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The only method available to me is OD and these are the only drugs available to me. Please don't point me toward another method, just reliable doses.

I'm 145 lbs (66 kgs), about 22% body fat, and a female. No tolerance for anything.

I was thinking about just taking a bunch of downers. Grapefruit juice increases bioavailability (concentration) of both alprazolam (Xanax) and oxycodone. I've read that even though benzos aren't very lethal (though I've had a friend ctb from Xanax alone), it makes opioids way more lethal when it interacts with them. Same for alcohol with both benzos and opioids. Rather than an additive effect, they have a multiplicative or even exponential effect. Alcohol can increase bioavailability and also has priority in the liver, so the drugs will stay in my body longer. I've read that more than 40 mg of oxy at once can be lethal, and the same for more than 80 mg a day.

I want to drink at least 200 mL of grapefruit juice a day leading up to my ctb date to increase bioavailability of the substances.

Oxycodone - 80 mg
Alprazolam (Xanax) - 50 mg
Ethanol (Alcohol) - 150 mL of 35% ethanol, meaning 41.41 grams of ethanol.

I want to take this right before I go to sleep, all at once. I know the OD itself may not kill me, but respiratory depression might. I'm going to lay on my back so if I vomit in my sleep, I'll probably asphyxiate.

I'm also thinking of taking Acetaminophen (Tylenol) earlier in the day to give me acute liver failure. Making it a lot harder for the drugs to pass through my body. Normally 4g does the trick, but grapefruit juice actually decreases the bioavailability of Tylenol. So I may take 6-8g.

Does this seem like a sound plan, or do I need higher doses of certain drugs?
 
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You are going to overdose from that certainly, but will you die? Well, it's possible. But it's also possible that you don't.

There is much that can go wrong with trying to OD, for example many people vomit the drugs out before they get fully absorbed, opioids such as oxycodone is known to cause nausea and vomiting especially at heavy dosages.
And even if they get all absorbed, unfortunately the data is quite all over the place about what dosage guarantee a fatal respiratory depression.

The liver failure idea is very bad and painful if you survive.

That grapefruit is a good idea tho, 200ml might be too light in my opinion.

Also crushing up the pills and taking them on an empty stomach will increase the rate of absorption.

In conclusion; it's moderately risky, many things can go wrong.
But on the other hand, those are very heavy dosages for someone with no tolerance.

edit: If i would have to get more of something, i would probably get more of oxy. It's by far the most dangerous of those drugs and even just adding another 80mg would greatly increase the chance of fatality.
 
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You are going to overdose from that certainly, but will you die? Well, it's possible. But it's also possible that you don't.

There is much that can go wrong with trying to OD, for example many people vomit the drugs out before they get fully absorbed, opioids such as oxycodone is known to cause nausea and vomiting especially at heavy dosages.
And even if they get all absorbed, unfortunately the data is quite all over the place about what dosage guarantee a fatal respiratory depression.

The liver failure idea is very bad and painful if you survive.

That grapefruit is a good idea tho, 200ml might be too light in my opinion.

Also crushing up the pills and taking them on an empty stomach will increase the rate of absorption.

In conclusion; it's moderately risky, many things can go wrong.
But on the other hand, those are very heavy dosages for someone with no tolerance.

edit: If i would have to get more of something, i would probably get more of oxy. It's by far the most dangerous of those drugs and even just adding another 80mg would greatly increase the chance of fatality.
Thank you. And in response to the nausea and vomiting thing, you don't think lying on my back would help? So I'd choke of the vomit in my sleep?
The only method available to me is OD and these are the only drugs available to me. Please don't point me toward another method, just reliable doses.

I'm 145 lbs (66 kgs), about 22% body fat, and a female. No tolerance for anything.

I was thinking about just taking a bunch of downers. Grapefruit juice increases bioavailability (concentration) of both alprazolam (Xanax) and oxycodone. I've read that even though benzos aren't very lethal (though I've had a friend ctb from Xanax alone), it makes opioids way more lethal when it interacts with them. Same for alcohol with both benzos and opioids. Rather than an additive effect, they have a multiplicative or even exponential effect. Alcohol can increase bioavailability and also has priority in the liver, so the drugs will stay in my body longer. I've read that more than 40 mg of oxy at once can be lethal, and the same for more than 80 mg a day.

I want to drink at least 200 mL of grapefruit juice a day leading up to my ctb date to increase bioavailability of the substances.

Oxycodone - 80 mg
Alprazolam (Xanax) - 50 mg
Ethanol (Alcohol) - 150 mL of 35% ethanol, meaning 41.41 grams of ethanol.

I want to take this right before I go to sleep, all at once. I know the OD itself may not kill me, but respiratory depression might. I'm going to lay on my back so if I vomit in my sleep, I'll probably asphyxiate.

I'm also thinking of taking Acetaminophen (Tylenol) earlier in the day to give me acute liver failure. Making it a lot harder for the drugs to pass through my body. Normally 4g does the trick, but grapefruit juice actually decreases the bioavailability of Tylenol. So I may take 6-8g.

Does this seem like a sound plan, or do I need higher doses of certain drugs?
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Thank you. And in response to the nausea and vomiting thing, you don't think lying on my back would help? So I'd choke of the vomit in my sleep?
It's incredebly hard to predict what will happen, we humans have incredibly strong survival instincts which may cause people to suddenly lunge forward when vomiting, even when unconscious.

For example, some people who try to suffocate themselves while unconscious with plastic bags over their head, will sometimes still rip it off, despite being unconscious.

But then again, people die by chocking in their own vomit all the time.
So i guess it also depends how deep you are into the state of unconsciousness.

I just wish i could give you definite answers, but the data is very limited.
 
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Thanks, but as aforementioned, I listed all the drugs available to me
I know but this OD most likely leads to success. I'm aware that fent may not be easily available.
 
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I know but this OD most likely leads to success. I'm aware that fent may not be easily available.
I'm sure. But it's not one I can carry out. This does not help me, but I appreciate the effort.
 
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Oxycodone - 80 mg
Alprazolam (Xanax) - 50 mg
Ethanol (Alcohol) - 150 mL of 35% ethanol, meaning 41.41 grams of ethanol.
How many pills in total.
Oxy is 8 pills @ 10mg ? Etc.
And are you taking them all orally ?
Are you taking any type of anti puke ?
Even something simple OTC pepto or gravol.

Ethanol can you explain this further. Do you mean pure ethanol or booze ?

Because even this by it self has the potential to be deadly but would not be a pleasant experience. Just want to make sure what you mean.


I'm also thinking of taking Acetaminophen (Tylenol) earlier in the day to give me acute liver failure. Making it a lot harder for the drugs to pass through my body. Normally 4g does the trick, but grapefruit juice actually decreases the bioavailability of Tylenol. So I may take 6-8g.
Some times less is more. I've learned that with
Meds / drug cocktails. Unfortunately.
I get that it makes sense in theory but it can cause you to feel like shit way before hand or even puke up everything.
 
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How many pills in total.
Oxy is 8 pills @ 10mg ? Etc.
And are you taking them all orally ?
Are you taking any type of anti puke ?
Even something simple OTC pepto or gravol.

Ethanol can you explain this further. Do you mean pure ethanol or booze ?

Because even this by it self has the potential to be deadly but would not be a pleasant experience. Just want to make sure what you mean.



Some times less is more. I've learned that with
Meds / drug cocktails. Unfortunately.
I get that it makes sense in theory but it can cause you to feel like shit way before hand or even puke up everything.
I don't have the pills yet, but the dealer told me the Oxy is 20 mg each.
The Xans will be 2 mg bars.
Everything will be taken orally.
I've never heard of anti-puke, but I will start looking into Pepto Bismol and its interactions with the substances now.

The ethanol isn't pure. It's whiskey with 35% of its volume being alcohol. At 150 mL of the drink, I calculated that to be 41.41 grams of ethanol total.

I understand that I'll probably feel like crap, but I've accepted that. I also plan on taking it right before I go to sleep, so the downers will knock me out even faster and I won't feel the full nauseous effects (hopefully).
 
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I don't have the pills yet, but the dealer told me they're 20 mg each.
Ah ok. I'm just trying to grasp on how many pills total.
****EDIT* *****I miss read what you said sorry.
20mg oxy - 4
2mg xanny So 25? That's a lot of pills to get to the total 50mg all at once in the system.
Especially on a empty stomach.
Mixing the two can work.
But still not 100%.

In clinical studies in rats, the LD50 — the dose that caused half of the rats to die — ranged from 331 to 2,171 mg per kilogram of body weight. This suggests that a person would have to take several thousand times the maximum prescribed dose to fatally overdose.

Are they legit prescription? Or street/dw source.

Reason I'm asking is for possible fenny that look like xanny pressed pills.

I was trying to find a OD chart for you with drug/amount/time. It's in a old post I have I'm trying to find it. Weight doesn't really matter to much when it comes to xanny mostly just the tolerance and if your body fights back against that amount. I'm not sure why the calculate it in OD cases. And not blood volume. From what I can find.
Everything will be taken orally.
Also you have to keep in mind the time release on these , so the grapefruit is a good idea.
And so would crushing the pills.

Just for faster/stronger effect from personal experience and it's just known.
Snorting.
Crush then drink.
Boofing or hooping

melt / inject ( I've never done this but obviously it hits the hardest)

I've never heard of anti-puke, but I will start looking into Pepto Bismol and its interactions with the substances now.
Yah especially if you haven't taken them before? Is that what you mean by no tolerance?

Pepto coats the stomach .
Gravol can help prevent vomit.
Booze and pills fighting in the stomach all at once. Body doesn't really prefer it.
The ethanol isn't pure. It's whiskey with 35% of its volume being alcohol. At 150 mL of the drink, I calculated that to be 41.41 grams of ethanol total.
Ok good at first I was like???
That's going to burn your insides. Lul

150mL is a small bottle.
Around 4 shots I think.
Normal amount of booze imo.
I got confused when you called it ethanol.

This depends on you and how often you drink. It will add to everything. But not poisoning imo.

I've tried the same with just under 750ml.
without success unfortunately.
I understand that I'll probably feel like crap, but I've accepted that.
I also plan on taking it right before I go to sleep, so the downers will knock me out even faster and I won't feel the full nauseous effects (hopefully).
It does make sense , I'm just speaking from my own experiences. And it's a crappy feeling plus all the dizziness etc. But you're aware so.

Think if you already have all those other drugs in your system and the time release.
plus the Tylenol. Your body will fight it. Naturally.

The thing with the liver damage is sometimes this can take time. It start at 1hour.
but then last up to 24 + hours later. Not immediately. Might not be able to sleep because of the pain / motion sickness even though you're not moving.
 
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I would definitely skip the Tylenol, liver failure is painful. You can use edible film squares for the pills. Crush them up into as fine of a powder as possible and you put the powder in these edible squares. They're used for this purpose, well for supplements and herbs not opiates lol. This should have your body absorb the drugs faster.
 
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Ah ok. I'm just trying to grasp on how many pills total.
****EDIT* *****I miss read what you said sorry.
20mg oxy - 4
2mg xanny So 25? That's a lot of pills to get to the total 50mg all at once in the system.
Especially on a empty stomach.
Mixing the two can work.
But still not 100%.

In clinical studies in rats, the LD50 — the dose that caused half of the rats to die — ranged from 331 to 2,171 mg per kilogram of body weight. This suggests that a person would have to take several thousand times the maximum prescribed dose to fatally overdose.

Are they legit prescription? Or street/dw source.

Reason I'm asking is for possible fenny that look like xanny pressed pills.

I was trying to find a OD chart for you with drug/amount/time. It's in a old post I have I'm trying to find it. Weight doesn't really matter to much when it comes to xanny mostly just the tolerance and if your body fights back against that amount. I'm not sure why the calculate it in OD cases. And not blood volume. From what I can find.

Also you have to keep in mind the time release on these , so the grapefruit is a good idea.
And so would crushing the pills.

Just for faster/stronger effect from personal experience and it's just known.
Snorting.
Crush then drink.
Boofing or hooping

melt / inject ( I've never done this but obviously it hits the hardest)


Yah especially if you haven't taken them before? Is that what you mean by no tolerance?

Pepto coats the stomach .
Gravol can help prevent vomit.
Booze and pills fighting in the stomach all at once. Body doesn't really prefer it.

Ok good at first I was like???
That's going to burn your insides. Lul

150mL is a small bottle.
Around 4 shots I think.
Normal amount of booze imo.
I got confused when you called it ethanol.

This depends on you and how often you drink. It will add to everything. But not poisoning imo.

I've tried the same with just under 750ml.
without success unfortunately.


It does make sense , I'm just speaking from my own experiences. And it's a crappy feeling plus all the dizziness etc. But you're aware so.

Think if you already have all those other drugs in your system and the time release.
plus the Tylenol. Your body will fight it. Naturally.

The thing with the liver damage is sometimes this can take time. It start at 1hour.
but then last up to 24 + hours later. Not immediately. Might not be able to sleep because of the pain / motion sickness even though you're not moving.
No CTB plan is 100% guaranteed.

The drugs will be street bought.

The Xanny amount is going to be 15 pills (30 mg) now. The dealer told me the wrong price, and they cost more than I thought. Since it's not the main OD factor, I don't want to waste a lot of money on those.

Taking into account another user's reply, I'm probably gonna do around 160 mg of Oxy (double).

The alcohol is closer to 3 shots. Since I've never drank before, that's as much as I think I can keep down.

I searched up the LD50 for everything already. The Xanax and booze definitely aren't enough to kill me on their own. But at least one is involved in most opioid deaths. They'll make the effects of the Oxy stronger. And I'll have enough Oxy to be potentially fatal on its own.

Weight does matter for alcohol, though. Which is why I included it.

Never taken any of these substances before. Only grapefruit juice. No tolerance for the drugs.

I already know I can't handle snorting, and I don't trust I'll do any other methods correctly. It's why I'm using the juice to increase the concentrations. I'm doing everything orally. My stance on this will remain.

I won't use Tylenol anymore.


UPDATE: EDIT IN PLAN
Drugs will all be bought off the street. Everything will be taken orally. Might crush the pills, depending on other factors.
  • Drink grapefruit juice consistently in the days leading up to CTB date to increase bioavailability (concentration) of drugs
  • Take Pepto Bismol (no effects on the substances) about 30-60 minutes prior to coat the stomach.
  • Take Gravol (also a downer, so increases sedating effects) about 30-60 minutes prior to help with nausea.
  • 15 2mg pills of Xanax (Alprazolam) for a total of 30 mg
  • 8 20mg pills of Oxycodone for a total of 160 mg
  • 150 mL of 35% alcohol for a total of 41.41 grams of alcohol/ethanol
  • Tylenol is no longer part of the equation, as the general concensus is that it will only be painful
The drugs and alcohol will all be taken right before I go to sleep. The oxy may be enough to kill me on its own, and the xans and booze are just to multiply the effects of the OD.
 
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No CTB plan is 100% guaranteed.

The drugs will be street bought.

The Xanny amount is going to be 15 pills (30 mg) now. The dealer told me the wrong price, and they cost more than I thought. Since it's not the main OD factor, I don't want to waste a lot of money on those.

Taking into account another user's reply, I'm probably gonna do around 160 mg of Oxy (double).

The alcohol is closer to 3 shots. Since I've never drank before, that's as much as I think I can keep down.

I searched up the LD50 for everything already. The Xanax and booze definitely aren't enough to kill me on their own. But at least one is involved in most opioid deaths. They'll make the effects of the Oxy stronger. And I'll have enough Oxy to be potentially fatal on its own.

Weight does matter for alcohol, though. Which is why I included it.

Never taken any of these substances before. Only grapefruit juice. No tolerance for the drugs.

I already know I can't handle snorting, and I don't trust I'll do any other methods correctly. It's why I'm using the juice to increase the concentrations. I'm doing everything orally. My stance on this will remain.

I won't use Tylenol anymore.


UPDATE: EDIT IN PLAN
Drugs will all be bought off the street. Everything will be taken orally.
  • Drink grapefruit juice consistently in the days leading up to CTB date to increase bioavailability (concentration) of drugs
  • Take Pepto Bismol (no effects on the substances) about 30-60 minutes prior to coat the stomach.
  • Take Gravol (also a downer, so increases sedating effects) about 30-60 minutes prior to help with nausea.
  • 15 2mg pills of Xanax (Alprazolam) for a total of 30 mg
  • 8 20mg pills of Oxycodone for a total of 160 mg
  • 150 mL of 35% alcohol for a total of 41.41 grams of alcohol/ethanol
  • Tylenol is no longer part of the equation, as the general concensus is that it will only be painful
The drugs and alcohol will all be taken right before I go to sleep. The oxy may be enough to kill me on its own, and the xans and booze are just to multiply the effects of the OD.
I'm still scared for you.
I hope you understand and have accepted the risks of wasted money or even permanent brain damage.
I wish you well and goodluck! <3
 
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I'm still scared for you.
I hope you understand and have accepted the risks of wasted money or even permanent brain damage.
I wish you well and goodluck! <3
Me too... but OD is the only option I have.

Money won't mean much, since I'm giving what I have left away. I won't have money left no matter what.

It's gotten to the point where even brain damage is okay to me. I just don't want to perceive life anymore. It's a sucky place to be in, mentally.
 
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I thought about this method, I wouldn't want to choke on my own vomit!
So would the Oxy be immediate release or time release?

I had a immediate release 5 mg oxy I crushed mixed it with a benzo crushed, put the tiniest dab on the tip of my tongue and had sparkles in my vision for a split second! I couldn't believe it, I've never experienced that before.
 
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I thought about this method, I wouldn't want to choke on my own vomit!
So would the Oxy be immediate release or time release?

I had a immediate release 5 mg oxy I crushed mixed it with a benzo crushed, put the tiniest dab on the tip of my tongue and had sparkles in my vision for a split second! I couldn't believe it, I've never experienced that before.
Since it'll be street bought, I'm not sure
 
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No CTB plan is 100% guaranteed.
True true. For sure you'll OD but I can't say for the outcome.
Also I'm not sure what brought you to all this but whatever it is sorry for that and I hope you can find peace.
The drugs will be street bought.
Ahhh gotcha, so were my percs.
unless your buddy has someone that's injured/panic disorder and sells their scripts.
The xanny is most likely pressed bars with containing fenny. Not necessarily a bad thing. Just effects potency/effect a bit.
The Xanny amount is going to be 15 pills (30 mg) now. The dealer told me the wrong price, and they cost more than I thought. Since it's not the main OD factor, I don't want to waste a lot of money on those.
ok not a huge deal still way more then daily recommended and less pills sometimes better.
Taking into account another user's reply, I'm probably gonna do around 160 mg of Oxy (double).
That's a lot of oxy at once. Definitely a lot more than a daily dose especially for no tolerance.
The alcohol is closer to 3 shots. Since I've never drank before, that's as much as I think I can keep down.
Yah that's good thinking the booze can work for you but yes also against you. Never drank ? I would take the smallest sip just for a taste. So you don't puke with a full shot. Some whiskeys are great some are nasty. Chasing it with the juice might help.
I searched up the LD50 for everything already. The Xanax and booze definitely aren't enough to kill me on their own. But at least one is involved in most opioid deaths. They'll make the effects of the Oxy stronger. And I'll have enough Oxy to be potentially fatal on its own.
Correct , and glad you looked em up.
Weight does matter for alcohol, though. Which is why I included it.
Yah makes sense , it's just odd to me on some studies say it matters some say it doesn't. When opiates are involved. I've seen the skinny dudes eat 5 pills. All good. A big big guy have 1 and pass out.
Never taken any of these substances before. Only grapefruit juice. No tolerance for the drugs.
Gotcha. This is just my opinion but it might be a shock to the system. If you can spare even just 1square off a xanny bar maybe 2? I'd take it so your body is like ok this is new , but it's all good. Not just everything then boom everything wtf is this puke puke.
I already know I can't handle snorting, and I don't trust I'll do any other methods correctly. It's why I'm using the juice to increase the concentrations. I'm doing everything orally. My stance on this will remain.
Ok no worries. Just giving options.
Just be mindful if they are time release. Depends on the pilll/person 10mins/30mins.
I won't use Tylenol anymore.
Yeah I'm glad some others mentioned it as well.
UPDATE: EDIT IN PLAN
Drugs will all be bought off the street. Everything will be taken orally. Might crush the pills, depending on other factors.
It will taste nasty. But as for immediate release. Potency. But gross tasting. Either way good luck with whatever you choose.
  • Drink grapefruit juice consistently in the days leading up to CTB date to increase bioavailability (concentration) of drugs
  • Take Pepto Bismol (no effects on the substances) about 30-60 minutes prior to coat the stomach.
  • Take Gravol (also a downer, so increases sedating effects) about 30-60 minutes prior to help with nausea.
Don't take the gravol with GINGSING it makes you poop. Just get the normal one..
  • 15 2mg pills of Xanax (Alprazolam) for a total of 30 mg
  • 8 20mg pills of Oxycodone for a total of 160 mg
  • 150 mL of 35% alcohol for a total of 41.41 grams of alcohol/ethanol
  • Tylenol is no longer part of the equation, as the general concensus is that it will only be painful
The drugs and alcohol will all be taken right before I go to sleep. The oxy may be enough to kill me on its own, and the xans and booze are just to multiply the effects of the OD.
In theory it all works. Ld50 and other studies are with legitimate pure drugs. but even so for someone with no tolerance and never exposed yourself, 190mg of any opiate is a lot and you've done your research to understand.

OD's are tough and not always the choice for people because of the risks etc.
But I understand as it's a part of my method as well. And what's available.
Best of luck on your journey.
 
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I thought about this method, I wouldn't want to choke on my own vomit!
Since asphyxiation is a main cause of death in a lot of opioid ODs, I was actually hoping to vomit in my sleep. If I vomit while I'm awake, I'll probably spit it out. But doing it while I'm sleeping and unable to do anything but breathe it in would increase my chance of success.
 
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I plan to use the same method, mixing alcohol, benzos and opiates. How did you source the opiates, if you don't mind me asking?

I think your plan is good and I wish you only the best.
 
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Since asphyxiation is a main cause of death in a lot of opioid ODs, I was actually hoping to vomit in my sleep. If I vomit while I'm awake, I'll probably spit it out. But doing it while I'm sleeping and unable to do anything but breathe it in would increase my chance of success.
That's very smart actually
 
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I plan to use the same method, mixing alcohol, benzos and opiates. How did you source the opiates, if you don't mind me asking?

I think your plan is good and I wish you only the best.
Bohemia. Check the Dark Web sticky thread for details on how to get them.
 
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Bohemia. Check the Dark Web sticky thread for details on how to get them.
Thank you :-) Also, I'd recommend using metoclopramide against the vomiting.

I think our method is really the best.
 
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What happens if you have a tolerance for the benzodiazepines but nothing else?
 
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smart thing with the grapefruit juice. might use it too for my ctb
 
Cryptonite

Cryptonite

In the state of shock of what happened
Apr 30, 2022
723
Why do they sell 80mg original oxycodone pills on the dark web when the lethal amount is 80mg? Are they specifically designed for CTB or what? :pfff:
 
cosmic-joke

cosmic-joke

Pharmacology master
Oct 6, 2023
92
The only method available to me is OD and these are the only drugs available to me. Please don't point me toward another method, just reliable doses.

I'm 145 lbs (66 kgs), about 22% body fat, and a female. No tolerance for anything.

I was thinking about just taking a bunch of downers. Grapefruit juice increases bioavailability (concentration) of both alprazolam (Xanax) and oxycodone. I've read that even though benzos aren't very lethal (though I've had a friend ctb from Xanax alone), it makes opioids way more lethal when it interacts with them. Same for alcohol with both benzos and opioids. Rather than an additive effect, they have a multiplicative or even exponential effect. Alcohol can increase bioavailability and also has priority in the liver, so the drugs will stay in my body longer. I've read that more than 40 mg of oxy at once can be lethal, and the same for more than 80 mg a day.

I want to drink at least 200 mL of grapefruit juice a day leading up to my ctb date to increase bioavailability of the substances.

Oxycodone - 80 mg
Alprazolam (Xanax) - 50 mg
Ethanol (Alcohol) - 150 mL of 35% ethanol, meaning 41.41 grams of ethanol.

I want to take this right before I go to sleep, all at once. I know the OD itself may not kill me, but respiratory depression might. I'm going to lay on my back so if I vomit in my sleep, I'll probably asphyxiate.

I'm also thinking of taking Acetaminophen (Tylenol) earlier in the day to give me acute liver failure. Making it a lot harder for the drugs to pass through my body. Normally 4g does the trick, but grapefruit juice actually decreases the bioavailability of Tylenol. So I may take 6-8g.

Does this seem like a sound plan, or do I need higher doses of certain drugs?
It might work but you will probably be sick and survive, you need ddmp2 read my thread..
Thread 'Peaceful death for tor users' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/peaceful-death-for-tor-users.135745/
 
TheSource

TheSource

From the Divine we came, to the Divine we return.
Sep 25, 2023
123
Why do they sell 80mg original oxycodone pills on the dark web when the lethal amount is 80mg? Are they specifically designed for CTB or what? :pfff:
80 mg pills are made for people with chronic pain and a tolerance. But it's not a dark web vendor's job to use discretion with who they give their products to.
It might work but you will probably be sick and survive, you need ddmp2 read my thread..
Thread 'Peaceful death for tor users' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/peaceful-death-for-tor-users.135745/
I've already read your thread. Read mine, though:
The only method available to me is OD and these are the only drugs available to me. Please don't point me toward another method, just reliable doses.
I listed my method and the substances I'm using already. I've done my research, which I've posted on another thread. Please do not suggest other methods or drugs to me, unless it's OTC drugs that can help with the method I already have in place.
Never drank ? I would take the smallest sip just for a taste.
I decided to take your advice. I had 5 drops at most. That was a horrible experience. I'll be lucky if I can get even one of the 50 mL bottles down, let alone three. Good thing it's not the only OD enhancer I have. I technically don't need booze for my OD to likely be lethal, but it definitely increases my odds.
 
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Cryptonite

Cryptonite

In the state of shock of what happened
Apr 30, 2022
723
80 mg pills are made for people with chronic pain and a tolerance. But it's not a dark web vendor's job to use discretion with who they give their products to.

I've already read your thread. Read mine, though:

I listed my method and the substances I'm using already. I've done my research, which I've posted on another thread. Please do not suggest other methods or drugs to me, unless it's OTC drugs that can help with the method I already have in place.

I decided to take your advice. I had 5 drops at most. That was a horrible experience. I'll be lucky if I can get even one of the 50 mL bottles down, let alone three. Good thing it's not the only OD enhancer I have. I technically don't need booze for my OD to likely be lethal, but it definitely increases my odds.

So 80mg pills are ok for people with chronic pain and tolerance but for people without tolerance it is lethal? That sounds strange to me... I'm just trying to understand how things are in order not to make a mistake.
 
TheSource

TheSource

From the Divine we came, to the Divine we return.
Sep 25, 2023
123
So 80mg pills are ok for people with chronic pain and tolerance but for people without tolerance it is lethal? That sounds strange to me... I'm just trying to understand how things are in order not to make a mistake.
Yeah. You can look it up, there's plenty of info about it. Typically, people with a tolerance need a higher dosage of a substance to be lethal than those without a tolerance.
 

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