No reason not to the pull the trigger

[ikadasui]

Wouldn't make a difference now or if I did it at the end of the month. I feel no joy at all anymore and have no idea what I'm waiting for... don't have the energy to make anymore of a quality post I'm just zapped and feel nothing but annoyance or anger

 

[sincerely dead]

My heart hurts to read this post, @mistoras. I can really tell that you're in excruciating amounts of pain. I know that everything is so incredibly overwhelming right now and that CTB sounds like it would be the great escape you're looking for. I don't want to judge you or shame you for that; it makes total sense why that feels like the best option. However - and I mean this in the least pro-life way possible - if you decide you want to talk to someone tonight instead of pulling the trigger, I am here. I don't know your story or your pain, but for what it is worth, I want to support you if that is something that you would want.

 

[020x]

Hard situation. If I were you, I would only use the firearm when at the worst state possible with no other options left. Don't let your emotions kill you.

 

[bluebus]

I'm sorry that you are going through this. It is really painful to see how much you are hurting. Please don't know anything spontaneously. Obviously I can understand how much the pain is taking you over, and that you might be ready to ctb. But if you decide to stick around that would be great too :) I really am sorry that you are suffering like this. You deserve peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that it really can be so incredibly dreadful and tiring having to exist here, but anyway best wishes.

 

[Takamagahara]

For what it's worth, I enjoyed our conversations.

 

[day]

Wanting to go sooner than later is very understandable as the world seems to never get better… sometimes existing is so exhausting. I am sorry you're dealing with this though I know it's not easy.

I hope you manage to find peace truly.