You beautiful soul, your first sign was so striking - you really nailed it. I felt it was a battle cry for all who have been failed by so-called mental health systems, for those who trusted it was alright to vocalize their pain only to be ostracized once they had spoken. For many of us who have been abandoned by so-called "family" and/or "friends".
I am thinking of you and holding you close to my heart. I wish I could've sat and had that meal with you - I haven't been able to eat solids and when I saw the pic of the macaroni and cheese…
It was so endearing.
As some have said in this thread, I'll echo the sentiment: please try not to be hard on yourself (easier said than done). Whether it be things not exactly going to plan, or not being able to go on a day you had in mind, etc.
I had been planning for the 26th and was disappointed I wasn't able to.
Sending you a big hug