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reborn87

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Jan 27, 2024
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I was brutally beaten by my family and robbed up life at 34. I just turned 34. I'm almost 37 now and it's been a living nightmare since I can't drive it's my full spine ribs, shoulders, hips, ankles, knees, wrist, elbows, everything it's so bad and painful I know I have to go.

I never thought I would be in the spot to want to commit suicide, but I feel it's I need peace and I want to reincarnate to better circumstances and loving family, which I never had. I hope it will be a similar location to where I am but much better life And support. I am using voice dictate as I can't even type time is running out and I panic I wake up and panic and I'm scared but it's so hard to take care of myself every day I can barely do it there to compassionate suicide for me, and I'm taking it into my own hands I'm scared because I was never one to want to do this I fought through for the over 2 1/2 years now and I'm just getting worse. I lost independence any independence. There are so much that I loved about life like dancing, which I can never do music. The music moves my body so I had to stop music because I loved it that much that my body which just move to it which is not because it's so damaged and have to be every single move that I make every day or I'll be excruciating pain on top of the pain that I already have

I'm sad to leave this life but I have to because it will only get worse

I just hope so badly I will reincarnate into a first world country or here where I'm at very close to where I am in the same state too much better family. I hope I can accomplish your goals and accomplish a lot in my next life. The panic set in , and I'm scared But I know I have to because I can't live like this anymore. I wish I just had mental health issues and not such excruciating, painful, debilitating, physical issues that prevent me from the most basic things
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds really horrible what you've been through, it's so cruel how people have to suffer so much, I hope that you find peace from all the suffering.
 

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