Ok but WHEN does it get better?

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A question no one seems to be able to answer for me. I have the concept of things changing, obviously things are constantly changing and I feel different day by day. But my general satisfaction with my life has stayed the same. In fact as the years go by, things have only gotten worse for me. I only get more miserable, fuck up more, make my life worse, uncover (and experience) more horrible traumas. So it's been 23 years. I'm tired of waiting. When is this magical "it gets better" fairy supposed to come for me? Because as I see it, I'm doing everything I can to make shit better for me, and still I decline.

Like do people really expect me to live another 20, 30 years with the mere hope that it gets better? Do they really expect me to live ONE year? I mean clearly they do, but I feel like if they were in my position, they'd shut up real quick about holding out.

If it does get better, ok. Give me a timeline. Tell me when I can say enough is enough. Tell me when I can finally let go. Because I'm not willing to wait much longer.

If it really and truly does get better like they say, these should be easy questions. But they're not, because it's not about getting better. It's about forcing us to stay even when we're completely miserable and dejected. Forcing us to be a cog in their machine. There is no "getting better" for a person like me.

It's actually supposed to get better?? I thought that it was just something people say