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After researching & talking to you'll I realised that Cyanide tastes absolutely horrible.

There's only one person who wrote about its taste and he said it is acrid(bitter) and burns & stings (like spicy).

So I was afraid that I might vomit it out on the D Day. Hence, I came up with a plan:

To get accustomed to taste of cyanide, I made a bitter & burning concoction of most bitter tree leaves in my country, lots of tea leaves, bitter tree sticks & put dozens of green, red chilli with lots of black pepper, cloves. It became red & gave dangerous stench. I boiled it in water for a long time. I inhaled the stench and used it as a mouthwash & gargle to get accustomed to the taste. Surprisingly I didn't feel as much bitterness & burning sensation I'd expected. But that's good :)

I'll keep making more & more bitter and spicy concoctions to increase my tolerance.
It's kind of like a unique mouthwash lol
 
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Aug 20, 2022
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That's smart, I hope it works for you
 
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thebunny

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be what they fear.
Aug 19, 2022
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or perhaps you could simply take shots of strong liquor from time to time, just to get used to the "burning" and "stinging" sensation. if alcohol isn't alright for you, i hope you find the peace you're looking for and i hope your method works for you in the long run.

PS. not promoting alcohol. it's just the first thing that came to mind when you said that it tasted bitter and it burns.
 
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[HNO]

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Aug 21, 2022
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why not empty drug capsules and fill em up with protective equipment on or buy gelatine capsules of extra size via internet. PPeH had explained this procedure on section related to TCA's overdose
 
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FuneralCry

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That really does sound like it tastes awful. It makes a lot of sense trying to increase your tolerance to it. I wish you the best with what you are doing.
 
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houseofleaves

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and this with thee remains.
Jan 14, 2022
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This is so creative! I wish you luck, OP, whatever you choose to do next.
 
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Smart No More

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Honestly I think you may be causing yourself unnecessary suffering. I couls be wrong but that's my instinct. I say this because when the time comes you will be using a a different substance and it has its own sting. Resistance training of tastebuds may have mildly beneficial effects but I think they will massively outweighed by the suffering it took to get there. Not only that but what follows will really overshadow any benefits. The horrible taste will be a distant memory quite quickly. This is purely opinion though it is based in logic.


I think, perhaps a numbing agent would be more beneficial. Lidocaine would be the ideal one. It can be bought from china in powder form. Probably domestically too if you can do a bit of searching around. It would most likely involve some clandestine activity though.

With the quantity of cyanide needed it might actually be viable to use gel caps as someone above suggested. I know that with things like N and SN it's not viable due to sheer numbers needed and subsequent mass of gel inhibiting uptake in the stomach. However with something that requires much less it may just work. I guess that would require some research to confirm though.
 
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Do you have cyanide in powder, capsule, tablet?
 
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why not empty drug capsules and fill em up with protective equipment on or buy gelatine capsules of extra size via internet. PPeH had explained this procedure on section related to TCA's overdose
Hmm...it's a Lil hard to put cyanide in those pills. Also absorption is slow. Will think tho
That really does sound like it tastes awful. It makes a lot of sense trying to increase your tolerance to it. I wish you the best with what you are doing.
Thank you so much
Honestly I think you may be causing yourself unnecessary suffering. I couls be wrong but that's my instinct. I say this because when the time comes you will be using a a different substance and it has its own sting. Resistance training of tastebuds may have mildly beneficial effects but I think they will massively outweighed by the suffering it took to get there. Not only that but what follows will really overshadow any benefits. The horrible taste will be a distant memory quite quickly. This is purely opinion though it is based in logic.


I think, perhaps a numbing agent would be more beneficial. Lidocaine would be the ideal one. It can be bought from china in powder form. Probably domestically too if you can do a bit of searching around. It would most likely involve some clandestine activity though.

With the quantity of cyanide needed it might actually be viable to use gel caps as someone above suggested. I know that with things like N and SN it's not viable due to sheer numbers needed and subsequent mass of gel inhibiting uptake in the stomach. However with something that requires much less it may just work. I guess that would require some research to confirm though.
Hi,
I understand your point. But I just want to build tolerance. I really don't mind pain at this point. I actually suffer from Chronic pain due to health issues. So I've a lot of experience :P

Agree with your numbing agent suggestion. I'll try to buy some. Preferably benzocaine & ice to numb.

Gels caps are bit hard for me. I have doubts.
Do you have cyanide in powder, capsule, tablet?
Powder
Sorry guys I got caught up in work & couldn't reply on this thread on time.
 
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