love on the spectrum

[yearned]

part of me hates that show because i find it infantilizing but it has also been a guilty pleasure when i need something cute or feel good to watch. i wish my mental illness(es???) didnt make it so hard for me not to ruin every relationship ive had, i envy the participants who have functional relationships. however i am also trying to liberate myself from the need to be in a relationship. EH

 

[meltdown]

I've watched a sickening amount of this show. some of the stories are very heartwarming and make me think love might be there for some of us. but at the same time, realizing there are so many people who have it so much harder and are able to make it work while I fail again and again.