Prep thread

[Aphid]

Title suggests this is just to document as I prep my CTB.

Today im starting by writing letters, and rewriting my will after work. Even though ive been writing my whole life im not much of a good writer any longer; im unsure what changed. I'll be writing several letters to friends and family. I'll also be writing a separate letter, more a document, to label all the horrible things I've done, so they are all in writing when it is all said and done so I may be judged after my death properly.

Any thoughts or suggestions

 

[Aphid]

Between fsh and psh, I've gone for psh. The last time I attempted it was perfect. Everything went well, I've chosen to write.

I was going to post the writings here but I've decided against it as it would be so much less personal to everyone if I were to.

I'm going on a trip soon. I'll be taking my partner to the aquarium and several places she's always wanted to see. I will spend everything, and then when I am home, I will send my letters and catch the bus. If im correct I'll set the date for all my premade uploads to go live on the hour that I am to hang myself. A few videos and some music projects, works, stories, unreleased work.

My workplace has sat me down and talked to me because they believe im about to do something bad, they aren't wrong, but having to say no feels wrong. I want to mean something I want to be heard I want to get better but I don't. I don't.
ill decide a date after the trip.