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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
167
Hi, I'm from New York, 53 M. Would someone be my friend, please? I'm in a desperate state of mind lately, with pockets of blue sky. I'm a good conversationalist, I write poetry and am a percussionist.
 
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ceramic_apple

ceramic_apple

Member
Sep 3, 2024
11
Hello, my name is Ann. I'm 19, from Buffalo.
 
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Mirelight

Mirelight

Just going through life's motions
May 21, 2024
215
20M, originally from Nepal, currently in US, CDT time zone. CS Major. Currently a little interested in osdev, but haven't been able to do much, have made some small 2d games, but don't think I wanna go down that road in future, a linux fanboy, wanna rice my system to the max someday, currently using mint with gnome. Am looking for someone in uni or just studying in general so we can encourage each other to do stuff and study together or smthing like that. Better if u are CS or something STEM, it's alright even if u r not tho.

I'm also trying to lose weight, been overweight my entire life, have been trying to do it for quite a while, but never succeed, hopefully I don't give up midway this time around too. I'm also a little interested in femboyish stuffs, I really wanna give makeup and cosplay a try at least once if I manage to lose some weight this time around. Don't think I'm gonna look as good as I like to think of it in my head, but wanna give it a try once.

I also like reading fantasy webnovels, I don't play games except one called osu!, I'm open to trying others if that's your thing, but my laptop is a little crappy and I use linux so choices aren't much. I like Japanese songs, imperial circus decadence are my fav band, I love wagaki band too, don't like the cringy ones with high pitched voices tho, yoasobi and the oral cigarettes are pretty good too.

In terms of ctb, I don't know... I've kinda lost touch with reality in some sense lately, Even if bad/ disappointing thing happen, the "pain" is just momentary. I remember when these feeling used to last longer, It has made life a lot more bearable, but it's been a little weird.

Anyway, just dm me if u think we can be friends.
Repost.

Things have been a little worse since, mostly financial ig. Tho my favorite webnovel (lotm) recently got animated so it's been a small beacon to look forward to as the week ends. I've changed my distro from mint to fedora, I like the gnome DE but mint does not officially support it, was getting lot of bugs so I left it. I've been recently getting into rust too, tho some days rust is all I do while most week I just stare into nothingness or doom scroll, I've absolutely zero consistency. I've also been reading a few webnovels, mostly listening to them during work. I tried going forward with osdev but the bar seems too high, tried going thru a book and even the prerequesite seems pretty daunting. Rather I'm looking towards compilers first before trying again, been going thru book called crafting interpreters, a bit above my league but I'm trying. It's not like I like programming, but it's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm not wasting my time, but even then finding motivation is hard most times. I tried getting into webdev with a friend too, but we have been procastinating it again and again, it's been a little awakard and haven't talked with him in a while.
 
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LostMary

LostMary

LostMary
Jun 28, 2025
14
Hi 44 F Portugal.

I guess i must be one of the older users I've seen so far in here.

Struggled with depression all my life, been on antidepressants for 30 years.

Multiple attempts at CTB, not very skilled i suppose.

I'm getting old, some constant pains that keep me from working a normal 8 hour day sitting at the desk.

Was never married, never bought a house, have no friends and for family only one adult son that won't talk to me since my last attempt.

Love stand up comedy and good conversation. Anhedonia keeps me from enjoying other stuff.

Still i would like some company and friendship through this journey.
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
167
Hi 44 F Portugal.

I guess i must be one of the older users I've seen so far in here.

Struggled with depression all my life, been on antidepressants for 30 years.

Multiple attempts at CTB, not very skilled i suppose.

I'm getting old, some constant pains that keep me from working a normal 8 hour day sitting at the desk.

Was never married, never bought a house, have no friends and for family only one adult son that won't talk to me since my last attempt.

Love stand up comedy and good conversation. Anhedonia keeps me from enjoying other stuff.

Still i would like some company and friendship through this journey.
Hi Mary. I'm Chris from New York. I'm 53 M. If you wanna chat, I'm available for friendship.
 
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hippiedeath

hippiedeath

Dead on the inside
Jul 12, 2025
167
Hi Chris
Thank you I still don't know how this works. How can we?
I see you don't have the option to private message yet. Maybe after you post some more it will open up.
 
LostMary

LostMary

LostMary
Jun 28, 2025
14
I see you don't have the option to private message yet. Maybe after you post some more it will open up.
That might be it. Thank you for letting me know
 
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soulchaser_

soulchaser_

he/him
Jul 20, 2025
11
alright, hello everyone!!

I'm 18m from Poland :p
hmm so what do I say here.

I'm a bit lost in life lolol, I do have some future plans, I had some bad breakups in the past so I don't trust people easily, only come talk if you're a good person honestly as I have become quite sensitive :d
I'm also transgender in the process of getting HRT currently!

I am a little fur dad with a cute ginger kitty. I love playing games (ex. roblox, minecraft) and talking. I am a yapper in hopes to find another yapper, but listeners also welcome (I do overshare... a lot)
Other smaller interests is digital art, a bit of skating, a bit of gym, even more roblox, chem and biology, books, anime and I love taking care of others

also not planning to ctb soon, just feeling depressed often(in recovery)
plsss pm plsplspls..
 
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soulchaser_

soulchaser_

he/him
Jul 20, 2025
11
Hey!, my name is Nattns (21M). I'm studying Games Art & Design in UK so I have a big passion for videogames, I love anime and films, I also learning how to play the bass and chess. I'm mainly on SS to fight my Social Anxiety, so I'm trying my best to open myself to new people. I don't use SS too often, so feel free to DM me your Discord.

Have a nice day everyone:)
heyy I cannot dm u somehow, can u dm me?
 
Mx_Pathetic

Mx_Pathetic

Delete
May 8, 2023
149
Australian-22-F

I made a thread not that long ago, but wanted to try again. I'd like to make a friend who's in my age range and isn't judgmental about my living situation/ life. I'd also like if you lived in Australia too, as my two online friends happen to live on the other side of the world and the time difference is ridiculous.

I've been diagnosed with -CPTSD, BPD, BP, ADHD, OCD and obviously depression, anxiety/panic attacks. I also suffer with terrible eating habits.

Currently doing TMS in a small hope that things might get a little bit better or I'll be a bit more "normal" in a sense. However I'm ready to ctb when this doesn't work on me.
 
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just a bird

Member
Jun 7, 2025
44
Kinda want to repost since I'm in a different spot now.
Hi! I'm Bird, 19 nb from the eastern half of the U.S.
Diagnoses: BPD, OCD, depression
Currently: a strange combination of in recovery with chronic suicidal thinking.
Interested in: anime, vocaloid, Minecraft speedrunning, horror games/videos, dogs, music
Looking for: a friend I can be honest with
 
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xeno112007

xeno112007

Member
Jul 18, 2025
80
18m ocd
suicidal and will ctb in 1 week
loves music memes and anime
looking for friend
 
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DepressedEgg

DepressedEgg

Member
Jun 20, 2023
28
Hi 44 F Portugal.
Hi there,
How're you doing? I hope you're not too bad, all things considered. I can't DM you, but if you'd want to chat I'm always open to receiving messages.
Australian-22-F
Hi there,
I'm 20NB, not from Australia unfortunately but I'm always happy to talk if you want. Feel free to DM me and we can chat about whatever you like :)
 
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HelloKittySAD

HelloKittySAD

Member
Jul 25, 2025
7
F, 22 just need a friend :)
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
45
22 M from Europe
Shut-in for the past 5+ years
Would like to make non-judgemental friends that have similar interests/lives
My favourite things are: various Videogames (especially MMOs), Animals (cats!!!) and Music
 
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LucifersIntrovert

LucifersIntrovert

Buried Alive
Sep 10, 2023
62
M20 from California
Currently in college just existing I guess?!? Lived with depression and been diagnosed with it since I was 12 countless numbers of therapists, been to rehab and "psych wards". But just want people to talk to I guess?!? Idk just kinda lost and don't feel like I can open up to my irl friends or can relate to them on a deep level like this website. But I still enjoy music and horror movies as a regular person :)
 
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HelloKittySAD

HelloKittySAD

Member
Jul 25, 2025
7
Hey to let you know you dont seem to unlocked pm feature yet. Dont worry soon it will be available.
Hey! Do you happen to know when that usually happens? Made the account a couple days ago.
 
xeno112007

xeno112007

Member
Jul 18, 2025
80
Hey! Do you happen to know when that usually happens? Made the account a couple days ago.
you have to post 30-50 messages then you can start conversation. but if you are eager I think we can chat in a thread publicly. it is allowed.
 
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sakakap

Member
Mar 26, 2024
41
21 / m / Western Europe.

I've slowly been getting out of a rut after some things that transpired last winter caused me to isolate myself to an unhealthy degree. I'm about to start going to uni and am looking for someone who's interested in recovering together. Currently my days are mostly spent at work [only 4 weeks remaining!! :)] , but when possible I enjoy running, reading or going for long walks in nature with my dog! Some of the more notable issues I've dealt with are depression, anxiety and an eating disorder.

I'd prefer to talk to people who don't have too many close friends already but that's not a must. I also don't mind where you're from, I've had friends from all over the world and in my experience it's always doable to schedule around timezones :). As for age I'd prefer someone who's about the same age as me, so roughly between 18 and 23 years old.

You're more than welcome to message me if you're not in a good place mentally but I'd rather not get too attached to someone who has already decided to ctb in the near future, I hope that's understandable.
If you can't send a direct message feel free to like this post and I'll reach out to you!
 
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graycrow

Member
Jun 1, 2025
5
Hi, I'm 21M from Israel.

I don't have a lot of interests. It's hard for me to maintain any kind of hobby because I have low energy and motivation. Even basic every day things things can be difficult for me. I like to watch movies sometimes and log them on letterboxd (or an anime or tv show from time to time). I play a bit of chess. I also like some music, no specific genre but I can share my playlists. I'm also into technology, I guess. Recently I've been spending a lot of time in the chat and the forums here on sasu. I waste way too much time mindlessly watching videos on youtube. Frequently I just do nothing.

I am very mentally ill, though my exact illnesses will depend on which psychiatrist you ask, from my experience. Severe anxiety and depression are the big two that are really making my life hell, and have made my life hell since a young age. I have trauma from childhood. I am constantly stressed and often feel bad from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep more or less. Despite all of that, I am trying to to live, and improve my life, though I don't know how much success I'm ever gonna have with that. At least for now, I don't plan to CTB, but I think about it every day.

I am very lonely, as the only people I regularly talk to are my parents, who I have a difficult relationship with. It would be nice to have someone to talk to and get to know, whose experiences are similar to mine.
Hi. I know it's been more than a year, but I'll be happy to talk if this post is still relevant. I'm 20f, moved to Israel 3 years ago.
 
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real human being

full of broken thoughts
Jan 28, 2022
228
Hi. I know it's been more than a year, but I'll be happy to talk if this post is still relevant. I'm 20f, moved to Israel 3 years ago.
I'd be happy to talk. It seems your account doesn't have access to private messages yet because it's new. Feel free to message me when you've gotten the ability.
 
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graycrow

Member
Jun 1, 2025
5
I'd be happy to talk. It seems your account doesn't have access to private messages yet because it's new. Feel free to message me when you've gotten the ability.
I can't text you as well. Maybe I was shadow banned or something. Sorry, huh
 
XKZyn

XKZyn

Member
Jul 27, 2025
36
Unsure if this is right, I don't usually use online forums. I'm XKZyn or Kaid whichever online alias you prefer, I'm 19M I like playing games (whatever my potatobox can run tbh) been fixated on this game called my hero ultra rumble. I can't say I have interests in a lot of things, I think I'm a plain person? I like reading books but it's been awhile since I've read a book so I usually read webtoons. I enjoy looking at the stars when the loneliness kicks in, I don't smoke as often as I used to but I still enjoy getting high (um...dunno if I can say that) I prefer night over day oh and I recently have been trying to get my life back on track-ish. I'm an awkward person since I don't really talk to people, I've been told I come across as an asshole but that's just me I suppose? I've been wanting to play risk of rain 2 again lately so wouldn't mind any potential people to game with, might take me a bit to warm up to you unless it's that type of day where I'm a social butterfly for some reason.
 
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ultradespair

ultradespair

Shut-in
Jul 25, 2025
45
22 M from Europe
Shut-in for the past 5+ years
Would like to make non-judgemental friends that have similar interests/lives
My favourite things are: various Videogames (especially MMOs), Animals (cats!!!) and Music
 
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nattns

nattns

Member
Mar 12, 2023
16
Mid 20s (f), living in Denmark. Suffered with consistent MH issues since around 9 years old.
Dealt with a lot of loss in my life to the point I am the last remaining person within my family, so sort of raw dogging life alone right now.

I work in video games & anime publishing - I'm lucky to have a job that also consists of my main interests. I love farming games, LoL, WoW, & so many more tbh. I also collect Pokemon cards!
I love riding my motorcycle, it's a good escape for me.

Diagnosed with OCD & bipolar type 1. Common for me to be in mixed states more than one or the other.

Would love to just have someone likeminded to speak with. I recently just got out of the psych ward and on trial with different medications right now, so a bit out of it if I'm honest.

Politically I am very left leaning. I don't mind speaking with people who have different views (so long as you're not racist or homophobic), but just incase it puts you off.

Please do not contact me if you are under 21 - thank you!
My name is Steven (21M). I'm studying Games Art & Design in UK so I have a big passion for videogames, I love anime and films, I also learning how to play the bass and chess. I'm mainly on SS to fight my Social Anxiety. I don't use SS too often, so feel free to drop me your Discord if u want to be in contact with me. :)
 
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chaosdrifter

chaosdrifter

pirate without pronouns but anxiety
Mar 20, 2024
66
some things have changed since my last post on this thread. i'm bert (no pronouns/they). i'm 23 and had lots of suicide attempts and i'm still often pretty suicidal and am struggling with my impulses. but i do also have other things in my life besides my suffering (or things I do while suffering) like travelling, camping, biking, hitchhiking, trying to join activists from time to time for their actions. i'm also exploring kink more and more and do find some freedom and lightheartedness there and also ways to inflict and experience emotions that feel good, which feels very valuable.
i also appreciate a lot the few close friendships i have and the commitment and care we have for each other. recently i also had my top surgery and feel very validated that i took this decision for myself and i'm relieved with the results, it feels good and natural to me.
also, the few new things and ways that brought me a little bit of space to breathe also made me wonder if i should try to give therapy another try (but at the same time i still want to kill myself and i hate some of the things i frlt during therapy before and i feel it's just very hard for me to be in this setting).
anyways, i'm not sure that fits so well in this thread (it turned out to be more of a journal entry, but yeah).
anyways, i don't think i'm able to be super present, but i'd still like to find something like pen pals to exchange with.
 
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kvorumese

"Wiped Out!"
Oct 21, 2024
148
Hi, unspecified age here from Russia. I am AMAB but I have been questioning my gender identity for multiple months, so I use any pronouns.

I am not looking as much for a friend as for somebody to simply be acquainted and on good terms with. I don't go on this site nearly frequently enough to actually properly communicate and overall my attachment style is not understood even by me. If you would like to get to know me better, you can look through my venting threads - in a nutshell, I am avidly waiting for the day that all loose ends are tied and I can finally ingest SN.

I am rather laid back and I have learnt to suppress most of my emotions, so I am not too expressive, but still empathetic and I am a decent listener (although not as good of a responder/supporter... sorry).

If you want to chat with me, please NEVER EVER mention anything related to cutting, veins, arteries and etc. If this is something that you are interested in or take part in, please DNI (not because I hate you, but because this is an extreme visceral fear of mine).

My interests include development (Java, Kotlin and a bit of Python and a tiny slither of Rust), mathematics, gender (genuinely just discussing this topic is very interesting to me because until a couple months ago I had no idea about anything regarding it), suicidal thoughts etc, DevOps.

I don't play any videogames that much, but my favorite ones are Minecraft and Detroit: Become Human.

I belong to some fandoms like Attack on Titan, Death Note, Terror in Resonance and some other animes, and also My Little Pony (I haven't finished it yet though!!! I just started season 1, so no spoilers please).

Some of my favorite bands/artists are The Neighbourhood, Imagine Dragons, Billie Eilish, Charli XCX, NF, Phantogram, Call Me Karizma, grandson, Penelope Scott, 100 gecs, Chappell Roan, Ado, 2hollis, midwxst, Chase Atlantic, Sleeping wolf, Twenty One Pilots, Set It Off, RADWIMPS, Joji, The Weeknd, Panic! At The Disco and some others
I also like Russian music - pyrokinesis, Земфира, Би-2, Noize MC, Монеточка, mzlff, Валентин Стрыкало (Ukrainian band but Russian-language music), Дора, катя милтей, zhanulka (also Ukrainian) and some others.

Overall - I am not looking for anybody actively, but if you feel like we could get along, I think it's worth to try. But again, please note that I am not quick to respond because I don't visit this site even daily, but rather on unplanned occasions.
Have a lovely day ;)
 
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