Discussion Plan on Ctb tomorrow night

[William Barker]

In my opinion you must be brave to go through with it. I wish you the best.

I've been a coward all my life, so if I can be brave, just this once, I can die proud of myself.

 

[Rockman]

I wish be brave like you. How old are you if i can?

 

[Pryras]

William good morning! You are an amazing writer and you damn better finish your stories before you make any sort of decision on here. I'm here if you need me please don't do anything impulsive, you're pain is valid, and I'm sorry the company you have is some of the most insensitive I've seen. We are here and so am I.

 

[William Barker]

I wish be brave like you. How old are you if i can?

32. I could have maybe done far more with my life. Maybe been a writer, if I could have only found my salvation. Instead, I wasted my years feeling sorry for myself and trying to forget the day before as though it were merely a bad dream.

 

[pebpebpebpeb]

32. I could have maybe done far more with my life. Maybe been a writer, if I could have only found my salvation. Instead, I wasted my years feeling sorry for myself and trying to forget the day before as though it were merely a bad dream.

do you still wish to talk over reddit? sorry if im acting clingy or something but i just want to talk :)

 

[William Barker]

do you still wish to talk over reddit? sorry if im acting clingy or something but i just want to talk :)

Sure. It's okay. I crave clingy. At least, I did.

 

[William Barker]

Update: It's now 1:28

I'm in the mood to share something wildly inappropriate by yours truly.

Frisky the snowrabbit

Frisky the snow rabbit was a very bawdy, horny soul, with a menthol cigarette, a bottle cap nose, and two eyes made of skoal!
They pretend he's just a fairy tail, but we all know how he came to life from the yellow snow!

There must have been some magic left in that old silk condom those punks found, for when they placed it on his head, he began to meet my dance around!
Oh, Frisky the snow rabbit was as loutish as unbound!

And the women all say, that he can laugh and "play" just the same as you or me.
Humpetty hump hump, humpetty hump hump!
He's as happy as can be.

Why, just look at Frisky go!
At it with the trees!
The sun, hot that day,
Frisky wanted more play,
Before he melted into pee!

 

[Living sucks]

How are you feeling today? 2nd thoughts?

 

[Living sucks]

I can't even bare pics from when i was happy. It's too much to take. Lost too much and haven't had a single good moment in almost 3 years. If you have health you should stay. Not knowing is torture. At least you know what you have here now

 

[William Barker]

I can't even bare pics from when i was happy. It's too much to take. Lost too much and haven't had a single good moment in almost 3 years. If you have health you should stay. Not knowing is torture. At least you know what you have here now

What I have here is a broken heart, a nearly empty house, and a completely empty life.

 

[Living sucks]

I relate broken in a million pieces but lost my home and everything i cherished. My health being the worst casualty and my heart. No words can describe my pain trauma and utter loss. What's your time plan? Have you started with taking things ?
I just re read you only plan to farst then sn and mint. Nothing to prepare

 

[William Barker]

I relate broken in a million pieces but lost my home and everything i cherished. My health being the worst casualty and my heart. No words can describe my pain trauma and utter loss. What's your time plan? Have you started with taking things ?

Only taking the SN, but I may take some tums half an hour before hand. I plan on getting started on things after my father goes to sleep tonight. I can't have him interfering, after all.

I plan on doing a blood test, just to be sure, but i'm fairly positive I wasn't cheated.

 

[Jumper Geo]

Sorry you can't go on I hope you have explored all the different options available to you, like speaking to someone you trust if you have someone, I know it makes everything more difficult being isolated at home so I hope you find the peace you are looking for, if you don't mind me asking how many hours until you drink the SN, you know if you decide not to ctb there is no shame, but if you can please give us a final update of how and what you experience after drinking it.

Best wishes

Geo

 

[one4all]

@William Barker May i PM you on a question?

 

[William Barker]

Midnight or 0ne. Depending on when my elderly father goes to rest.

I plan on keeping everyone updated until my very final moment.

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Go ahead.

 

[Donk]

Only taking the SN, but I may take some tums half an hour before hand. I plan on getting started on things after my father goes to sleep tonight. I can't have him interfering, after all.

I plan on doing a blood test, just to be sure, but i'm fairly positive I wasn't cheated.

will you have more than one glass of SN in case you vomit?

 

[Jumper Geo]

Midnight or 0ne. Depending on when my elderly father goes to rest.

I plan on keeping everyone updated until my very final moment.

Thanks, I hope you find the peace your looking for.

 

[William Barker]

will you have more than one glass of SN in case you vomit?

I plan on making at least one back-up cup, but I read you can still successfully catch the bus even if you do vomit.

 

[Living sucks]

I couldn't do it unless i was alone or had a partner doing same. You plan to post on here with updates? I just read one from Feb. i stumbled on sounds like it wasn't painful but i think he did the 48 hour regime

 

[Jumper Geo]

I plan on making at least one back-up cup, but I read you can still successfully catch the bus even if you do vomit.

Just curious did you follow Stan's guide at all, like fasting etc.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[William Barker]

I couldn't do it unless i was alone or had a partner doing same. You plan to post on here with updates? I just read one from Feb. i stumbled on sounds like it wasn't painful but i think he did the 48 hour regime

Yes, I plan on doing updates every step of the way.

 

[one4all]

I plan on making at least one back-up cup, but I read you can still successfully catch the bus even if you do vomit.

I know you aren't using any AEs. But what about also taking Tylenol/acetaminophen an hour before doing the SN?

 

[William Barker]

Just curious did you follow Stan's guide at all, like fasting etc.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

I'm fasting. Stan says all you really need is the SN. Everything is just for comfort.

 

[Donk]

it sucks to know someone is bout to ctb soon but i support you until the end if this is what you want.

 

[William Barker]

I know you aren't using any AEs. But what about also taking Tylenol/acetaminophen an hour before doing the SN?

Would taking a few help? I have some of that and tums. I was planning on taking a couple tums half an hour before hand.

 

[Jumper Geo]

I'm fasting. Stan says all you really need is the SN. Everything is just for comfort.

Yes sorry I read your plan after I sent it, seems like you have it all covered, fasting, back up cup mouthwash and mint for afterwards.

Cheers Geo

 

[one4all]

Would taking a few help? I have some of that and tums. I was planning on taking a couple tums half an hour before hand.

I've read things that it helps with mitigating headaches or pains. But also seen some posts about it helping with the process.

Drug Interaction Report: acetaminophen, sodium nitrite

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[schopenh]

I'm following this. Good luck. No shame in deciding it's not the time. On the other hand if you go through with it, I hope it's peaceful. I'll be here all night if there's anything you want to say to someone in these final hours.

 

[desperatemen83]

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

 

[William Barker]

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

I read your thread and saw your picture with a young child. If it is your picture I see sadness in your eyes, beneath all. I think most of us, have that look. Somehow (maybe I a
m saying too much) I think you have more to give to the world, and it doesn't have to be your time yet, no matter how bad things are looking to you now. There is lot life energy around you, seems like you have a lot more otjings to give. Also, good looking guy. I hope you will stay with us, even for just a bit longer.

It's me in the picture. The child is my stepson.

And here I thought I looked happy...