Random thoughts

[waived]

Anyone else ever wonder about receiving Likes on a post from multiple users within the same time frame, but in threads that are old/ancient and not on the front page?

 

[Jodes]

Anyone else ever wonder about receiving Likes on a post from multiple users within the same time frame, but in threads that are old/ancient and not on the front page?

maybe someone just mentioned it somewhere :)
what was it?

Can't fake it anymore..
Let this end.
want to be left alone.
My birth was a disaster..
There in no benefit from it.

What you trying to fake? Oh... I guess like me maybe. I'd quite happily live in an isolated cell. Oh wait! Here I am!

 

[Jodes]

I'm seriously fucked. I have so many issues with people but they are all so close with one another. It seems everyone is crazy but has a crazy that gets along well with other crazy... My crazy seems to be too crazy to fit in with anyone. Just beyond the threshold... I'm sorry if this is offensive but I really feel like I have autism sometimes...

That would class as at least one autistic trait. But it could be 100 other things or you're just normal. Not that anything's wrong with any of that. I'm just offended that you find autism offensive!

 

[Redt2go]

That would class as at least one autistic trait. But it could be 100 other things or you're just normal. Not that anything's wrong with any of that. I'm just offended that you find autism offensive!

I don't find autism offensive.... It's more like how people with depression find it offensive when people claim to be depressed over little things that make them sad or how people with OCD find it offensive that people who like things neat casually say they're OCD ...

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I had a dream last night that I was a ghost hitman. I was a ghost but could fool people into thinking I was alive. And then I became an international hitman. ... ...

 

[sadsoul]

I really hate losing people and it breaks my heart, but I'm addicted to this site and the lovely people on here are my only support system...

 

[enzyetee]

I'm scared of tomorrow...

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

Death Note drops from the sky

Picks up Death Note

Shinigami: Hello-

Writes my own name in Death Note

Shinigami: Am I a joke to you?

 

[Donewith_]

In all of this darkness..why is there no watchlight?

What you trying to fake? Oh... I guess like me maybe. I'd quite happily live in an isolated cell. Oh wait! Here I am!

that I am okay and normal..it's exhausting.
Sorry for you too.

 

[AhG]

Fighting the urge to get outta my warm and comfy bed so I don't have to get up in the cold and pee .-.
The struggle

 

[Memento Mori]

will future be rentable? i can't see any ways in the dark, and my flashlight has gone...it doesn't respond to me, i don't even stumble upon it anymore - where is it gone? i fear that i'll never find it again in this self-made dissociative world inside my soul.

Death Note drops from the sky
...

awesome XD

 

[Worthless_nobody]

How stupid I was to think i could recover and that he wanted me back/loves me. All i want is to be loved and be good enough for him. But here I am again back to my thoughts of ctb...I just want to be at peace im sick of struggling and trying in life and getting no where.

 

[Memento Mori]

How stupid I was to think i could recover and that he wanted me back/loves me. All i want is to be loved and be good enough for him. But here I am again back to my thoughts of ctb...I just want to be at peace im sick of struggling and trying in life and getting no where.

this demotivates me in my situation, guess it will end up the same...at least we can try some more i think. idk

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Who needs April Fools when life wakes you up with pain at 6:30am?

 

[throwaway123]

I refuse to participate in this rigged game. No effort of fighting is worth it. You too will lose in the end.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

Shit, the end is approaching. How to feel? how to feel? hmmm

 

[Memento Mori]

DEM FUCKIN MOSQUITOS

 

[Redt2go]

Someone's really fucking with my sim for shits and giggles... I hope they are having fun because I'm not

 

[Memento Mori]

Someone's really fucking with my sim for shits and giggles... I hope they are having fun because I'm not

u mean phone calls?

 

[Jodes]

Why did the board go so quiet in the few weeks I was away?

 

[Superfluous]

Why did the board go so quiet in the few weeks I was away?

Why did the board go so quiet since I joined and started posting...

 

[Redt2go]

u mean phone calls?

No lol sim as in the Sims as in simulation. ..

 

[throwaway123]

When I die I will stop existing. There is no afterlife.

 

[Redrock]

The forest started to turn green

 

[throwaway123]

It is really amazing how random life is. Being at the wrong spot at the wrong time and boom you're life is ruined. I can't really believe it.

I seriously can't believe it. Getting into a deadly encounters is getting more and more common in my area. At this point I've tried a lot of routes to avoid these kinds of situation but people are getting more and more angry. Where am I supposed to go? I want to move town but I'm too poor for that and I would have to give up my school education. Well I guess going to school is more important to my parents than ending up as a vegetable.

There used to be a few parts of town I avoid now I avoid all of them. Not kidding. This always happens when I go home from school. And do you know why? Because when I get home from school is the only time I am outside the house. There are reasons why I am afraid.

Today there was this guy who yelled at me, he came right into my face, looked me in the eye and then fucked off. There was a police car not far from me. I figured this is the reason he didn't attack me. Only later I realized he wasn't alone and he had a beer bottle in his hand. He wanted to throw that against my head. That would've ruined me. I still can't believe I got so lucky this time. I don't know what to do next time when there isn't a police car around.

A few weeks ago there were those two guys with knifes in their pockets. I am behind them casually trying to walk past them but I slowly start to realize that they start walking more and more slowly and they keep looking over their shoulder over to me. In the end I take a completely different route home. I was really scared that day.
That wasn't the only time. It has happened twice so far.
I can not defend myself. My body is weak because my mind is and even if I was able to defend myself. What would I do? Fight back and I'll end up in prison. Do nothing and I end up in a hospital. All I have is run away but my stamina is weak.

At this point I figure it is just a matter of time until I get into another confrontation. I am seriously starting to consider moving. I have been for a while now.

The reason I get into situations like this so often is because of my skin colour. People don't like "foreigner" here. Even though I was born here people consider me to be a foreigner.

I don't know where to move. Most parts of the country are bad. Maybe I could move to another country but that is so hard. Fucking parents and their shit.

 

[Jodes]

It is really amazing how random life is. Being at the wrong spot at the wrong time and boom you're life is ruined. I can't really believe it.

I seriously can't believe it. Getting into a deadly encounters is getting more and more common in my area. At this point I've tried a lot of routes to avoid these kinds of situation but people are getting more and more angry. Where am I supposed to go? I want to move town but I'm too poor for that and I would have to give up my school education. Well I guess going to school is more important to my parents than ending up as a vegetable.

There used to be a few parts of town I avoid now I avoid all of them. Not kidding. This always happens when I go home from school. And do you know why? Because when I get home from school is the only time I am outside the house. There are reasons why I am afraid.

Today there was this guy who yelled at me, he came right into my face, looked me in the eye and then fucked off. There was a police car not far from me. I figured this is the reason he didn't attack me. Only later I realized he wasn't alone and he had a beer bottle in his hand. He wanted to throw that against my head. That would've ruined me. I still can't believe I got so lucky this time. I don't know what to do next time when there isn't a police car around.

A few weeks ago there were those two guys with knifes in their pockets. I am behind them casually trying to walk past them but I slowly start to realize that they start walking more and more slowly and they keep looking over their shoulder over to me. In the end I take a completely different route home. I was really scared that day.
That wasn't the only time. It has happened twice so far.
I can not defend myself. My body is weak because my mind is and even if I was able to defend myself. What would I do? Fight back and I'll end up in prison. Do nothing and I end up in a hospital. All I have is run away but my stamina is weak.

At this point I figure it is just a matter of time until I get into another confrontation. I am seriously starting to consider moving. I have been for a while now.

The reason I get into situations like this so often is because of my skin colour. People don't like "foreigner" here. Even though I was born here people consider me to be a foreigner.

I don't know where to move. Most parts of the country are bad. Maybe I could move to another country but that is so hard. Fucking parents and their shit.

That is extreme, I'm so sorry. I don't know how you do that day after day!! Honestly, you have skills you don't realise. AND You're a lot harder than you think. AND you're obviously smart and looking forwards the future. You're facing near impossible choices, making them under huge pressures. But I can tell you that what you wrote has been thought through. I'm inclined to agree that moving within the country could be better, maybe there are less hostile areas - maybe you could find out using social media, talking to people in different areas to see what they think if it's a xenophobic/racist area.

 

[Zer0]

Sometimes when i am in the middle of a mental breakdown i really want to cut my hair even if my hair is the only thing i like in myself (i am a guy and i am growing my hair for 2 years ).

 

[Misanthrope]

Going to falconry today. Not done it for so long, really excited but worried that during travel the nausea will hit hard. I so desperately need a good experience.

 

[throwaway123]

Tragedy
I can't get myself to do anything.

 

[Redt2go]

Lately in addition to being sad about my condition it seems that those around me are suffering as well... I can't tell if I'm being overemotional or if things are really as sad as they seem.... moments like this I miss the numbness....