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lastappleonearth

lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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I can't seem to move on u know, it's been quite some time now and I still think abt her almost every moment, I still cry during the night. I know that she moved on and I think she is happy now and I'm glad for that, she deserves happiness, but I'm just stuck. She even still appears in my dreams and it's nice I guess, but when I wake up, it makes it so much worse. She was right abt everything in the end.
This summer has been so shit, I'm so fckin lonely. Like what are u supposed to do when u have no one left, I just don't know. Being all alone with my thoughts isn't good.

If u ever experienced sth similar, how did you move on?
I guess it'd be easier, if there were some ppl around me, but there's no one
 
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alioshakaramazov

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Nov 14, 2025
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You don't, you just keep on existing until it somehow stops being your number 1 thought overall. Or maybe you do. For me, it's been more than a year since it happened and I still think about her. It's not on my mind 24/7 but it definitely always is lurking. Anyway, it's just a matter of time until it becomes less insufferable. At least that's how it went for me.
 
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