Venting Is this really it? Working a 9-to-5, paying bills, and struggling to survive?

[Spite]

What a joke. What a sham.

I'm brought into a world I never wanted to be a part of, and now I have to wageslave for the rest of my life? This can't be it. That wave of dread that sweeps over me as soon as my day begins, as soon as I hear that 5:30AM alarm. Then I have to put on my uniform, drive to work, and clock in to a job I despise. I have to spend most of the day being at a place I don't want to be at, doing manual labour that I don't want to do. And to make matters worse, I'm surrounded by toxic, stupid, obnoxious, shitty co-workers who do not give a single iota of a fuck about me.

After slaving away all day, I come home exhausted, drained, and defeated. I just earned a few extra crumbs that will go into my digital bank account, of which most of it will be direct debited out of my account in less than two weeks because of all the bills I have to pay and how unaffordable life has become.

And then I get a few hours of sleep, only to wake up the next morning and repeat the same boring, soul-crushing thing. Over and over again.

It. Never. Fucking. Ends.

You get to a point where you start to ask yourself... "why stay?"

"Why continue?"

I don't want to spend my life being a servant, being a wagecuck. Wageslavery has to be one of my strongest reasons for wanting to CTB. There's no escape from this shit. The alternatives to not having a job are even worse. So I really feel like I'm trapped with no way out other than, quite literally, killing myself.

Sometimes during my commute back home I have thoughts of swerving my car off the road and ramming head-first into a tree or a wall or something. If I ever end up doing this I have to hope that I actually die in the crash and I don't survive.

I'm so tired. Staying alive is absolutely exhausting. Every day is a fucking battle; part of a seemingly endless war. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of struggling. I just want to rest.

Just let me rest.

 

[darksoul999]

I could not agree more.

Wage slavery is one of the biggest reasons i plan to remove myself from this world.

People drain me so much, its unbearable.

Work for crumbs just to survive. you nailed it.

The same day loops into another which loops into weeks, months, years of the same cycle, people and bullshit.

Come home exhausted, just to do it all over again.

I plan to be out of here soon.

Hope you find rest friend

 

[Pluto]

 

[darksoul999]

lmao ok that made me laugh haha kudos to you... Ahhh yes the NEET life... I miss it

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Life is a scam.

 

[SASU-KE]

Unless you're fortunate enough to be born to responsible parents who saved/set up a trust fund for you life will be a slog fest.

 

[itsgone2]

Agree with everything.
My ancestors were farmers and coal miners. Tough jobs have always existed.
But good jobs did too. They've been decimated.

Life is a joke. I 100% agree that I wish I'd die during my commute.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Unless you're fortunate enough to be born to responsible parents who saved/set up a trust fund for you life will be a slog fest.

Spoke to somebody the other day approaching retirement. He angrily said "all I've done in my life is work" and I said you are not the only one.

Agree with everything.
My ancestors were farmers and coal miners. Tough jobs have always existed.
But good jobs did too. They've been decimated.

Life is a joke. I 100% agree that I wish I'd die during my commute.

I see it in their faces on their morning commute. I look away quickly. Bloody awful.

 

[imagonner]

totally agree. i feel so cheated and lied to...nothing to look forward to...fuck this shit...

 

[Spite]

Unless you're fortunate enough to be born to responsible parents who saved/set up a trust fund for you life will be a slog fest.

Well, I was born to a 17-year-old mother - she was literally still in high school when I was conceived, and a monstrous, abusive scumbag father, so my life was over before it began.

 

[oneirataxia]

Dunno if you live in the states, but I feel you and I worry about the trajectory the American economy is taking. I don't like a lot of YouTubers, but one of the few I genuinely look up to posited that the middle class could disappear, leaving only the higher class to do whatever they want and force the lower class into doing their bidding. All the old people who run our country should be listening or helping the young. Instead, they choose to lavish away and take all the power for themselves. Boomers just see stock prices rising and are wholly unempathetic to struggling younger people, because durr, muh stocks and gas prices are good, so that must mean the rest of our economy is good. They are wholly out of touch with the rest of society and I despise them. I hope one day there is hope, but it's hard not to be blinded by the crushing present. It's such an empty time to be alive.

I can't really provide any guidance besides empty platitudes but I sincerely hope things get better for you, as well as the rest of society overall. Also, just wanted to say I like your Suigintou pfp.

 

[DeathJester]

Our sole purpose in a capitalist system is to produce wealth for those owning the means of production, living space and anything else we depend on. Advanged modern wage-slavery. At least the whole reasoning behind all that is totally good! We do this so that the upper 5% can engage in a global dick measuring contest with other "elites" that "own" things people need to have a functioning life.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

What a joke. What a sham.

I'm brought into a world I never wanted to be a part of, and now I have to wageslave for the rest of my life? This can't be it. That wave of dread that sweeps over me as soon as my day begins, as soon as I hear that 5:30AM alarm. Then I have to put on my uniform, drive to work, and clock in to a job I despise. I have to spend most of the day being at a place I don't want to be at, doing manual labour that I don't want to do. And to make matters worse, I'm surrounded by toxic, stupid, obnoxious, shitty co-workers who do not give a single iota of a fuck about me.

After slaving away all day, I come home exhausted, drained, and defeated. I just earned a few extra crumbs that will go into my digital bank account, of which most of it will be direct debited out of my account in less than two weeks because of all the bills I have to pay and how unaffordable life has become.

And then I get a few hours of sleep, only to wake up the next morning and repeat the same boring, soul-crushing thing. Over and over again.

It. Never. Fucking. Ends.

You get to a point where you start to ask yourself... "why stay?"

"Why continue?"

I don't want to spend my life being a servant, being a wagecuck. Wageslavery has to be one of my strongest reasons for wanting to CTB. There's no escape from this shit. The alternatives to not having a job are even worse. So I really feel like I'm trapped with no way out other than, quite literally, killing myself.

Sometimes during my commute back home I have thoughts of swerving my car off the road and ramming head-first into a tree or a wall or something. If I ever end up doing this I have to hope that I actually die in the crash and I don't survive.

I'm so tired. Staying alive is absolutely exhausting. Every day is a fucking battle; part of a seemingly endless war. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of struggling. I just want to rest.

Just let me rest.

to all that add constant chores like cleaning trash washing clothes every day when one gets home from work, always problems , continuously having to fix broken things ( law of entropy) , always buying stocking things.... all this just to every second risk something extremely horrible trapping u , just to risk extreme torture... all for no objective purpose or reason

who would want to be a slave and a brain that can suffer unending continuous constant unbearable pain?

im a slave on multiple levels to my bodily needs , to my previous brain washing bad habits and addictions like watching youtube videos for hours everyday, to society , to others , to government creeps

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

And "weekends" are just more work. Plus thinking of more wage slavery alongside people you don't really like.

 

[ctb_warrior]

As a Kid, I used to be so excited to wake up everyday. It used to be fun. When I joined my school on the first day, I cried bucket full. I didn't like the system. I adjusted and over the years, I excelled at studies but I started dreading the system.
I didn't want to study all the subjects. I only found some subjects interesting. I hated social science. Though, that's not the bad part. The system tries to teach us to be obedient slaves. Except some really good teachers, most of them just enjoy ruling over the students. There was this one exceptional teacher who groomed me a lot. She was an amazing woman.
School ended and then college began, the teachers used to say that don't go on holidays and keep studying. I used to be like F U! I'm going to enjoy my fckn holidays and still score good marks. One doesn't need to be a bookworm to be good at studies. One of my classmate used to study 12 hours a day and I used to never study until the night of the exam. He scored 71% and I scored 78%. Lol.
Slowly I had learnt that the system is flawed.
I started turning into a rebel.
Now that i work, in the industry, I have never worked as a slave. I have been very vocal about what I do and what I want. If I didn't get it, I created chaos for them. I even made a manager and her manager get terminated from the company with all the proof of their bullying and mismanagement.

My suggestion is, while you are on this earth, while you don't ctb or die naturally, live like a rebel, be bold about what you want and need, and demand that and if it's not given, snatch what belongs to you. Become the bully who bullies the bully.
As far as fighting the system is concerned, well that's definitely difficult, we will have to be tax payers because the system is so tightly implemented that there's hardly any escape from that, and probably that's why most of us are here on this site

to all that add constant chores like cleaning trash washing clothes every day when one gets home from work, always problems , continuously having to fix broken things ( law of entropy) , always buying stocking things.... all this just to every second risk something extremely horrible trapping u , just to risk extreme torture... all for no objective purpose or reason

My father's life is even miserable, after one problem ends, right after the other one starts, he solves it and then another one crops up. He hardly gets to rest in his life. And he has never thought of ctb ever. I don't know how he developed such resilience

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

As a Kid, I used to be so excited to wake up everyday. It used to be fun. When I joined my school on the first day, I cried bucket full. I didn't like the system. I adjusted and over the years, I excelled at studies but I started dreading the system.
I didn't want to study all the subjects. I only found some subjects interesting. I hated social science. Though, that's not the bad part. The system tries to teach us to be obedient slaves. Except some really good teachers, most of them just enjoy ruling over the students. There was this one exceptional teacher who groomed me a lot. She was an amazing woman.
School ended and then college began, the teachers used to say that don't go on holidays and keep studying. I used to be like F U! I'm going to enjoy my fckn holidays and still score good marks. One doesn't need to be a bookworm to be good at studies. One of my classmate used to study 12 hours a day and I used to never study until the night of the exam. He scored 71% and I scored 78%. Lol.
Slowly I had learnt that the system is flawed.
I started turning into a rebel.
Now that i work, in the industry, I have never worked as a slave. I have been very vocal about what I do and what I want. If I didn't get it, I created chaos for them. I even made a manager and her manager get terminated from the company with all the proof of their bullying and mismanagement.

My suggestion is, while you are on this earth, while you don't ctb or die naturally, live like a rebel, be bold about what you want and need, and demand that and if it's not given, snatch what belongs to you. Become the bully who bullies the bully.
As far as fighting the system is concerned, well that's definitely difficult, we will have to be tax payers because the system is so tightly implemented that there's hardly any escape from that, and probably that's why most of us are here on this site

My father's life is even miserable, after one problem ends, right after the other one starts, he solves it and then another one crops up. He hardly gets to rest in his life. And he has never thought of ctb ever. I don't know how he developed such resilience

The last 7 years or so people in real life have been afraid of me. I just put a lot of people in their place where the cunts belong.

I'm not a bad person but like you say, just don't be stood over.

 

[roborabbit]

The idea that i have to live 70-80 years in this shithole of a society, working and worrying and struggling because two poor people with mental illness in the genetics decided to have unprotected sex at least once makes me so angry. Not only do I have to work a wage but I have to clean and be presentable and normal everyday and you are shamed and pitied if you can't do it.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

The idea that i have to live 70-80 years in this shithole of a society, working and worrying and struggling because two poor people with mental illness in the genetics decided to have unprotected sex at least once makes me so angry. Not only do I have to work a wage but I have to clean and be presentable and normal everyday and you are shamed and pitied if you can't do it.

Society is a shit hole alright. A good film is falling down starring Michael Douglas. He had it with society.

 

[SASU-KE]

I have to clean and be presentable and normal everyday and you are shamed and pitied if you can't do it.

Well said. I find taking a bath once in a while OK, but I despise shaving. I've been called out over it multiple times at work.

 

[roborabbit]

Society is a shit hole alright. A good film is falling down starring Michael Douglas. He had it with society.

People are just so fucking evil the whole world round.

 

[ctb_warrior]

The last 7 years or so people in real life have been afraid of me. I just put a lot of people in their place where the cunts belong.

I'm not a bad person but like you say, just don't be stood over.

I'm so happy to hear that and it makes me feel so proud of you

That's how we should live life while we are alive. Don't let anyone treat you like a door mat.

I talk very sweetly with people in my real life and in office. So, some of them are not able to see the tough person I'm behind that sweet smiling face. The moment they try to use me as a doormat, i give them a few chances. If they don't understand, I show them what I'm capable of I have given them a tough fight that they'll remember for their lives. I kinda enjoyed that power

There was this guy Himanshu, he was 3 years senior to me. I had already done a lot of development work and he wanted me to take up more while he was doing nothing.
In the status call while i was playing game on my mobile as I had already finished everything assigned to me, he asked me if i can take xyz piece of work, i didn't reply, he asked again, and i didn't reply, he asked again, and I started laughing hysterically and asked him, can you tell me why, not even a single development task has been completed by you in the last one month. I had entire statistics with me and i shared my screen and showed everyone in the call that he had done nothing in the three weeks and was shirking from work while still trying to put the load on me.
Post that, i looped in all the biggies in an email and answered him over the email and asked him to give an explanation.
He feared me after that..

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Well, I was born to a 17-year-old mother - she was literally still in high school when I was conceived, and a monstrous, abusive scumbag father, so my life was over before it began.

Oh my goodness, my mom married when she was 15 cause it's what happens here. My parents were very ignored and uneducated. I was the last kid born when she was in her 30's it's so cruel so so cruel I can't imagine. My father is dead and we have to struggle for every single penny to survive this bullshit I never had a life. I was in constant survival mode. Death looks like a bright solution. Fml

 

[PrismHon]

And to make matters worse, I'm surrounded by toxic, stupid, obnoxious, shitty co-workers who do not give a single iota of a fuck about me.

I mean it sounds like you don't give a fuck about them either. If you had a different job, one that you liked, would you still want to CTB?

 

[Spite]

If you had a different job, one that you liked, would you still want to CTB?

I would still want to CTB if I was working a job I liked.