I don't know if you're suffering from a physical ailment that makes every bit of life insufferable (such as cancer) or something else. So, don't take this the wrong way or take it as me judging your life or assuming who you are as a person because I don't know much about either of those things, so I can't even begin to judge. I just want you to know that IF you're choosing to do this because you feel as though you don't matter, you DO matter. You matter to me as a person and I can't speak for others, so you may or may not matter to them, but you do have value regardless. It takes a lot of internal work to find value within yourself and it takes time to do that. Not saying that you haven't tried that already, like I mentioned before, Idk your circumstances and at the end of the day it's all your choice and maybe your reasoning for doing this isn't about self worth, but rather something else which is fine. I really don't wanna assume.
I just… I don't know… I just looked at your post specifically and something within me was just like "this needs to be said", so I'm saying it. Maybe it was the way you typed certain things? You seem like a nice person :). Sorry if this response offends you. My response isn't meant to imply anything negative about you, I'm not good with words, so if it came across that way, then I'm sorry. I'm sure you'll make the right choice, whatever that choice may be.
Lots of love and warm regards,
Annas

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