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EternalAgony

EternalAgony

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if i livestream the whole day which i'll be dying on, would you watch it? i'd like someone to record it all with a screen recorder or something and upload it to youtube maybe. i'm not sure if i'll actually do this but it's a thought i have. if you think you'd like to watch (and record), write a comment, please
 
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cursedlife

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if i livestream the whole day which i'll be dying on, would you watch it? i'd like someone to record it all with a screen recorder or something and upload it to youtube maybe. i'm not sure if i'll actually do this but it's a thought i have. if you think you'd like to watch (and record), write a comment, please
If you don't mind me asking, why do you want to ctb ?
 
EternalAgony

EternalAgony

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Jun 29, 2022
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If you don't mind me asking, why do you want to ctb ?
thank you for asking, the main reasons are:
1) my laziness and related issues such as easily being overwhelmed when trying to "learn" a new thing, or not being able to focus when reading
2) loneliness(which might have a little chance of being solved after the first problem is gone)
3) the state of the world (its unfairness and the existence of evil) and my emotional sensitivity about it
4) life not being interesting. nothing fantastic exists and i don't like that

i learnt that being in love quite literally solved all of these issues but i'm not willing to try furthermore. life is too hard for me, and thats okay. not everyone has to live. every problem has a solution and the best solution to my problems is death. i am glad it is. because its easy to die :-)
 
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UaScorpioVetal224

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when will you be streaming and where exactly? Telegram Viber WhatsApp or where?
 
Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

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I would watch your last day. I am keen to see, whether it is really easy to die.
 
bloominghopelessne

bloominghopelessne

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I would have watched and maybe done it myself during the broadcast.
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

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I don't like this idea. It's not a TV show but if you want to do it, just do it. I'm not judging you suffering
 
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Yhe thought of it sounds kind of comforting in a way, just having the safety blanket of being with other people really does help with things like this.
Depending on the time I wouldnt mind being there for you if you do decide for it to be your last day
 
KinderEgg

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Why do you want to though?
 
hmnow

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if i livestream the whole day which i'll be dying on, would you watch it? i'd like someone to record it all with a screen recorder or something and upload it to youtube maybe. i'm not sure if i'll actually do this but it's a thought i have. if you think you'd like to watch (and record), write a comment, please
Yes I would ax a witness to your choice
 
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lonergirl_26

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I would. You should be able to leave the way you want to.
Wish you all the best of luck.
 
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fedup1982

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I definitely wouldn't watch, but thanks for the offer. I'd be careful because in my mind, the mentality needed to watch this could be dark, it might attract the wrong people, but what do I know!!? Apologies to anyone who wants to watch and isn't a dark minded individual! I guess it's possible??
 
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if i livestream the whole day which i'll be dying on, would you watch it? i'd like someone to record it all with a screen recorder or something and upload it to youtube maybe. i'm not sure if i'll actually do this but it's a thought i have. if you think you'd like to watch (and record), write a comment, please
Yes I'd watch it
 
iwashere

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Jun 2, 2025
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just be prepared for some sadist to screen record it and have it end up on gore sites. i've thought about this too but the thought of my videos being passed around like some meme and have some weird racist in the comment call me monkey scum doesn't sit right with me. i know we'd like to believe that nobody in their right mind would disrespect someone's choice like that but it's unfortunately the way things are.
 
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if i livestream the whole day which i'll be dying on, would you watch it? i'd like someone to record it all with a screen recorder or something and upload it to youtube maybe. i'm not sure if i'll actually do this but it's a thought i have. if you think you'd like to watch (and record), write a comment, please
I think choosing to stream your death is mot anything different in choosing a method. If that is your choice it should be honoured. As long as you don't stream it where unsuspecting children and adults might see it like Facebook live
 
hmnow

hmnow

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I'd watch. As I plan something similar. I'd like to see and what I can learn from it
 
EternalAgony

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Hello everyone, thanks for the responses, to answer a few questions:

- I'd want to live stream it maybe on a DC server and the reason for the whole thing is because i really want to be seen, heard and understood

here is the link, you can share it with anyone you want: https://discord.gg/GfHMZany4e

- I'll cut the video before drinking SN because if i don't, the police will find the video running and this whole thing will make my parents upset

- I want it to be recorded so that even more people can see it. I couldn't care less about people making fun of it because I won't be there to witness that

- I plan to just mainly vent I guess. I want to go and watch the sunset that day.

i'll quote you all so you can see my reply
when will you be streaming and where exactly? Telegram Viber WhatsApp or where?

I would watch your last day. I am keen to see, whether it is really easy to die.

I would have watched and maybe done it myself during the broadcast.

id tune in

I don't like this idea. It's not a TV show but if you want to do it, just do it. I'm not judging you suffering

I would also watch

Yhe thought of it sounds kind of comforting in a way, just having the safety blanket of being with other people really does help with things like this.
Depending on the time I wouldnt mind being there for you if you do decide for it to be your last day

Why do you want to though?

Yes I would ax a witness to your choice

I would. You should be able to leave the way you want to.
Wish you all the best of luck.

I'd like to see

I definitely wouldn't watch, but thanks for the offer. I'd be careful because in my mind, the mentality needed to watch this could be dark, it might attract the wrong people, but what do I know!!? Apologies to anyone who wants to watch and isn't a dark minded individual! I guess it's possible??

Yes I'd watch it

just be prepared for some sadist to screen record it and have it end up on gore sites. i've thought about this too but the thought of my videos being passed around like some meme and have some weird racist in the comment call me monkey scum doesn't sit right with me. i know we'd like to believe that nobody in their right mind would disrespect someone's choice like that but it's unfortunately the way things are.

I think choosing to stream your death is mot anything different in choosing a method. If that is your choice it should be honoured. As long as you don't stream it where unsuspecting children and adults might see it like Facebook live

I'd watch. As I plan something similar. I'd like to see and what I can learn from it
 
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