Got a slice of pizza, first since she died, we must of had pizza hundreds of times last 35 years, I was fine tilI I got in the car, but instantly shot to a 10.0 on the suicide scale because she wasn't there anymore sitting there next to me eating her slice like she always used to be ---started crying again, barely finished mine, won't do that again

 

[allesistgut]

10

 

[anonymous122]

7-8

 

[xo777]

9. I really want to go and I have everything ready it's just hard. The day is coming up so soon and I know this is what I want and need to do for happiness it's just i'm so sad that I never ended up feeling better. I'm just mourning what life could of been. Maybe next time
edit:
10. The one person I thought I had left is cheating on me and threatening to break up for asking why he did it, as if him breaking up with me will do much. I'm not angry or sad about what he did, surprisingly I feel nothing.