Method My new suicide plan

[MatiSendiri]

I honestly want to just be okay
I don't want to feel scared and always wanting to CTB I wanna believe I can have a long good life

Aww man, sorry about my comment earlier. If anything I'm here if you want to vent or something like that.

I do believe since you're only emotionally suicidal you can still recover and be okay.

 

[booplesnoot34]

I honestly want to just be okay
I don't want to feel scared and always wanting to CTB I wanna believe I can have a long good life

It sounds like you need better treatment. Medications lose effectiveness over the years and you eventually have to find new ones. I don't recall fluoxetine helping me much. Ativan and/or Xanax, however, really make a difference for panic. There's also Rexaulti, a mood stabilizer that you take in conjunction with antidepressants.

I would absolutely not tell a doctor or anybody about your desire to CTB unless you wanna get hospitalized and lose trust and freedom, but it's worth saying to a psychiatrist, "I feel like my medications aren't working as well as they used to, because I've been having some bad panic attacks lately. What else can we try besides the fluoxetine?" Don't mention CTB. Just mention your fears and desire to treat the panic.

You may be able to recover and stop wanting CTB long term if you get the right treatment. And if you ever attempt the way you were planning, it's gonna fail and leave you heavily disabled and with no escape. Suicide should never be impulsive or reckless. Especially since you likely have recovery potential.

 

[RadiantNumber]

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I plan to kill myself tomorrow morning while my dad is gone to work
my mother is out of town, and wont be around to suddenly pop in to check on me
My poor father spent tonight trying to comfort me and tell me I would be okay in the long run
I had a serious awful anxiety spike about the Iran War and now I just cant feel any sort of way that I will be alright

Im terrified of losing my loved ones in war, Im terrified of the prolonged panic of a bomb dropping.
So I'm going to take myself out tomorrow instead. I plan to take a knife to my throat and just keep going until I cant possibly be alive anymore. Ill cut my wrists and arms if I have to for added assurance.

I dont care about the pain anymore, I just want to go. Spare myself a worse fate. I want to believe I will be okay, and live a happy good life. I am on medication at the moment, fluoxetine that was suppose to manage my anxiety but then why did this happen? Why did I have a flare-up so awful?
I dont want to hurt my family, I dont want to hurt my poor daddy or my mom. I dont want to hurt my friends but I cant bear the idea of losing them all in a horrible war.

Ive ran into this before, but now I am fully committed. I plan to write a suicide note and use tonight to prepare while my dad is away at work.

Wish you luck and hope you'll finde peace in afterlife

 

[50/50]

I do not live in Iran, I live in the US

You seem more schizophrenic than depressed