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[restingplace]

One hour to go until I start walking to my ctb location, I'm currently at My best friend's house and I feel awful because I know he needs me and I don't want to leave him. I'm so sorry. I'm terrified.

 

[uncat_]

what are you worried about happening? why are you so terrified? writing it out might help.

I know you've already decided to go through with this, but if you really are too terrified to do it, I wouldn't recommend doing it yet.
This should be a peaceful thing, and being scared has the potential to end in some serious harm. harm that'll put you in even more misery.

 

[Helvete]

Is telling them an option or would they try to stop you 100%

 

[restingplace]

what are you worried about happening? why are you so terrified? writing it out might help.

I know you've already decided to go through with this, but if you really are too terrified to do it, I wouldn't recommend doing it yet.
This should be a peaceful thing, and being scared has the potential to end in some serious harm. harm that'll put you in even more misery.

I'm mainly scared of my friend catching on however I think I can convince him otherwise

Is telling them an option or would they try to stop you 100%

They would absolutely stop me

 

[billie]

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in your plans.

 

[LunarLight]

Have you thought this out thoroughly? I'm really afraid you end up with nerve damage, crippled for the rest of your life.
Do you have benzos at least to calm you?

 

[justcallmeJ]

Goodluck with your plans, i gope you find the peace you need, but please be careful <3 the method is very risky ;(

 

[uncat_]

i hope the rest of your time here is peaceful, man.
you deserve rest


i hope you see something beautiful before you go

 

[restingplace]

Have you thought this out thoroughly? I'm really afraid you end up with nerve damage, crippled for the rest of your life.
Do you have benzos at least to calm you?

I took some anti anxiety meds and sertraline so i should be fine

 

[letsgetittogo]

Are you afraid of failing? Or about what lies after death? Maybe the way it would affect your loved ones?

Just want to know where your brain is at :) we're all here for you whether you ctb or not

 

[restingplace]

Are you afraid of failing? Or about what lies after death? Maybe the way it would affect your loved ones?

Just want to know where your brain is at :) we're all here for you whether you ctb or not

Definitely about how its going to affect my loved ones, I've lied to them about not leaving and it feels awful, I don't typically lie

 

[restless.dreams]

Its understandable to feel scared. If you're not sure, you can always wait. Wishing you well <3

 

[LunarLight]

Are you still with us OP?

 

[restingplace]

Are you still with us OP?

Didn't have Internet to post a goodbye thread, in the hospital now.

 

[LunarLight]

Didn't have Internet to post a goodbye thread, in the hospital now.

OK, I hope you'll be fine. Please don't hesitate to keep us updated if you can and want to.
How did it go if it's not indiscreet to ask?

 

[restingplace]

OK, I hope you'll be fine. Please don't hesitate to keep us updated if you can and want to.
How did it go if it's not

OK, I hope you'll be fine. Please don't hesitate to keep us updated if you can and want to.
How did it go if it's not indiscreet to ask?

I'll post a thread on it later

 

[SVEN]

Whatever your situation now, you have our best wishes and hopes for your best outcome.