athiestjoe
Passenger
- Sep 24, 2024
- 410
Hey you amazing creatures,
I am getting my self-deliverance!
During my time here at SaSu, I've tried to make this community a little better by sharing what I know, hoping it might help someone else, just as others have helped me. Along the way, I've had the privilege of making some incredible friends here—though I always knew these friendships were at arm's length and destined to be long-term given either they or I would depart this cruel world at some point. One of my buddy's here already got their peace. Now is my turn. I have had the honor of making some real friends here and you know who you are, I cherish y'all.
I wanted to take a moment to say my heartfelt goodbye and share what my plan looks like. To be clear, every decision I've made has been mine and mine alone. I do welcome good luck, finding peace and messages of those sorts but please do not use this post to try to tell me to think it over me as I have done plenty of that already, I am sure.
SN: My SN is from a very popular retailer, using a business account. YT brand.
Testing Results: Bartovation Nitrite test strip shows high nitrite (note, one user error was I used 500ml water bottles and they were not quite filled up all the way which should explain the higher concentration results). Results exceed 10 PPM with flying colors. The Nitrate also tests high but as you all recall Vizzy and others explained this is normal. Used distilled water.
Distilled Water: did turn a little bit of color so also factoring this into the end result (I used old purified water bottles so the inside was not fully dry, regardless I want to be as detailed in my reporting as possible for educational purposes)
I re-did a test in just the distilled water bottle which yielded the result it should be, so the test strips appear fine:
Bottle 1 with 2.5g SN in 500ml water:
Bottle 2 (with 1ml from Bottle 1 added):
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Protocol:
If this is successful, it can also be a vouch for the YT brand SN as I believe we only have one user here who also used it. Wish me luck.
Timeline: I plan to carry out my self-deliverance on Sunday, October 27, 2024 or Monday, October 28, 2024; not positive on the date right now as I am going to have someone here document it so need to make sure our schedules align well enough. This was a difficult decision, but my suffering has become overwhelming, and I need peace now, not later.
My reasons are straightforward and only briefly sharing this so everyone is aware this is well thought throw and I have evaluated all options carefully before coming to this decision: I've done all I can in this painful, unforgiving world, and I've thought this through for a long time. I have given every other option a valid, wholehearted try. I've reached this decision with a clear and calm mind. I want to sincerely thank everyone who made my time here memorable. You are truly incredible people who've shown wit, compassion, understanding, and grace. I'm deeply sorry for anyone who's struggling in this world. Please know that no one else needs to follow the path I've chosen—take the time you need for yourself. I've had the time to reflect and make my decision.
While I could name some of you that "I'll miss", stepping into nothingness means I won't have the capacity to miss anyone—but for sentiment's sake, I'll say it's been a pleasure knowing you. I genuinely wish each and every one of you the very best. It's been incredible getting to know all of you truly badass people. I've built some amazing relationships here, and I am grateful to have met you and for providing me a safe place to just be myself. You've brought me more joy in my final days more than you'll ever know. Truly, thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
I feel genuinely happy and so ready for the nothingness ahead. This is the right path for me. Be kind to one another on this site, this is a truly special place, a real community. I'm thankful to each of you being part of my journey.
Looking forward to my peace & serenity at last.
I am getting my self-deliverance!
During my time here at SaSu, I've tried to make this community a little better by sharing what I know, hoping it might help someone else, just as others have helped me. Along the way, I've had the privilege of making some incredible friends here—though I always knew these friendships were at arm's length and destined to be long-term given either they or I would depart this cruel world at some point. One of my buddy's here already got their peace. Now is my turn. I have had the honor of making some real friends here and you know who you are, I cherish y'all.
I wanted to take a moment to say my heartfelt goodbye and share what my plan looks like. To be clear, every decision I've made has been mine and mine alone. I do welcome good luck, finding peace and messages of those sorts but please do not use this post to try to tell me to think it over me as I have done plenty of that already, I am sure.
SN: My SN is from a very popular retailer, using a business account. YT brand.
Testing Results: Bartovation Nitrite test strip shows high nitrite (note, one user error was I used 500ml water bottles and they were not quite filled up all the way which should explain the higher concentration results). Results exceed 10 PPM with flying colors. The Nitrate also tests high but as you all recall Vizzy and others explained this is normal. Used distilled water.
Distilled Water: did turn a little bit of color so also factoring this into the end result (I used old purified water bottles so the inside was not fully dry, regardless I want to be as detailed in my reporting as possible for educational purposes)
I re-did a test in just the distilled water bottle which yielded the result it should be, so the test strips appear fine:
Bottle 1 with 2.5g SN in 500ml water:
Bottle 2 (with 1ml from Bottle 1 added):
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Protocol:
- 10 hours before SN, final light snack, begin food fast
- 10 hours before SN, 10mg Norco
- 3 hours before SN, 10mg Norco
- 2.5 hours before SN, water fast begins
- 1 hour before SN, 750mg Tylenol (acetaminophen) + 50mg Benadryl (Diphenhydramine) + 8mg Zofran (ondansetron) (small sip water)
- 45 minutes before SN, 30mg Reglan (Metoclopramide) Stat Dose (I got my meto through a telehealth visit and filled at my local pharmacy (small sip water)
- 25 minutes before SN, prepare three 50-ml cups of water + 25g weighed out SN (each cup)
- 20 minutes before SN – 4mg Ativan (Lorazepam), 1.5mg Klonopin (Clonazepam), 2mg Xanax (alprazolam) *TBD May incorporate 40mg (four-10mg tabs) Ambien (zolpidem)* >> all pulverized into a small slurry or taken with small sip of water.
- Have an email scheduled for 12 hours after SN ingestion to family so they know to alert authorities to get my body. I live alone so no one would find me for a very, very long time otherwise.
- Drink SN, lay back in bed
If this is successful, it can also be a vouch for the YT brand SN as I believe we only have one user here who also used it. Wish me luck.
Timeline: I plan to carry out my self-deliverance on Sunday, October 27, 2024 or Monday, October 28, 2024; not positive on the date right now as I am going to have someone here document it so need to make sure our schedules align well enough. This was a difficult decision, but my suffering has become overwhelming, and I need peace now, not later.
My reasons are straightforward and only briefly sharing this so everyone is aware this is well thought throw and I have evaluated all options carefully before coming to this decision: I've done all I can in this painful, unforgiving world, and I've thought this through for a long time. I have given every other option a valid, wholehearted try. I've reached this decision with a clear and calm mind. I want to sincerely thank everyone who made my time here memorable. You are truly incredible people who've shown wit, compassion, understanding, and grace. I'm deeply sorry for anyone who's struggling in this world. Please know that no one else needs to follow the path I've chosen—take the time you need for yourself. I've had the time to reflect and make my decision.
While I could name some of you that "I'll miss", stepping into nothingness means I won't have the capacity to miss anyone—but for sentiment's sake, I'll say it's been a pleasure knowing you. I genuinely wish each and every one of you the very best. It's been incredible getting to know all of you truly badass people. I've built some amazing relationships here, and I am grateful to have met you and for providing me a safe place to just be myself. You've brought me more joy in my final days more than you'll ever know. Truly, thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
I feel genuinely happy and so ready for the nothingness ahead. This is the right path for me. Be kind to one another on this site, this is a truly special place, a real community. I'm thankful to each of you being part of my journey.
Looking forward to my peace & serenity at last.
I will say goodbye now in case I don't get to later. 
