Polyxo
Ring Ding Dong!
- Mar 1, 2025
- 147
I didn't CTB last year. I guess I felt there was some hope for me. But my sibling just called to talk about my life and my future – whether I'm happy like I am now. She's worried because half my twenties are gone now and I haven't done anything with my life. All I could say was that happiness is just something I'd have to work toward, I guess...
Couldn't bring myself to admit that my tools have been sitting in my closet for a year now, untouched and undiscovered. She thinks my life is in the state it's currently in because I'm afraid of taking risks.
I don't fear life... I just never had the desire for it...
She was able to pinpoint that maybe I'm not living for myself, though. I feel really guilty that I wasn't honest about being suicidal. I straight up blamed the pandemic for "trauma" as a cover for my being suicidal. LOLLLL.
Has anyone else really scraped the bottom of the barrel to hide that you're suicidal from other people?
Couldn't bring myself to admit that my tools have been sitting in my closet for a year now, untouched and undiscovered. She thinks my life is in the state it's currently in because I'm afraid of taking risks.
I don't fear life... I just never had the desire for it...
She was able to pinpoint that maybe I'm not living for myself, though. I feel really guilty that I wasn't honest about being suicidal. I straight up blamed the pandemic for "trauma" as a cover for my being suicidal. LOLLLL.
Has anyone else really scraped the bottom of the barrel to hide that you're suicidal from other people?
