Not looking for methods; mentally I mean. Concentration, determination, mental advice.
I'd prefer to CTB while comfortable and alone so my survival instinct doesn't stop me like it has in the past and I have no time or opportunity to reconsider since I know that only happens due to panic and the second I'm 'safe' I hate everything about life and everyone and want to die again and I know for certain there is no hope of ever being happy and meeting anyone and even if I did my health problem makes it only a cruel taunt and I won't be able to be happy with them.
And my issues are a physical problems doctors won't or can't do anything about
All of the sharp objects in my house are locked up but there are other things. I'm worried about speed and success than pain I was able to totally ignore pain and SI last time I drank so just need to plan ahead and drink enough one more time
I'd prefer to CTB while comfortable and alone so my survival instinct doesn't stop me like it has in the past and I have no time or opportunity to reconsider since I know that only happens due to panic and the second I'm 'safe' I hate everything about life and everyone and want to die again and I know for certain there is no hope of ever being happy and meeting anyone and even if I did my health problem makes it only a cruel taunt and I won't be able to be happy with them.
And my issues are a physical problems doctors won't or can't do anything about
All of the sharp objects in my house are locked up but there are other things. I'm worried about speed and success than pain I was able to totally ignore pain and SI last time I drank so just need to plan ahead and drink enough one more time
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