NeverEndingPain
So tired of struggling
- May 8, 2022
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I do not recommend watching any gore videos on the internet of CTB. Man did that freak me out
I wish I had not done that.
I wish I had not done that.
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I thought seeing a video would help me better prepare for my chosen method. It was so badI think that it's horrifying how such a thing as gore sites even exists. I would never watch a suicide video. There must have been so much suffering that people went through in order to make the content on those types of websites. Life really is so cruel.
It hits a bit different when you know it's real. I found the site posted on here and thought I'd be ok to watch.I guess it's not much diff than horror/slasher movies? I've never entered such a site.
I don't get a feeling of happy or sad for the person. It's more like it scares me to try after watching it. My chosen method is hanging and I think I'd rather have my own mental image in my head then what I watched.Those videos don't affect me at all should I be happy or should I be sad?
Yes, I was also scared. I saw my dead body dangling on the rope in my mind's eye. My method was full suspension and I watched hanging videos also just about two months ago.I don't get a feeling of happy or sad for the person. It's more like it scares me to try after watching it. My chosen method is hanging and I think I'd rather have my own mental image in my head then what I watched.
It's good to hear that you don't feel that way nowYes, I was also scared. I saw my dead body dangling on the rope in my mind's eye. My method was full suspension and I watched hanging videos also just about two months ago.
I used past tense because I am not suicidal now.
I've been thinking hanging as well but I know it will be brutal. Not fast.I don't get a feeling of happy or sad for the person. It's more like it scares me to try after watching it. My chosen method is hanging and I think I'd rather have my own mental image in my head then what I watched.
Those videos don't affect me at all should I be happy or should I be sad?
Budd Dwyer. That was my first one too. I think $uicideboy$ used the still from before he shoots as an album art cover.I watched the video of the politician who shot himself at a press conference. This took place in 1987, I believe. It was horrific and sad. I wished I never watched it, too.
What is the website?I do not recommend watching any gore videos on the internet of CTB. Man did that freak me out
I wish I had not done that.
But after I was like I hope he found peace and I just saw a dead body, like we are only blood, cells and skin and bones. It was like wow we are only this? Like the only thing that makes us a human is our brain,with all the feelings and stuff.
Same for me as well. I think we are all just wired differentlyThose videos don't affect me at all should I be happy or should I be sad?
It's literally my smartwatch wallpaper lolBudd Dwyer. That was my first one too. I think $uicideboy$ used the still from before he shoots as an album art cover.
I agree actually……how is it ever pleasant to watch that and who the hell makes those sites!!I do not recommend watching any gore videos on the internet of CTB. Man did that freak me out
I wish I had not done that.
I agree it is as personal of a choice as choosing your method. As long as it is not shown on streams that kids and others see accidentally, I think it has to be given the same respect.I feel it's a very personal choice to livestream/record your suicide, and while I might, it's certainly not for everyone; not everyone would want to see that either, it's also a personal choice to watch that or not.