Random thoughts

[Lefty]

My right foot is hurting.

 

[sadbunny]

1. I'm a mood killer aren't I? I should go Rip
2. The most unlovable person in the room

 

[C.Darko]

1. I'm a mood killer aren't I? I should go Rip
2. The most unlovable person in the room

Still cant PM yet have to wait till 9:40 until 24 hr mark is up :/

 

[kkatt]

Since I found ASH a few decades back,this community has been victim of several different,barely believable chancers,hoping to make some profit from good people like us,open to facing an imminent demise.
There was a lot of interest in leaving remains to science,which provided an opportunity for the black market to try to trick us into signing over our remains to their "institute". Fortunately,many of the ASHers are wiser than the Brazillian scammer anticipated. Their interest in the remains was not science (in case you hadn't guessed).
Most people here are aware how vulnerable they are and various predators and sick puppies that are out there.
Of course,there's the good old "Buy my cheap N" scam.
After 30 years,my advice is READ. read everything. The more you know,the less likely you are to become a victim.

 

[sadbunny]

Still cant PM yet have to wait till 9:40 until 24 hr mark is up :/

Ah right well if you're on discord I left my DiscordTag on your profile in the comments

 

[Return2Dust]

I sat outside at an absolutely beautiful location with tons of people and felt utterly alone. I watched family members interacting and having a good time, which made the feeling of isolation worse. I ached to be back home in my safe, predictable environment.

 

[blanketyblk]

His new baby is due the same week ours was. He said the miscarriage ruined him for life, that the pain of staying with me was too much. I guess she fixed him. So when they're celebrating a new life I'll be mourning the one the doctors had to suck out of me. How is that fucking fair?

oh god. i'm so sorry to hear that MorphineKiss. truly thats just so horrible and i'm so sorry you had to go though that. i wish i could say something to comfort you about it. but gosh girl you so much braver than i am. big hugs!

 

[Life sucks]

I don't know if this temporary but my body deteriorated badly these days, like I got 30 more years of age

 

[Lefty]

I'm so nervous right now.

 

[Return2Dust]

His new baby is due the same week ours was. He said the miscarriage ruined him for life, that the pain of staying with me was too much. I guess she fixed him. So when they're celebrating a new life I'll be mourning the one the doctors had to suck out of me. How is that fucking fair?

I'm so sorry Morphinekiss. A loss like that is not fucking fair at all. I can't even imagine the pain of watching him share the joy of a new baby with someone else. Sending you hugs.

 

[Morphinekiss]

And suddenly I have to meet with a transplant surgeon. What the fuck is even happening in my life?

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I hate today. Nov 7 is truly an evil soul crushing day for me. I hate all of November. It's just a month filled with trauma "anniversaries" and losses. I grieve the loss of 2 very special souls this month. Fuck the holidays. Nov-feb is just a horrible time of year.

I have the perfect opportunity to ctb but I don't have my sn so I'm stuck. I'm ready today. Why the fuck is it that on a day I'm ready and am at peace with going I didn't bring my sn.

I'm sick of fighting I'm sick of trying. Most of all I'm sick of being a "survivor". Mentally I'm dead and I'm in too bad of physical pain and issues to go on. Today was a perfect day to ctb and I can't even do it....still stuck in this hell that's called "life"

 

[Numbtopain97]

I feel like I'm being forced to live. By everyone, and myself.

 

[Morphinekiss]

I hate today. Nov 7 is truly an evil soul crushing day for me. I hate all of November. It's just a month filled with trauma "anniversaries" and losses. I grieve the loss of 2 very special souls this month. Fuck the holidays. Nov-feb is just a horrible time of year.

I have the perfect opportunity to ctb but I don't have my sn so I'm stuck. I'm ready today. Why the fuck is it that on a day I'm ready and am at peace with going I didn't bring my sn.

I'm sick of fighting I'm sick of trying. Most of all I'm sick of being a "survivor". Mentally I'm dead and I'm in too bad of physical pain and issues to go on. Today was a perfect day to ctb and I can't even do it....still stuck in this hell that's called "life"

August through November are the shittiest months for me. It's constant anniversaries of trauma after trauma. I'm so sorry today is such a bad day for you.

 

[sadgirl2002]

It's 1:15am and I should be asleep but instead, I'm crying about him. I wish I would just die in my sleep.

 

[Lefty]

Feeling in-between.

 

[woxihuanni]

It's difficult to remember the good things. While rationally I know they cannot simply erase the past, or pretend they did not have joy with me, their message of 'It was nothing anyway' is getting through to me these days. Again, it is not true and cannot be made true by their stubborn rejection. But still.

 

[BPD_LE]

I feel I'm being forced to go to this recovery centre. Support worker picking me up in 20mins. I don't want to go, but they're pushing and pushing. I'm anxious as hell and also angry because feel I have no choice. I have no idea what's going to happen.......
I'm just posting to pass the time until I get picked up. I feel sick and am chain smoking. Taken my diazepam, which didn't even touch the sides. This has totally ruined my day. How is this helping me? FFS!

 

[Flume]

I feel I'm being forced to go to this recovery centre. Support worker picking me up in 20mins. I don't want to go, but they're pushing and pushing. I'm anxious as hell and also angry because feel I have no choice. I have no idea what's going to happen.......

I wish I could say it'll be alright, but this reality is cruel beyond belief... I can only hope that it'll turn out ok for you.

 

[Life sucks]

My mental state is so complicated that I don't know what's happening

 

[Woodnote]

I'm not ok today. Everything hurts.

 

[Life sucks]

I'm having extremely depressive state because of this body. I don't know what to do

 

[Mort]

Well here a good one when was the larst time you had sum of the old rumpy pumpy ;) . Aka sex :P for me its bin about 10 years

 

[BPD_LE]

I'm so depressed. It's difficult to lift my head, but I have to.

 

[n0505]

Fuck i ran out of weed and i am going insane right now!!

Same here...

 

[woxihuanni]

Done all my chores today, yay. Except there is no satisfaction.

 

[Life sucks]

So I made a new online friend and we loved each other perfectly. But it was their day of ctb and they wanted to help me.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Apparently, liberal amounts of fruity tea with honey do help with sleep when your throat is dry as fuck.
Currently it's still a hypothesis for me despite being verifies by the rest of the internet because most of the internet does deal with epilepsy and its smaller, less expected side effects.

 

[Ame]

I'm sorry.

 

[vonvonwantpeace]

Von! Please don't give up today..