Story possibly goodbye thread

[hewiof]

took the OD, am happy that it's over. gonna go hang now. Will update if I live. bye guys, thanks for sticking by me to the end. I hope you all find happiness

 

[Helvete]

Love you man, hope you can find peace :)

 

[arthurkuzechov]

I appreciate both of your concerns, and I agree that something like N would objectively be a better ctb method. As for the SN, I'm not willing to purchase it since 1. I need to die right now 2. I have panic disorder and me ordering substances overseas would freak me the fuck out. hanging is also a tried and proven method for ctb. I don't want to wait any longer. sorry

I think you don't have to sorry. I respect your decision and I understand you. You a free person and you have all rights to ctb with any method that you like or choose. We are just worrying about you and don't want that you would suffer more than now. Just be careful. May peace be with you. I respect you and no matter what you will do or choose and you are brave person.

 

[LunarLight]

Godspeed. May you find peace.

 

[hewiof]

tiij nire ckibdube 19=0oils ow hbig hella hakkucinatns refuf teh nosse so is nore confy
akso doppped n ny oihn down the bakcb iios

 

[Helvete]

Bless you man, I hope you are feeling amazing right now! Hallucinations can be tough sometimes with those medications. Do whatever is comfortable for you, and I hope you are at peace. Sending love your way :)

 

[rozeske]

I really hope you are ok or that you have found your peace. This level of disorientation can make you mess up a hanging setup.

 

[hewiof]

ttppally fuckef it he first nooos I felun cinous but save muwlfbut t tyef another noose but I wam super fifoling loopya haolufination andI justhi t teh floot ehrj I py ho;
I nwwdr o ry again butI" ms ofuked oufo my iminf if Iacan suvvevsfully hang, iiht for gor jassive vloiinn of isnetea

 

[sussshiroll]

ttppally fuckef it he first nooos I felun cinous but save muwlfbut t tyef another noose but I wam super fifoling loopya haolufination andI justhi t teh floot ehrj I py ho;
I nwwdr o ry again butI" ms ofuked oufo my iminf if Iacan suvvevsfully hang, iiht for gor jassive vloiinn of isnetea

I told you this method is not reliable, Don't try anymore or you may end up paralyzed, Take a sleep this night

 

[Helvete]

Agreed, I think you shouldnt try again for risk of permanent damage. Try to make it to bed or the couch and find something to just chill out and do. Maybe put some Family Guy on the TV and grab something to sip on until the hallucinations wear off :)

 

[hewiof]

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Agreed, I think you shouldnt try again for risk of permanent damage. Try to make it to bed or the couch and find something to just chill out and do. Maybe put some Family Guy on the TV and grab something to sip on until the hallucinations wear off :)

you are rih=ght, willstoip owl but I also jbe taken a mega doeoc cloninde (more than I specified inm yoi st( si U susoet uwuk hve tifg ithehusgak wnayy,

 

[Helvete]

If you are saying "Clonidine" then I think a mega dose of that may just make you pass out for good while. Hope you have a restful evening <3
And yes, you will feel weak from taking those too so sleeping it off is probably your best bet at this point

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Are you ok? How do you feel?

 

[LunarLight]

Sorry to read you've not been successful. Try to sleep on it, you'll be better off tomorrow.

 

[ArgentApricot]

hope you're having a good trip buddy, you'll get it next time

 

[hewiof]

hi guys, I forgot go upfsgr ubut zi fifnt enf up grwoingthorugh w it; I took 100 x 0.1mg clonifine and did a partial. I wkoke up conculsing. surprisnglIdn= feel anybaf effects fom the clonidine oherthan being weak n shit att typing rn

 

[hailspark]

hi guys, I forgot go upfsgr ubut zi fifnt enf up grwoingthorugh w it; I took 100 x 0.1mg clonifine and did a partial. I wkoke up conculsing. surprisnglIdn= feel anybaf effects fom the clonidine oherthan being weak n shit att typing rn

I'm glad you seem to be doing better :) but please make sure you rest and don't take anything else till you're recovered

 

[ArgentApricot]

hi guys, I forgot go upfsgr ubut zi fifnt enf up grwoingthorugh w it; I took 100 x 0.1mg clonifine and did a partial. I wkoke up conculsing. surprisnglIdn= feel anybaf effects fom the clonidine oherthan being weak n shit att typing rn

maybe it's a good time to order some food and watch some cartoons or something. Even if you feel alone right now, you can always jump into the chat when you can type a little better. hang in there dude.

 

[Zanmato]

hi guys, I forgot go upfsgr ubut zi fifnt enf up grwoingthorugh w it; I took 100 x 0.1mg clonifine and did a partial. I wkoke up conculsing. surprisnglIdn= feel anybaf effects fom the clonidine oherthan being weak n shit att typing rn

Feel better now?

 

[thedevilwithin]

hope you're okay :(

 

[thelazyegg]

Read this and am feeling really concerned for you OP. I hope you are not having any serious complications. Please update us when you are feeling better. We care

 

[Ash’Girl]

Sending you a hug, OP. I hope you're doing ok today, or as ok as you can be.

 

[Dliena]

I do honestly hope all is alright for you today OP. And sending some support.

 

[cheese.out]

i hope youre doing better now, sending lots of hugs

 

[restless.dreams]

I hope you're okay. Please get some rest, we are here for you <3

 

[Dot]

And if something goes wrong you gonna end up not dying and paralyzed for 30 or more years really? SN or N you ctb %100

Educ8tng ppl of rsks = 1 thng bt pls d/ nt push methds on2 ppl

 

[hewiof]

hi guys, what I meant to say was I tried to hang myself and lost consciousness and woke up convulsing on the floor. Am fine btw, no side effects from the medications other than low blood pressure for a while. my messages probably sound a bit concerning but I was finding it pretty hard to type
thanks for the well wishes, I've read through all these messages and I really appreciate it. in hospital rn but once I get out of here I'll make sure I succeed in ctb
the clonidine overdose was incredibly pleasant tbh, I think i just fucked it up by doing a partial instead of a full hanging. I'm really fucking pissed that I lived
my sense of hearing was quite bad for a few days after the hanging but I've fully recovered otherwise
I'm either gonna do a full hanging or jump off one of the cliffs in my area as soon as I get out of hospital

 

[LunarLight]

How's it going in the hospital? Do they treat you right?

 

[hewiof]

How's it going in the hospital? Do they treat you right?

its going alright but they did put me on suicide watch which sucks. hopefully ill be outta here soon

 

[Zanmato]

the clonidine overdose was incredibly pleasant tbh

Really?
Honestly, I didn't expected this
Don't know why, but I though it was more... painful?