anchorsaweigh06
dying is easy, living is harder.
- May 21, 2026
- 10
Hi.
I'm just some random user on this forum who was planning on CTB on my 21st birthday. I pondered and procrastinated for the past several months, and I'm finally down to the wire. Nothing's set in stone yet, but I promised myself that if I don't do it today, I have to seek help and actively work to make my life better every single day afterwards. No going back, no quitting, just hard work and healing no matter what.
There are a few things I'd like to live to see and accomplish, but the idea of having to continue trudging through all the difficult days ahead is extremely daunting and seems near impossible. I hope I don't regret the whole "living" thing. It seems really hard. <24 hours to decide. I suppose I'll just…wait a few hours and see how I feel, I guess.
Birthdays are weird, huh?
I'm just some random user on this forum who was planning on CTB on my 21st birthday. I pondered and procrastinated for the past several months, and I'm finally down to the wire. Nothing's set in stone yet, but I promised myself that if I don't do it today, I have to seek help and actively work to make my life better every single day afterwards. No going back, no quitting, just hard work and healing no matter what.
There are a few things I'd like to live to see and accomplish, but the idea of having to continue trudging through all the difficult days ahead is extremely daunting and seems near impossible. I hope I don't regret the whole "living" thing. It seems really hard. <24 hours to decide. I suppose I'll just…wait a few hours and see how I feel, I guess.
Birthdays are weird, huh?
