Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[ImsooDone1N]

Definitely a solid 8.5-9 I too have no purpose anymore (idk If I ever did; but I did have a chance, which I no longer have.) I've completely given up on everything & I can feel others giving up on me as well. No one Cept 8-12 people from this forum will be saddened when im gone. Which is good. I would like to not ever have to hurt anyone.

 

[Squiddy]

8.5. Even though I had 2 interviews to potentially get a job and try to improve my life, I feel like I fucked up both plus my PTSD got triggered by seeing something today and it won't stop giving me hell (it's starting to go away a little, but very little). I hope I die in my sleep tonight. I'm tired of fighting

 

[Treeline589]

10

 

[allesistgut]

9

 

[VoidDesirer22]

9. I am ctbing next month. I have accepted it. Death is apart of life. I just happen to be going earlier.

 

[Arrow]

8.5
the pain is sharp and the future is grim
doom surrounds me
not even describing it alleviates the pain or gives me any better understanding of it

the number is slowly increasing

 

[Huntfish34]

Eghh.. Probably right around a 7/8 lately. Everyday is different.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

10. I don't deserve more pain now. I was never a fit for this life and I don't deserve to get more tortures because of something which I truly never asked for.

 

[hopelesscallgirl]

7, The world sucks, work is slow, and the price of everything keeps going up.

 

[OverBeforeStart]

can't put a number on it i live in a fog and too numb to tell whats going on any more

 

[goingupyonder]

Strong 8. Getting closer to no longer caring about going out peacefully, and only caring about going out.

 

[Treeline589]

10

 

[Life sucks]

10, brain pain

 

[Squiddy]

7, I'm pretty sure I didn't get one of the jobs I interviewed for which sucks because it would've been perfect for me. I'm pretty sure I won't get the next one either. Idk why I'm still trying. I wish I had the balls to end it

 

[Squiddy]

8. I just got an email from my interviewer that I didn't get the 2nd job . I knew I wouldn't get it even though I showed genuine interest in the job. I had slight hope that out of the 2 I applied for, I'd at least get one of them and I got none instead. I'm probably at a disadvantage because I've never worked before. I feel like I'll never get hired. I wish a meteor or something would kill me

 

[Sherri]

1

 

[Squalo]

8, if I continue like this, I will leave this world this year.

 

[Sherri]

8, if I continue like this, I will leave this world this year.

Amore, not even me make you happy?

 

[Squalo]

Amore, not even me make you happy?

you make me very happy my dear, but this planet is too cruel and sad, I'm not made for this world ):

 

[Sherri]

you make me very happy my dear, but this planet is too cruel and sad, I'm not made for this world ):

I know my dear. Was just trying to make you smile. I'm also not perfect and also have my days. pm me sometimes. When you need to talk if you want.

 

[whatevs]

4.

 

[orange]

It's a 9 today. I could do it this week if I wanted, and maybe I should since idk when the opportunity is going to present itself again. Still, I don't think I will.

 

[CatTheBus5689]

9

I still remember the day I woke up ready to die, I wish I was in a worse mood to overcome the SI. I still don't want to live.

 

[Squalo]

9, closer and closer to the end.

 

[allesistgut]

7

 

[Sea Turtle]

9. Tested SN yesterday and starting to give less and less a fuck about everything. I think I'm close to truly being ready.

 

[Treeline589]

10

 

[Foresight]

5. I spent the weekend at 8. I think that's pretty much the cycle I'm in. Peak at 8, go back to 5 and repeat.

 

[allesistgut]

9

 

[mytime]

Well in ~4 hours I'll be drinking my SN, so I guess 10?

I'm not hysterical or anything, I'm quite calm, and I know this is what I want to do.