Random thoughts

[PoisonedJuliet]

The old blunt box cutter in my room failed to get through my skin. Am I still clean?

Physically I would say yes but mentally and emotionally no. Just keep staying strong and fighting the urges. I know how hard it is <3

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Karma shoarma

 

[Forest Fire]

I'd pay for someone to put me in a coma rather than deal with the effects of withdrawal. Wake me up when it's done or give me a fatal dose. I'm not fussed either way I can't hack my life as it is, let alone getting worse

 

[throwaway123]

I don't want to care about love and relationships anymore. Who needs that shit anyway.

This.

 

[WOODESITY]

This morning was quiet peaceful for few minutes when i woke up, sunny day outside and not so much noises, suddenly imagined how great it would be to just drown myself somewhere, more time passes and more meaningless this life is to me, I wish i had some peaceful quick way to go. Wish i could just disappear

 

[Lorntroubles]

I have a few more months to go. Realizing this life will be it for me like wowww. I want this to happen, I hate this is what it all leads up to and for many of us, life ain't good!!!

 

[ReverendGreen]

My life and mental state are going down the toilet.

 

[throwaway123]

I don't want to live in this world anymore. Evil things happen to good people and good things happen to evil people. Everything here is so screwed up. This isn't right. I don't want to suffer anymore.
Somehow I keep thinking there might be hope but I can't keep it up anymore. I can't fight this world any longer. I'm not strong enough to do so. I can't take on the whole world. :(

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

The strangest thing is keeping me here

 

[BabyYoda]

All I want is my special person to love me back. That is all.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Well I wrote a lot of my notes tonight including most of the one to my mom and that was the hardest one. I feel so numb. I just cant believe this...I cant believe this is my life.

 

[throwaway123]

Nobody ever wants to talk to me.

I'm not sure if this will help anybody but never trust anyone. Even your so called friends are never your friends. Don't get attached to people, you'll only get hurt in the end. At the end of the day everyone thinks of themselves first.
Sad but true. I learned it the hard way. Even here....which says a lot.

 

[Klee]

I feel like my brain is turning to scrambled eggs.

 

[Epsilon0]

At the airport in Linz, a panic attack. I am looking at the tv annoucing the flight - it says Vienna.

I suddenly start hearing my heart beat very loudly and a deafening sound floods my ears. Overwhelming fear and nausea. Cold sweat. Watching people going by with their trollies. I can not breath properly - the air will not fill upp my lungs. Something heavy is crushing me down.

With shaking hands I unscrew the water bottle and take a sip. I try to find my anchor. I try to hear my own thoughts.

But the beating of my heart is now irregular and violent and my chest hurts. My chest is tight and it burns.

Fear... so much fear. I stand there looking at the word Vienna. It has a double N in it. Vienna... Vienna... Vienna...

My vision is blurred. The air around me is thick, like water.

So much fear.

 

[WOODESITY]

Nobody ever wants to talk to me.

I'm not sure if this will help anybody but never trust anyone. Even your so called friends are never your friends. Don't get attached to people, you'll only get hurt in the end. At the end of the day everyone thinks of themselves first.
Sad but true. I learned it the hard way. Even here....which says a lot.

I really wish i had that mindset just before i started to waste so much of my life on things and people, often i still find myself clinging on things and having a new desires and dreams, this morning was another realization for me to pause my robotic life and just try to find peace in upcoming non existence that is unavoidable.

 

[thx1138]

F**CK LIFE AND F**CK THE UNIVERSE I WANT TO GET THE F**CK OUT!!!

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

I'm so tired pretending everything is okay...

 

[RM5998]

I want to bawl my eyes out right now, but I can't do it at home. Need to hold it for a couple months. Then I can go to college and do it in the safety of my dorm room.

In Unbreakable, Bruce Willis' David Dunn.says that the sign of him falling out of love with his wife was him waking up from a nightmare and not going to her to hear her tell him it's okay. I just remembered that I haven't done this with my parents even when I've wanted to for 10 years at least. I wonder what I did wrong to make them hate me. I wonder exactly why I'm never good enough.

 

[K-O]

JUST STILL SHOCKED IM ALIVE AT THIS POINT..
NEVERENDING EVERSTRECHING MUSCLE
THE BOOMERANG THAT IS TRAUMA
THIS PAIN GAME..
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I feel bad for having a better day today when others had a terrible day

 

[Life sucks]

I'm too anhedonic right now that I want to kill myself

 

[Life sucks]

Many people have fake emotions. They have the fucking brain chemicals yet they are shitty and toxic to each other. They don't even appreciate art as much. I don't know how when I'm extremely anhedonic and unable to use my brain and probably using only 1%, I still feel and appreciate more than many. Although I get tortured by this pain but I know the value of enjoyment and emotions unlike those toxic who think its a regular thing.

 

[Lorntroubles]

It hurts so bad knowing my once active hopes and dreams have been crushed. Life does not always open new and better doors. Please remember that!!!!

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I felt like crying all day, it seems all i do is push people away..

 

[Remember to forget]

My random thought is why do I only have a like icon and no hug or heart one like others have?

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Today has been pretty shitty. Someone please just shoot me already

 

[Remember to forget]

My random thought is why do I only have a like icon and no hug or heart one like others have?

Thank you woodnote, I'm an idiot and had no idea you just had to hold the like button and the options come up. X

 

[waterbottleman]

FUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

 

[Brick In The Wall]

What does anything really mean? We're all just meat for the grinder that is life. There is no legacy that won't be forgotten. No words that haven't been spoken.

 

[Lorntroubles]

When I die, certain PEOPLE will make it about them and even say it was an accident because they refuse to ever look bad.