Story Moving Out from Home

[Liwujin]

I moved out from my mother's house because it was clear she didn't want me there anymore and I understand her. She doesn't understand me and seems to not want to do it, she thinks I just want attention, even after I landed in the hospital and clearly stated days before I even attempted I felt terrible everyday. Anyways, I live with my father now but it is like living alone. Everyone in my father's house just leaves me alone so I can be in my room all day without talking to anyone. It's a particular lonely freedom that makes me feel better and worse. I miss my mother immensely but it is for the best we take time from each other. I might not see her again since I'm planning to attempt again after my birthday because I don't want to live like this. I don't want to live such a lonely existence. If I'm such a burden to the person who birthed me to the point she prefers me out of her life—Who will tolerate me? I love her so much, being away from my best friend, my refuge and the only person I genuinely trusted is painful but I have to accept that she doesn't want to put up with my mental issues but it's fine. I'm not a kid anymore, I should be able to make it by myself like always. I will make it, just not like how other's think I will hahaha