nyee
Member
- Jun 10, 2023
- 40
Honestly didn't really care too much, I never really thought of her as anybody other than someone who's related to me by blood. I found it amusing she was lecturing me about how I won't be getting anything in her will and how it'll all go to my brother, about how she tries so much to support us in life yet I can't remember a single happy memory I've had with any of the people I am related to. Knowing how much of a narcissist she has been for the entire life I've known her made the entire ordeal amusing in my eyes - she basically thinks of herself as some messiah where everyone is beneath her and the whole world revolves around her.
Little backstory, I don't really have any experience outside of working for my family. I was forced to work in an environment I hated and didn't have much of a chance to experience school or a proper childhood and I feel very socially stunted and disconnected from the real world. I've never learned how to ride a bike, fish, or any hobbies. I don't have any real life friends and I could never go out during the days because I was working from the afternoon to late at night for six days a week, including the weekends. I guess that's not exactly correct since I did have friends but I could never hang out with them because I was never free during the weekends or evenings. Time off never existed; I had to work when I had covid, I was also forced to work when I had a flu so bad I had to leave to lay down in the car incapacitated, and on days I was so sick I physically couldn't work I was forced to make up those hours on different days.
The last time I spoke to her or the rest of my family was at work - she showed me a document and asked me what it is, I skimmed it and responded to which I didn't know what it was. She had some sort of tensioned rage towards me beforehand for some reason I am not too sure, and she started screaming at me calling me useless and stupid. I didn't feel like being a punching bag this time, I told her calling me stupid was completely unnecessary and that if I didn't understand what it was she was showing me, then I don't understand and that's that. She kept screaming at me and calling me rude for talking back, so I simply left and drove home.
I found it incredibly amusing that during her lecture, she still tried to gaslight me into thinking that I was the problem. Everything she said went through one ear out the other, her belittling me about how I have nothing. Have you looked in the mirror? Your marriage failed and you held out for so long thinking it'd ever be fixed despite the people around you telling you let go, people around you pretend to care about your 'woe is me' act because you force it upon them upon every single social interaction. You are angry every single day and take it out on your children because deep down you realise you are not as important, or as smart, as you think you are. You're about to have a son that's going to exit the world very soon, and one of the sole reasons is you. The other son only tolerates your abuse because he and his selfish wife are waiting for you to croak and take your belongings. You want to call me a failure? That's fair. But my upbringing was a result of your pitiful attempt of being a parent.
It's been nearly a month since the whole ordeal, and honestly I have felt the most relaxed than I have ever been. I used to go to sleep dreading waking up and having to work every single day in that disgusting and overworked environment. I know she has twisted the story to make herself look like an angel as she always does to everyone around her and everyone she knows, but I frankly don't care about what others think. I have my SN ordered and I hope it arrives safely within the next week. I won't leave a note because it's not worth the effort. I am quite conservative and had a bit of success investing over the past few years. I was going to leave my assets to them despite everything, but after this whole situation I have decided to blow the remainder of my cash on gambling, and if I come out on top then I'll probably specify on my will to donate it all away. I want to leave them the equivalent of what they have given me my entire life - nothing, which is already more than they deserve.
Little backstory, I don't really have any experience outside of working for my family. I was forced to work in an environment I hated and didn't have much of a chance to experience school or a proper childhood and I feel very socially stunted and disconnected from the real world. I've never learned how to ride a bike, fish, or any hobbies. I don't have any real life friends and I could never go out during the days because I was working from the afternoon to late at night for six days a week, including the weekends. I guess that's not exactly correct since I did have friends but I could never hang out with them because I was never free during the weekends or evenings. Time off never existed; I had to work when I had covid, I was also forced to work when I had a flu so bad I had to leave to lay down in the car incapacitated, and on days I was so sick I physically couldn't work I was forced to make up those hours on different days.
The last time I spoke to her or the rest of my family was at work - she showed me a document and asked me what it is, I skimmed it and responded to which I didn't know what it was. She had some sort of tensioned rage towards me beforehand for some reason I am not too sure, and she started screaming at me calling me useless and stupid. I didn't feel like being a punching bag this time, I told her calling me stupid was completely unnecessary and that if I didn't understand what it was she was showing me, then I don't understand and that's that. She kept screaming at me and calling me rude for talking back, so I simply left and drove home.
I found it incredibly amusing that during her lecture, she still tried to gaslight me into thinking that I was the problem. Everything she said went through one ear out the other, her belittling me about how I have nothing. Have you looked in the mirror? Your marriage failed and you held out for so long thinking it'd ever be fixed despite the people around you telling you let go, people around you pretend to care about your 'woe is me' act because you force it upon them upon every single social interaction. You are angry every single day and take it out on your children because deep down you realise you are not as important, or as smart, as you think you are. You're about to have a son that's going to exit the world very soon, and one of the sole reasons is you. The other son only tolerates your abuse because he and his selfish wife are waiting for you to croak and take your belongings. You want to call me a failure? That's fair. But my upbringing was a result of your pitiful attempt of being a parent.
It's been nearly a month since the whole ordeal, and honestly I have felt the most relaxed than I have ever been. I used to go to sleep dreading waking up and having to work every single day in that disgusting and overworked environment. I know she has twisted the story to make herself look like an angel as she always does to everyone around her and everyone she knows, but I frankly don't care about what others think. I have my SN ordered and I hope it arrives safely within the next week. I won't leave a note because it's not worth the effort. I am quite conservative and had a bit of success investing over the past few years. I was going to leave my assets to them despite everything, but after this whole situation I have decided to blow the remainder of my cash on gambling, and if I come out on top then I'll probably specify on my will to donate it all away. I want to leave them the equivalent of what they have given me my entire life - nothing, which is already more than they deserve.
