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avaruus

avaruus

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So 80mg pills are ok for people with chronic pain and tolerance but for people without tolerance it is lethal? That sounds strange to me... I'm just trying to understand how things are in order not to make a mistake.
People have died from 80mg yes, but mainly from vomiting while unconscious so it's not a guaranteed death.
Personally if i had to OD with oxy alone, i wouldn't do anything below 200mg. And even then, people have survived much greater dosages than 200mg.
 
Cryptonite

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The only method available to me is OD and these are the only drugs available to me. Please don't point me toward another method, just reliable doses.

I'm 145 lbs (66 kgs), about 22% body fat, and a female. No tolerance for anything.

I was thinking about just taking a bunch of downers. Grapefruit juice increases bioavailability (concentration) of both alprazolam (Xanax) and oxycodone. I've read that even though benzos aren't very lethal (though I've had a friend ctb from Xanax alone), it makes opioids way more lethal when it interacts with them. Same for alcohol with both benzos and opioids. Rather than an additive effect, they have a multiplicative or even exponential effect. Alcohol can increase bioavailability and also has priority in the liver, so the drugs will stay in my body longer. I've read that more than 40 mg of oxy at once can be lethal, and the same for more than 80 mg a day.

I want to drink at least 200 mL of grapefruit juice a day leading up to my ctb date to increase bioavailability of the substances.

Oxycodone - 80 mg
Alprazolam (Xanax) - 50 mg
Ethanol (Alcohol) - 150 mL of 35% ethanol, meaning 41.41 grams of ethanol.

I want to take this right before I go to sleep, all at once. I know the OD itself may not kill me, but respiratory depression might. I'm going to lay on my back so if I vomit in my sleep, I'll probably asphyxiate.

I'm also thinking of taking Acetaminophen (Tylenol) earlier in the day to give me acute liver failure. Making it a lot harder for the drugs to pass through my body. Normally 4g does the trick, but grapefruit juice actually decreases the bioavailability of Tylenol. So I may take 6-8g.

Does this seem like a sound plan, or do I need higher doses of certain drugs?
Pls don't forget Oxycodone 80mg is only sold in extended release version, which means it would be unusable for this purpose
 
TheSource

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Pls don't forget Oxycodone 80mg is only sold in extended release version, which means it would be unusable for this purpose
I know it's ER, but I've done my research. Extended release is absolutely still lethal.
 
TheSource

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But are you sure it's not gonna take too long?
Yeah. How long are you worried it's gonna take?

Would you like me to link my other thread with my sources of information?
 
Cryptonite

Cryptonite

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Apr 30, 2022
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Yeah. How long are you worried it's gonna take?

Would you like me to link my other thread with my sources of information?
You are probably right, I'm just asking. Also, I've just found out buprenorphine is easily available on DW, which is an equivalent to F (in terms of potency).
 
TheSource

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You are probably right, I'm just asking. Also, I've just found out buprenorphine is easily available on DW, which is an equivalent to F (in terms of potency).
I've already got all the resources I need, they should be plenty lethal. I'm just waiting on my last paycheck before I CTB.
 
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Update:
I have all the resources.
200 mg Oxicodone (Extended-Release)
44 mg Alprazolam (Xanax)
150 mL booze at 35% alcohol by volume
Bismuth Subsalicylate (Pepto Bismol)
Grapefruit juice

My suicide note will either be on my desk or by my bed to be seen the next day while I'm "sleeping".

I started drinking the juice yesterday. I'm gonna increase the amount I drink each day next week.

My CTB date, I'll either fast or eat bland foods that help reduce the chance of vomiting (I still need to do more research on which would be better). I'll drink a glass of grapefruit juice in the morning and take Pepto Bismol probably every six hours or so, starting when I first get up, to coat my stomach.

At night, when I start to get tired, I'm gonna take my last dose of Pepto Bismol along with 2mg of Xanax to start sedating me and easing my nerves. I'll take a bit more Xanax as needed if I don't really feel the effects as much as I want to. Around the 40 minute mark after taking the Pepto, if I find that my SI is calmed enough and I'm relatively close to falling asleep, I'll take all the Oxy and the rest of the Xanax, using grapefruit juice to wash them down. If the Xanax is sedating me before that 40 minute mark, I'll take everything then.

(Because the Oxycodone is ER, it's twice as likely to have dangerous effects. It'll also mean that the side effects will take longer to kick in than IR. Hopefully, the Xanax will have knocked me out by the time the Oxy starts working.)

I'll then send a personalized suicide note to my former friend. As they go to bed early and I go to bed late, I'm not worried about them seeing the message soon and being able to stop me. If they do see the message before morning, they don't have my address, so I'm not worried about them sending the cops. Hopefully, they won't see the note until morning. Hopefully they won't really care. I treated them like crap so they wouldn't...

After I send them their personal note, I'll try to drink as much alcohol as I can. As I don't drink, I'm not sure I can get much down, but I should have enough Oxy to be lethal on its own. The added Xanax should ensure it. The alcohol is overkill. I'll use the rest of the grapefruit juice as a chaser. If I begin to feel nauseous before I finish the booze, I'll stop drinking it. I'll then try to go to sleep. 3 downers in my system shouldn't make that too difficult.

I'm gonna lay on my back so that if I vomit in my sleep, I'm more likely to asphyxiate on it and it'll fill my lungs. If all goes well, I'll catch my bus from either asphyxiation or respiratory depression.

If I find the Xans aren't working like they're meant to before I take the Oxy, I can back out with little repercussions and no one around me to know of the started attempt. I'll just sleep really well that night.

If the plan gets messed up after I take all of the drugs, I'll get hospitalized and then play it by ear after that, I guess. Hopefully I've planned enough to make sure that doesn't happen.
 
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Seems like you covered your bases. Good luck with whatever you decide to do when the time comes
 
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avaruus

avaruus

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Btw, just tested the grapefruit myself.
Freshly squished 2x white grapefruits into 2x 300ml glasses. Drank one 3h before and the second 15 minutes before, then took 30mg oxy.
I just spent the last 8h puking.
And i have never puked from just oxy, so it definitely has some kind of an effect :D
 
TheSource

TheSource

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Btw, just tested the grapefruit myself.
Freshly squished 2x white grapefruits into 2x 300ml glasses. Drank one 3h before and the second 15 minutes before, then took 30mg oxy.
I just spent the last 8h puking.
And i have never puked from just oxy, so it definitely has some kind of an effect :D
Crap, thanks for letting me know. I hope you're okay.

Was the oxy IR or ER, and how long after taking the oxy did you start puking?
 
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avaruus

avaruus

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it was IR, and the puking started about 8h afterwards. I guess the nausea was caused by the unmetabolised oxycodone, so i borderline OD'd or something.
 
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it was IR, and the puking started about 8h afterwards. I guess the nausea was caused by the unmetabolised oxycodone, so i borderline OD'd or something.
Oh, shoot. That's plenty of time.
 

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