I can't definitively say what I got wrong and what I got right. Where I was - 19, about to drop out of university, looking to get back in touch with someone. I am torn between whether I should have kept social media going to contact people, whether it would have helped me find people to date/hook up with, whether keeping certain people going would have helped me find people to hook up with and what I did do, which was to keep turning up at someone's work to try and initiate something with them, doing so led them to call me a stalker and made me fall out with everyone, over the last 10 years I have not been able to pick myself up and will kill myself. I just want closure over this before I die, its the most recovery I can realistically get and I need a perspective from someone that is more than 'it's in the past move on' it's fucked up my life fucked up my ability to try and do anything and I want specific closure over it before I die, I can't make decisions over anything out of it and I'm stuck in a mangled state, being kept alive in suffering is not recovery
I was so arrogant. I thought I knew what I was doing, I thought I could pull it off. She had groped me in a club and I wasn't sure what to say to her, I knew instinctively I needed to respond to her to make it work and I just wasn't sure to say, how to respond. And then she went and I spent the rest of the night trying to work it up to talk to her and I didnt get the chance. If I'd messaged her on social media this wouldn't have happened, I'd at least have some definity on whether she was open to connecting with me or not and I wouldn't have ended up turning up at her work for 4 months trying to talk to her, getting kicked out, making myself look like a stalker, going more and more and more and more downhill to the point where my life is completely ruined. I can't even use PayPal now to get medications to kill myself with. Please help me get closure before I die
I was so arrogant. I thought I knew what I was doing, I thought I could pull it off. She had groped me in a club and I wasn't sure what to say to her, I knew instinctively I needed to respond to her to make it work and I just wasn't sure to say, how to respond. And then she went and I spent the rest of the night trying to work it up to talk to her and I didnt get the chance. If I'd messaged her on social media this wouldn't have happened, I'd at least have some definity on whether she was open to connecting with me or not and I wouldn't have ended up turning up at her work for 4 months trying to talk to her, getting kicked out, making myself look like a stalker, going more and more and more and more downhill to the point where my life is completely ruined. I can't even use PayPal now to get medications to kill myself with. Please help me get closure before I die
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