Venting I've been abused over and over

[Buñuelo]

Yesterday, talking with my sister, we confessed to remember horrible things. Both mom and dad, even when I was a toddler, have been SA us.
I knew and even accepted the psychological abuse, and the beating, but this is too much...

My boyfriend also did this to me, and I thought we could talk it out, but he kept on abusing me and I left. I went back to my parent's house and now this.

I just can't take it anymore. Why? Why? Why?

And I'm the one that has to go to therapy to fix myself, I'm a mess, but I'd never do this to another living being.

But I have to keep going, and doing my best, until my heart rottens and I finally do what I shall.

 

[The Schizoid]

So sorry about this. Definitely seek professional help. It will be worth it.

Don't let them win.

 

[Buñuelo]

Thank you for you words . I'm planning my suicide, but still will look for professional help to at least have a safe place.