I feel bad. I feel like everyone is angry with me and no one likes me. I hate to complain. But I still do. I hate being selfish. I hate hating myself. I hate life.
Stones taught me to fly
Love ‒ it taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Love ‒ it taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
mesohappy
Cat piss sammich??
- Jan 10, 2020
- 674
Theres still good people in this world...Or maybe their just PEOPLE who do a lot of good.(?) Anyways its not ALL bad.
Sabriel
for in that sleep of death what dreams may come
- Jul 23, 2019
- 209
NumbItAll
expendable
- May 20, 2018
- 1,101
Hello SS. Haven't posted in a while. Feeling quite lonely and nostalgic right now.
omoidarui
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
- Apr 30, 2019
- 993
brokenchair
Member
- Jul 14, 2019
- 20
After my second failed relationship which is almost over I've come to an epiphany (and this is w.r.t. to my country's culture and people):
It's all fun and dandy for people to be friends with / date, folks in a wheelchair/with disability. But, when it comes to putting your foot down and making a commitment for life, for better for worse, they run like their life depends on it. No one wants the luggage that we potatoes bring with us.
We're like milestones along the highway - while most of traffic just passes by, some people might stop, click a picture or two, relax, have fun, before they decide to continue with their journey. But, the milestone isn't moving. It'll be there, waiting.
It's all fun and dandy for people to be friends with / date, folks in a wheelchair/with disability. But, when it comes to putting your foot down and making a commitment for life, for better for worse, they run like their life depends on it. No one wants the luggage that we potatoes bring with us.
We're like milestones along the highway - while most of traffic just passes by, some people might stop, click a picture or two, relax, have fun, before they decide to continue with their journey. But, the milestone isn't moving. It'll be there, waiting.
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,202
I'm supposed to be drawing up art for a gamejam now. Instead I'm watching random YouTube documentaries about drug addicts. It too me about 30 mins to get around to making sure that my laptop isn't using my busted GPU to run PS. I wish functioning on command was a thing for me.
And worse, I'm letting my team down here. It'd be easier if it were just me, but it isn't.
And worse, I'm letting my team down here. It'd be easier if it were just me, but it isn't.
Largeletters
Alone
- Jan 21, 2020
- 640
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
I'm completely lost. I don't know what to believe anymore. I'm so confused. I can't help but see the world as a cruel place. That's it and why would I want to live in a cruel world like this????? I hate this planet.
I think if anyone reads this who is not already suicidal and just checking this website out pls do not ever trust another human being. Never put your faith in one person. It will destroy you as it has destroyed me. People suck and it's their nature. The strong survive , the weak die. This is not a world I want to live in.
I still can't fathom what happened to me. All the years and it still feels like day one. I never thought I'd end up like this. Never.
I think if anyone reads this who is not already suicidal and just checking this website out pls do not ever trust another human being. Never put your faith in one person. It will destroy you as it has destroyed me. People suck and it's their nature. The strong survive , the weak die. This is not a world I want to live in.
I still can't fathom what happened to me. All the years and it still feels like day one. I never thought I'd end up like this. Never.
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mesohappy
Cat piss sammich??
- Jan 10, 2020
- 674
Welp,Im done with caffeine..This coffee's got me crawling out of my skin and quaking in my boots.
Damn anxiety through the roof.
Damn anxiety through the roof.
Carrotcake
Experienced
- Nov 27, 2019
- 265
So for starting treatment I need to be stable/not suicidal. But like. How am I supposed to feel less suicidal without any treatment.
Like buying scissors because you don't have them but needing scissors to open the package.
Like buying scissors because you don't have them but needing scissors to open the package.
Part of why I want to ctb is because my past defines me, the present and my future. A past I had no control over keeps me barred from leading a remotely happy life... because why would anyone want someone with lots of emotional baggage and ptsd issues when it's easy to find "normal" not so maladjusted people. A lonely life is a pointless life for me...it's just a slow death.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
How the fuck am I supposed to take his words? "You were a light in the darkness but eventually the dark became to much" but all of a sudden he's a completely different man? I was a rehab center for a broken man essentially. Where's my fucking light in the darkness?
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,202
I wish I could focus without cutting myself. I need to get my shit together and do some actual work for a change.
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
life is so miserable. I don't understand why people go to such great lengths to hurt each other.
everything hurts. there's nobody here. nobody cares. we live in an age of connectivity yet there is no true connection.
this is hell.
everything hurts. there's nobody here. nobody cares. we live in an age of connectivity yet there is no true connection.
this is hell.
Today I felt a little like my normal self. I called the water company with some questions. The representative was a very charming young lady who I flirted outrageously with over their appalling on-hold music that nearly gave me an fit. I had no intention of doing that, it just happened! She was really nice. Made me remember the confidence I once possessed before illness drove a truck through my life then reversed over it.
ForensicallyAware
Specialist
- Feb 10, 2020
- 314
Some peoples lives are so agonising it's cruel to make them live
Fuck the system
Fuck the system
Don't argue with other humans. Its a waste of time and effort. First, because languages are faulty and your idea would never truly reach them. Second, everything could devolve into plays of words and sophism. Stupid humans would just start meaningless arguments and not realize their faults and language's faults.
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enjoy
Creature
- Dec 20, 2019
- 337
gosh i am tired. therapy tomorrow. gonna talk about how i renovated my entire room in a little over a day. it made me feel good about myself. also gonna talk about finding better support systems and kicking the habit of procrastination. we'll see what happens. then, my best friend's birthday. i won't remember anything.
your pathologist
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
- Sep 5, 2018
- 519
Why is it like this
Why does it always come back
Why wont you listen to me
Why can't i explain myself
Why is every part of life excruciating
Why can't i disappear
Why does it always come back
Why wont you listen to me
Why can't i explain myself
Why is every part of life excruciating
Why can't i disappear
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,202
What do you do when you realize that you can't do the things you always wanted to, because you're simply not good enough?
BPDbitch
Experienced
- Nov 10, 2019
- 248
I'm so fucking ready to leave, but I can't risk another failed attempt so close to my last one so not sure if I should try or not, ughhhhh.
mesohappy
Cat piss sammich??
- Jan 10, 2020
- 674
I hope this mockingbird who has decided to take up residence outside my window finds a mate soon..Im starting to really lose patience with his little loudmouth ass.
ForensicallyAware
Specialist
- Feb 10, 2020
- 314
The world will never forgive you for not being king of the world.
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