Discussion Questions for other disabled people

[chaoscorrupted]

Sorry if this comes off weird, but I am physically and mentally disabled myself due to being a victim of child torture. I hate myself and my disabilities and I feel like a burden every day, im such a pathetic fuck up and im so weird and stupid. I feel like I just deserve to die because I can't even walk without assistance. My whole life is fucked up because of something I can't control, and I hate it, I want my life to end. Half the times I can't even afford my medications, and my insurance just got cut off. Im nothing but a financial and physical burden to my family. Im so mad that I never got a chance to be normal, that my life was ruined when I couldn't even defend it. Now I'm just a useless waste of space and everyone around me makes it obvious that I'm just a pathetic burden. I have nerve damage and it makes me scared of pain, I can never hurt myself correctly and I don't know how I'll ever gain the courage to finally end it all, i just hope it'll come naturally

 

[The Blackangel]

I'm stuck in a goddamn wheelchair for the rest of my life, so I understand exactly how you feel. I was molested as a child, and have been sexually assaulted as an adult. I've tried to end it all more times than I care to admit. I don't want to be here anymore, and have felt the same way my entire life. Since I was in diapers. Now, due to being incontinent, I'm back in them. All I'm able to do is sit around and play video games. Don't get me wrong, I'm a lifelong gamer. But I want more purpose than that. If my forge was finished, I would be back at bladesmithing. My bikes are all behind a bunch of shit, so I can't work on them. I repair and build rideable bikes from salvage. And I can't work on other crafts like worm rods. For those wondering what that means, it's a special rod that you stick in the ground that drives worms to the surface. Including nightcrawlers. So easy fish bait.

I'm not able to make any general crafts either. I AM a burden. To my wife, my pets, and myself. My wife won't admit it, but I can often se it in her eyes.

Death is the only thing that would give anyone here relief. And since I'm a complete failure at doing it, I just have to hope every night when I go to bed that I won't wake up.