Random thoughts

[Going Home]

4) People have a right to defend themselves. Abusers being held accountable is not the victim holding a grudge against you. It's literally cutting you out of their lives so that they won't get burned again. In my case it's literally to protect my mental health.

Thats right! Keep defending yourself!!!

 

[Deleted member 23374]

I realized that i hate smoking pot but, going back to medication is not an option.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I have no more nice things to say to anyone. I guess there is no point in me ever communicating with anyone anymore.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I wish I could stop time.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish I could stop time.

I'm telling myself that soon I will stop time, from my own perspective. Because there will be zero tomorrows to come and do any more horrible things to me. How I think of death to cope with forced suicide.

 

[http-410]

Why is it so hard.

It is said that one should face their fear...

Am I really too anxious to do anything in the end?

I must face my fear.

 

[waived]

When you have a conversation with a person and it's one way, but then you listen to them have the same conversation with someone else and it's entirely different because they're mostly pecking crumbs up with their face trying to look cool. Average scumbag, all identity.

 

[Deleted member 23374]

Why think ?
Just remember to oil the blade.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

Gimme gimme shock treatment

 

[Deleted member 23374]

so determined
to force every issue into
so small a box
even the bath water
don't mind the baby
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i was at level
moving toward ascendant
then i fell through the floor
i need to learn
to read a map
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a fair farewell but
for that last note
i would trade somebody's kidney
to finish the tune
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i can handle it, don't worry
i can
i can
i can
i think
why ?
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i can taste the cheeseburgers
they served on the flight deck 20 years ago
i know my sense of time is fucked up
maybe i'm decompensating
that would imply prior stability
the days are all a blur
with the spicy brown all gone
guess i'll have to settle
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the ping off the plate is reflective
but the bait is defective
the print dead and faded
a bible makes a good
doorstop
god why am i anywhere
remember to oil the blade

 

[Soul]

I watch anything Bill Hader puts out for us to watch. I love his talent and his humor, and I worry about him. Brilliantly creative artists - maybe especially comedians - so often end badly. I don't want Bill Hader to end badly.

Dear Bill Hader, please don't end badly. xox

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Hoo boy, school project I haven't even started on due tomorrow night as well as my boss from one of my jobs expects significant progress on the reports I've been putting off. Procrastination is eating me alive as usual.

 

[waived]

I don't think I'll ever post any of my art on here but I'm currently getting lost in some intense doodling after stalking around the share your art thread and feeling inspired so thank you literally everyone in that thread. And a little music.

 

[LastFlowers]

I just want to sleep forever right now, or at all for that matter.

 

[Deleted member 23374]

to have survived the symphony
only to realize
the exits are barred
the torches set

 

[Deleted member 23586]

I just don't get abusers, why do they have this victim complex? Are their egos so high that they believe the lies they tell themselves?

I felt every word you said hun. I know exactly how you feel. And it's so so hurtful. They say shit like this to try to convince themselves they are saints instead of the "sinners" they are. It's cognitive dissonance. Just know you aren't the problem they are. I am so so sorry that you have to go through this bs. Sending you love and gummy bears.

 

[http-410]

There's no point talking about change. We talk but don't change anything. Like always.

Well. If I can't escape from here, I need to escape from myself.

Tired. Too many thoughts... why do I always think about trains when I wanted to do it differently. Maybe because they are simply always there.
Because I stood there and saw it passing by. I only stood next to it and felt so exposed when it came. There has to be a better spot. I wonder how deformed my body would look. I wonder if there's a lot of anger behind the bubble.

No, I don't want to become mincemeat and I don't want to suffer in any other way. (But) There's no other choice.

It's hard to accept.
I still have trouble with that.

 

[Wraith]

Death is a paradoxical quest: it ends, but never truly begins.

 

[http-410]

This isn't therapy (anymore), this is just frustrating and pointless.

There couldn't be a better time to ctb.

A worldwide pandemic, shitty therapy results, no future, a broken brain, nothing to lose.

I wish the tracks weren't so far away.

 

[Wraith]

I make the worst decisions. I definitely wouldn't put the fate of the world in my hands, not unless you want it to end, which may be for the best, but what do I know?

 

[Shero]

I feel so cold. Everything feels so cold...

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I feel like Captain America did in the first movie, he can't get drunk no matter how much he wants to. In my case though, I can't get drunk because alcohol apparently reacts negatively with my diabetes medication (which explains why I've felt awful all the other times I drank recently). Shame. I kind of miss the taste of beer. Maybe I'll buy myself some non-alcoholic beer or root beer soon just to get the feeling...

 

[Deleted member 1465]

MSN

www.msn.com

Lovely, well rendered video. Unfortunately, for all the work that must have gone into this, I can't get past the fact that the virtual driver must be:
a) a motorcyclist who is hugging the lane division line, over-taking too close and not allowing space for those that over-take.
b) an arsehole.

 

[Deleted member 23374]

learning a new peace
the movement being everything
the sway, that dig into the string
when you know you shouldn't
that sound

 

[waived]

There's currently a genuine covid surge happening in the United States and it's not looking very good.

 

[Going Home]

Bulldog

 

[Hurt]

The weather is great here.

 

[Deleted member 23374]

there's a whole person in here somewhere

 

[http-410]

Really bad headaches today.

I still think about last night.
I called a "helpline" again and well, the lady at the other end was a bit strange and I didn't have the impression she really wanted to listen.
No, watching meditation videos on YouTube while my "life" is going downhill doesn't help. There is no help, I accept that, but at least... let me vent. I know, I vent a lot - even though it's quite pointless and I understand that it's quite annoying. But isn't it their job to listen at least? Also, keep religion and spirituality out of it. And please stop encouraging people to take pills, especially if they have bad experiences with them. Do they really believe pills solve everything?

I'm really tired now, my head hurts, and the rest of the evening will probably suck even more.

 

[antigone_iris]

I complain a lot, don't I? At least that's what some people say. It's a matter of perception.

Really bad headaches today.

I still think about last night.
I called a "helpline" again and well, the lady at the other end was a bit strange and I didn't have the impression she really wanted to listen.
No, watching meditation videos on YouTube while my "life" is going downhill doesn't help. There is no help, I accept that, but at least... let me vent. I know, I vent a lot - even though it's quite pointless and I understand that it's quite annoying. But isn't it their job to listen at least? Also, keep religion and spirituality out of it. And please stop encouraging people to take pills, especially if they have bad experiences with them. Do they really believe pills solve everything?

I'm really tired now, my head hurts, and the rest of the evening will probably suck even more.

Hey, I hope you'll feel better. You're right about meditation vids and spirituality. It's OK to vent, it's healthy. Pills help to some extent, but they're not always effective. Sending you hugs