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RW__Asher23

Student
Dec 11, 2022
140
1. I woke up this morning after no PTSD Nightmares last night. 2. no one bothered me all day. 3. I made it through one more day
 
Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
405
Had my session with my psychologue. She was helpful and understanding. Gave me homework.

Had a tipsy drink Wich repressed my emotions. I' m having a coffee right now so i wake up a bit. I' m carefree of my surronding. It was 18%alcohol so it made very typsie.

I don't see how i would cope otherwise.

Need to drive so i have to wake up.

Once i do i will recuperate my scooter. I need money though. So once i wake up. I will drive there with a friend.vim a dependant person si hopefully my sister will give me money.

I will call her.
 
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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
4,263
Clearly a better day compared to the last ones
Today was my free day and I really enjoyed it.

I listened to many super interesting texts on politics
Phoned with my friends and had some fun
I felt more relaxed. I struggle with that but comparatively it was a good day

I hope very much my sleeping issues decrease they really frighten me a lot.
 
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Shoko

Shoko

Member
Dec 4, 2022
12
1. Just started my meds 4 days ago and started to experience nasty side effects the next three days and today all gone.

2. Just found out that I was able to get into a intensive outpatient program.

3. Finally reconnected with a very good friend that I distanced myself from 15 years ago.

All that while I was isolating, a known trigger and precursor to my depression and anxiety, apparently.
 
Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
405
Today was productive as I got my scooter working and better finally.

Going to have an an other langual frenectemie with Lazer for more improvement for my speech at the bottom of my tongue.

Did few little helpefull a stuff.

Like my intention were clear toward people.


More communicative.


I will wake up probably 10 o'clock tomorrow. Having one intention to buy a cover for my scooter turbulateur so it stays intact for whatever raison it is necessary. I have just enough money.

Driving make me carefree about society.

My next intentions is to fix my scooter chair and buy some supplies in to better the outlook, maybe fix contact key issues. I have few months until I get to work as a taxi driver so this my focus now.

Money is an issue but I will take it easy first thing first.

Let's hope, false or delusional, knowing I overuse xanax to conrol my cptsd.
Lest see how tomorrow goes I will update.
 
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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
4,263
1. I am still calm because the day yesterday was so relaxing
2. Tomorrow I meet someone from my support network I hope talking might help to cope with the pressure
the exam time will be hellish. Though if I stay stable I will enjoy the time afterwards. I already started a to do list with potential things I enjoy

It is pretty essential to stay healthy. This exam time will be the worst so far because the number of exams increased. I realized that 5 minutes ago it is pretty scary when I think about it.

3. Currently I allow myself to eat 2-3 cookies a day. It is a perfect match-up to my coffee. I hope I won't gain too much weight because of it.
 
Ineedtodie

Ineedtodie

Shame, Avoidance, hopelessness, lonliness, cbt, pm
Nov 9, 2022
405
Seemingly nothing. No matter how ungrateful this looks.
 
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EternalOblivion

EternalOblivion

But does anything matter if you're already dead?
Jan 13, 2023
50
  1. I found some extra art stickers that I had been gifted, but were obscured by the wrapping around it. I didn't even realize they were there until today, so it was a nice surprise—plan on adding them to my journal.
  2. A close friend of mine reached out to me. I tend to intensely withdraw from everyone during my lows. Being reminded that there is someone who genuinely cares, despite my flaws, was something I needed.
  3. Today is the calmest I've felt in months. Consistently struggling with depression, intrusive thoughts, and suicide ideation is exhausting. My mind thankfully gave me a break today.
 
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leaf23

Specialist
Dec 12, 2020
335
1. Snuggled under my toasty-warm blanket
2. No anxiety-inducing social interactions today (didn't have to go out, no unexpected visitors/calls)
3. New episode of one of my favorite webtoons is soooo GOOD 🔥 (weak hero 229 anyone?)
 
Dead Ghost

Dead Ghost

Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
1,329
  1. I showered and changed my clothes (I hadn't done that since January 1st).
  2. I have called a person on the phone who has been asking me to talk for some time.
  3. I tried the new almonds (I didn't dare to eat too many in case they hurt me).
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  1. M'he dutxat i cambiat de roba (no ho feia desde el dia 1 de Gener).
  2. He trucat per teléfon a una persona que feia temps que em va demanar de parlar.
  3. He provat les ametlles noves (no me atrevit a menjar-ne gaires per si em feien mal).
 
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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
4,263
Yesterday and this morning were beautiful. I had much time to relax. And enjoyed to listen to newsmagazine articles. However I am not sure whether I am in a manic epsiode which would change my whole life for a couple of years.
Though now I try to focus on the positive.


1. Read pretty interesting articles on politics
2. Ate two cookies which tasted super
3. Video games can give me joy
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,623
1. I have enough beer to last me the day
2 . I have enough cigarettes and weed
3. I'm gonna micro dose on some mushrooms, enjoy nature for a bit, dive off into a Nice weighted blanket , get lost in the Dallas Cowboys game and enjoy the company of my Mom and Dad before I leave and get ready for another week of fckn bullshit, work.
 
Caeruleum

Caeruleum

Member
Jan 20, 2023
7
1. got to sleep together with somebody I love again, instead of struggling in the night
2. food delivery is arriving soon
3. Diazepam made me feel drowsy and I can't think seriously about anything too bad
I love seeing everybody's responses on this thread!! here goes mine:
1. i ate 3 healthy meals,
2. i didnt binge on anything as soon as i came home from a terrible shift!
3. i'm now in bed with my cat, drinking chamomile tea
this one legitimately fills me with hope, even though it was just a stranger enjoying their day.
 
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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
4,263
My psychiatrist thinks I am not manic. However I am not sure whether that is really representative. Yesterday I took a benzo and for some other reasons I felt better today. But I don't want to question her assessment too much. So I am pretty happy about that.

I spent some money in a game to give me pleasure but I am a little bit concerned it is gacha. I am good at impulse control so I hope it won't escalate. I spent 1 euro. Lol. Though this is often how it starts.

Tomorrow is my free day. And I hope it will be pretty relaxing and funny. I could need such a day now.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,623
1. Called in sick, took a break from work
2. Made it to an AA meeting which was great for me, topic was on resentments which was EXACTLY what I needed
3. Ended up putting the barrel to my head and didn't pull the trigger, Here for another day. Still breathing.
 
yeksovaz

yeksovaz

жить грешно умереть смешно
Jan 21, 2023
20
My therapist told me statistics show you can become way more happy if you do that every day.
My day today was pretty shitty but I will try.
(It is really a hard question today)
1.Me and my dad had an argument on the phone and suddenly the connection was lost. That was quite good. lol
2. In the morning I was less depressed (the evening is fucking with me)
3. One of my Youtube videos had more views than usual
I'm glad your video is popping off :sunglasses:
 
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Regen

I stay in my power
Aug 20, 2020
351
1) I dont know why, but I have more energy the last days, so today I cleaned my flat a little. That makes me very happy, because mess is a big problem.
2) I helped a friend, I drove her to the city.
3) I watched a good movie about some crazy, good people in a psych ward. I love watching this, I feel less lonely and weird if I see others who are also crazy.
 
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Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
1,623
I'm glad you have more energy, that's Nice. One of my big problems.... getting the motivation to clean up the mess i make.

1. Didn't kill myself....... SI has Really started to fuck with me in a dark and morbid way lately..... But I was able to keep my head up and enjoy a couple new songs i discovered. Kept busy as much as I could.

2.. Was able to talk with a good friend that I've lost touch with lately.

3... Was able to help my Dad a bit and picked up some coffee filters for him.
 
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TransilvanianHunger

TransilvanianHunger

Grave with a view...
Jan 22, 2023
332
  1. Woke up before my cat did, so I got to relax for a while with him curled up next to me. He usually wakes me up to ask for his breakfast.
  2. The day was cool and cloudy, just the way I like it.
  3. Listened to Goldfrapp's Seventh Tree, an album I really like but hadn't listened to in quite a while for some reason.
 
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noname223

Angelic
Aug 18, 2020
4,263
-Still I feel somewhat relaxed I take addictive medication to survive the exams the shit kills me alive
-I really love the new outlets where I find interesting articles
-I love the cookies I eat sadly I gained weight. But as long as I have exams I am not too strict on that.
 
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Ilayis

Ilayis

SuicidalManPup
Sep 4, 2022
36
1- I'm mostly over the panic attack I had. 2- I had the energy to get up to shower and be productive to fight off the sinking depression I'm having rn. 3- My dick still works so that's nice to know!!! 😁
 
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nopointinlife

Student
Mar 11, 2022
103
1. I found a good podcast to listen to when I wake up in the middle of the night that puts me back to sleep
2. I found a solution to a problem that was causing me a huge amount of stress.
3. I'm cooking a juicy 2 inch thick bone in rib-eye for dinner.
 

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