Discussion Plan on Ctb tomorrow night

[Lostandfound7]

Mate your handwriting is unbelievably large for an adult. However old are you?

????

I'm also an adult with very large handwriting ..

 

[Painpleasure]

No offence meant. I'm just genuinely shocked that a sober grown man can genuinely write in such large incongruent font. I hope you all the best with your situation.

 

[MsPotts]

@Painpleasure, that comment was so unnecessary. The fuck you on this page for?

 

[bpdandme]

Update: I was able to get my savings back, so now I'm free to run away to wherever.

Just for kicks, anyone have any suggestions?

I currently live in Maryland, btw.

do you want to stay in America?Why don't you go travelling maybe? Vietnam? Cambodia?

 

[William Barker]

do you want to stay in America?Why don't you go travelling maybe? Vietnam? Cambodia?

Could. I have no qualms about leaving America behind.

 

[enjolras]

Spoiler

Of course, this is meant as metaphorical. Not promoting + discouraging domestic violence.

Thought you were UK based. USA is large to get lost. I would go to Mount Denali (personal dream place) to plant an improvised cross at its peak
...or anywhere where there's inspiration to find (reminder) !

 

[Otter]

No offence meant. I'm just genuinely shocked that a sober grown man can genuinely write in such large incongruent font. I hope you all the best with your situation.

Likely a trait of the creative

 

[Painpleasure]

Likely a trait of the creative

Indeed.

 

[William Barker]

Update: been staring at maps all day, still no idea where the hell to go.

But I live in Maryland, so maybe I could just head north and see where I end up?

Or south?

Or west?

Ugh.

 

[Spacing Out]

I may have just (finally) created an account just to comment here. I had been thinking about it but this was the push, so thanks.

First things first, I'm genuinely so happy that you decided to stay even a bit longer. I'm 10 years your junior but you truly are super handsome, so I really don't know what the people in your life are going on about. Although, I've had the same experience. To hell with them. Also, I'm studying English in uni and love writing too, and I have to say, you're so talented! The first paragraph (re: the devils of alcohol, also a demon in my life) is gripping and I think I stopped breathing as I read, it was so good. The imagery in the words is beautiful.

I have dreams of running away, too. For me, that lies in the Pacific Northwest, for some reason. I'm fascinated by the pine trees (probably because they're common where I grew up and I miss them) and honestly, the cryptozoology prevalent there LOL. The stories of small forest towns with the diner and all that are captivating and sometimes those dreams are what keep me alive at night. The novel I'm working on is set there, actually. I thought you might like to look into it! Seattle and Portland are just super intriguing to me, although it would probably be BC for me (Canadian).

Side note: your stepson is adorable. I started laughing out loud at "this is a minecraft iguana." He seems like a sweetheart!

This was a ramble. I haven't made enough posts to DM yet, but once I do, I'm open!

 

[Spacing Out]

I know that feeling. I'm not sure if this is helpful, but sometimes creating can help you even when you're in that hole. After all, people like Stephen King created amazing things when they were at their worst. I think you could maybe use it as a way to help you get out, or even just to exist.

I'm so sorry about your son, though, because I think it's fair if you call him that. Those messages you shared sound like he misses you, too, and I genuinely think he would choose to see you despite his mother's wishes. If she doesn't let him see you if he wants to and you haven't done anything to harm him... she's absolutely cruel, in my opinion. Is there any chance you can have phone calls with him more often? I'm not sure the relationship with her, but it's worth a shot, maybe. I can tell that your bond with him would extend beyond any relationship you have or had with her.

 

[Otter]

My son is being "cared for" by his grandparents, who hated me from day one, while my "wife" drinks and smokes pot, and God only knows what else.

I wasn't able to adopt him, so I have no rights whatsoever. I wanted to see him yesterday, and Lenore didn't just say no, she ignored every single thing I said to her.

He doesn't message me very much these days, it hurts, but I think he's moving on.

In all honesty, it might be more painful for him to see you sporadically, if you're not allowed back in on a regular basis ( I'm not a therapist or anything, just trying to put myself in his and his mom's place)

 

[William Barker]

In all honesty, it might be more painful for him to see you sporadically, if you're not allowed back in on a regular basis ( I'm not a therapist or anything, just trying to put myself in his and his mom's place)

Agreed.

In all honesty, it might be more painful for him to see you sporadically, if you're not allowed back in on a regular basis ( I'm not a therapist or anything, just trying to put myself in his and his mom's place)

 

[Spacing Out]

In all honesty, it might be more painful for him to see you sporadically, if you're not allowed back in on a regular basis ( I'm not a therapist or anything, just trying to put myself in his and his mom's place)

See, I'm not sure. My parents divorced when I was youngish and I saw my dad a good deal less. I'm not sure what hurt more - seeing my parents fight about it, seeing him a bit less, or what it felt like when I thought he was pulling out of my life altogether. If you just pull out... that's something to consider too. Of course, I'm no therapist either. Take that with a grain of salt. There's a difference between moving on and figuring out how to live under new circumstances, I think.

Either way, I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this. I'm here if you ever need to rant.

 

[William Barker]

See, I'm not sure. My parents divorced when I was youngish and I saw my dad a good deal less. I'm not sure what hurt more - seeing my parents fight about it, seeing him a bit less, or what it felt like when I thought he was pulling out of my life altogether. If you just pull out... that's something to consider too. Of course, I'm no therapist either. Take that with a grain of salt. There's a difference between moving on and figuring out how to live under new circumstances, I think.

Either way, I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this. I'm here if you ever need to rant.

I wish to God I could see him. I'd give anything. Not having him apart of my life is killing me inside

Cab you pm yet?

 

[Spacing Out]

I wish to God I could see him. I'd give anything. Not having him apart of my life is killing me inside

Cab you pm yet?

I'm so sorry. I can only imagine that pain, but the thought of it tears me apart too.

I'm not sure. I think I've passed the post threshold but it's not showing up. Perhaps I need to wait 24 hours? I'm honestly not sure. If there's another way you would want to talk, let me know, I would be okay with that.

 

[William Barker]

I'm so sorry. I can only imagine that pain, but the thought of it tears me apart too.

I'm not sure. I think I've passed the post threshold but it's not showing up. Perhaps I need to wait 24 hours? I'm honestly not sure. If there's another way you would want to talk, let me know, I would be okay with that.

Do you have Facebook? I'm easy to find.

 

[Spacing Out]

Do you have Facebook? I'm easy to find.

Technically yes, but I would be concerned about people noticing the messages when they pop up. Although I suppose I can turn off notifications until my PMs work and then delete the conversation. That would be for both of our protection, of course. :) I have a couple days until that would be the case anyway. I'll try to find you.

 

[Vault of Memories]

Mate your handwriting is unbelievably large for an adult. However old are you?

No offence meant. I'm just genuinely shocked that a sober grown man can genuinely write in such large incongruent font. I hope you all the best with your situation.

Don't understand why you think these comments are appropriate or even necessary. Especially on a site like this and thread with this title...

 

[Spacing Out]

I must admit, I'm having a hell of a time finding you. I hate to ask, but could you perhaps link it in a spoiler and then edit it or delete the post immediately after I message/add you?

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Do you have Facebook? I'm easy to find.

If that's the case, then I'd gently and respectfully suggest deleting your ex's first name from posts and, especially, deleting photos of your stepson.

Not everyone on this site full of anonymous strangers has good and kind intentions, and posting identifying info about others puts them at risk. Out yourself all you want, but it's unfair to the others in your life, even if one of them has hurt you.

Hope you don't view this as an attack, it's not. I'm using my reason to appeal to yours, especially as you may not have considered the potential wider scope of your actions.

I must admit, I'm having a hell of a time finding you. I hate to ask, but could you perhaps link it in a spoiler and then edit it or delete the post immediately after I message/add you?

You're not the only one who will see it though. Many people are following this thread and will receive notifications.

 

[Spacing Out]

Strange. I tried pretty much all options and you didn't pop up. Considering I've seen your face, I would have noticed in a heartbeat, but definitely not. Facebook is odd sometimes. Regardless, I messaged you! It may be in message requests.

 

[William Barker]

Strange. Nothing piped up yet

 

[Spacing Out]

You're not the only one who will see it though. Many people are following this thread and will receive notifications.

This is true. I hadn't thought of the following thing. It's done, but I'll be more cautious on that.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Honestly, all these posts of a child's photos, sharing of the ex-wife's name, and claims of being easy to find on Facebook is downright creepy.

I hope the thread gets deleted before any more damage can be done.

@Hasssssuùuu

 

[nitrogen]

Ooooo, what did I miss?



The dude @William Barker is a new member. Doesn't hurt to give him the benefit of doubt and more chances to modify his behaviors.

Hey dude, just read the FAQs, listen to the mods, reflect on constructive criticisms. Don't wait until @GoodPersonEffed shoot you a post that contains the words "boundaries" and "manipulation", or you're gonna join my "ignored by GoodPersonEffed SS mothafakas club".