ger3172
prove to me im not gonna die alone
- Oct 23, 2021
- 134
she was a member of the forum, her user is @TraveCuda
we met earlier this year and she told me her motives, and I told her mine. in the last days of August, she was telling me about how her date was going to be soon, and she said she was going to do it as soon as SN arrived at her place. I didnt think it was gonna be THAT soon. 2 weeks ago she told me her package was close, and i asked her if she was ok, she said she wasnt. she felt anxious about dying. i offered comfort, but she said she needed some time to think. later that day she sent me a picture of herself dressed up and wearing makeup, she said she wanted to die pretty. i started doing some housework and came back to messages from her saying she was taking a uber to get her package, and that her phone was low on battery. she got her package, went to a square, and called me. she sounded happy, just worried about the people passing there, coz she was trans. she said "people here are born with their necks turned to the side". her phone was dying as she struggled to open the package, but then i got my own SN bottle coz i knew it was the same and figured out how to open the sealed SN to help her.
but the thing is, she didnt follow the stans guide or the ppeh. i asked her about meto, she said she couldnt handle it well, said it gave her akathisia, and that earlier that day she bought dramamine and was gonna use that. while talking to me she took 3 clonazepam pills and then around 90 drops of the dramamine. she said she was gonna wait 40 mins or so and take her SN, but she wasnt gonna use proper measures either. she said she was just gonna put it in the water bottle cap. then she said her phone was at 2% and posted her suicide letter on instagram. she had already posted it on twitter earlier that day but her account is small. she posted them on the forum as well. here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-letters-and-documents-brazil.98539/
she also wrote smth on her twitter bio to honor @user398417
then her phone died and a few hours later someone commented on her suicide letter post, saying they found her body, and wanted to notify the family. i texted this person asking for confirmation, and he sent me pics of her dead body that were all over the local news outlet. we told her mom. then her post got reported and it was deleted. as far as im concerned, she didnt puke or something. someone said she asked for some water at an ice cream shop, crossed the street, mixed with SN, and drank it.
everyone gathered around her body and the whole city got shocked since she did that in public.
i guess i just wanted to vent about this, but also inform yall about how SN is in fact really effective.
we met earlier this year and she told me her motives, and I told her mine. in the last days of August, she was telling me about how her date was going to be soon, and she said she was going to do it as soon as SN arrived at her place. I didnt think it was gonna be THAT soon. 2 weeks ago she told me her package was close, and i asked her if she was ok, she said she wasnt. she felt anxious about dying. i offered comfort, but she said she needed some time to think. later that day she sent me a picture of herself dressed up and wearing makeup, she said she wanted to die pretty. i started doing some housework and came back to messages from her saying she was taking a uber to get her package, and that her phone was low on battery. she got her package, went to a square, and called me. she sounded happy, just worried about the people passing there, coz she was trans. she said "people here are born with their necks turned to the side". her phone was dying as she struggled to open the package, but then i got my own SN bottle coz i knew it was the same and figured out how to open the sealed SN to help her.
but the thing is, she didnt follow the stans guide or the ppeh. i asked her about meto, she said she couldnt handle it well, said it gave her akathisia, and that earlier that day she bought dramamine and was gonna use that. while talking to me she took 3 clonazepam pills and then around 90 drops of the dramamine. she said she was gonna wait 40 mins or so and take her SN, but she wasnt gonna use proper measures either. she said she was just gonna put it in the water bottle cap. then she said her phone was at 2% and posted her suicide letter on instagram. she had already posted it on twitter earlier that day but her account is small. she posted them on the forum as well. here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-letters-and-documents-brazil.98539/
she also wrote smth on her twitter bio to honor @user398417
then her phone died and a few hours later someone commented on her suicide letter post, saying they found her body, and wanted to notify the family. i texted this person asking for confirmation, and he sent me pics of her dead body that were all over the local news outlet. we told her mom. then her post got reported and it was deleted. as far as im concerned, she didnt puke or something. someone said she asked for some water at an ice cream shop, crossed the street, mixed with SN, and drank it.
everyone gathered around her body and the whole city got shocked since she did that in public.
i guess i just wanted to vent about this, but also inform yall about how SN is in fact really effective.
