Venting Is this really it? Working a 9-to-5, paying bills, and struggling to survive?

[Spite]

What a joke. What a sham.

I'm brought into a world I never wanted to be a part of, and now I have to wageslave for the rest of my life? This can't be it. That wave of dread that sweeps over me as soon as my day begins, as soon as I hear that 5:30AM alarm. Then I have to put on my uniform, drive to work, and clock in to a job I despise. I have to spend most of the day being at a place I don't want to be at, doing manual labour that I don't want to do. And to make matters worse, I'm surrounded by toxic, stupid, obnoxious, shitty co-workers who do not give a single iota of a fuck about me.

After slaving away all day, I come home exhausted, drained, and defeated. I just earned a few extra crumbs that will go into my digital bank account, of which most of it will be direct debited out of my account in less than two weeks because of all the bills I have to pay and how unaffordable life has become.

And then I get a few hours of sleep, only to wake up the next morning and repeat the same boring, soul-crushing thing. Over and over again.

It. Never. Fucking. Ends.

You get to a point where you start to ask yourself... "why stay?"

"Why continue?"

I don't want to spend my life being a servant, being a wagecuck. Wageslavery has to be one of my strongest reasons for wanting to CTB. There's no escape from this shit. The alternatives to not having a job are even worse. So I really feel like I'm trapped with no way out other than, quite literally, killing myself.

Sometimes during my commute back home I have thoughts of swerving my car off the road and ramming head-first into a tree or a wall or something. If I ever end up doing this I have to hope that I actually die in the crash and I don't survive.

I'm so tired. Staying alive is absolutely exhausting. Every day is a fucking battle; part of a seemingly endless war. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of struggling. I just want to rest.

Just let me rest.

 

[darksoul999]

I could not agree more.

Wage slavery is one of the biggest reasons i plan to remove myself from this world.

People drain me so much, its unbearable.

Work for crumbs just to survive. you nailed it.

The same day loops into another which loops into weeks, months, years of the same cycle, people and bullshit.

Come home exhausted, just to do it all over again.

I plan to be out of here soon.

Hope you find rest friend

 

[Pluto]

 

[darksoul999]

lmao ok that made me laugh haha kudos to you... Ahhh yes the NEET life... I miss it

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Life is a scam.

 

[SASU-KE]

Unless you're fortunate enough to be born to responsible parents who saved/set up a trust fund for you life will be a slog fest.

 

[itsgone2]

Agree with everything.
My ancestors were farmers and coal miners. Tough jobs have always existed.
But good jobs did too. They've been decimated.

Life is a joke. I 100% agree that I wish I'd die during my commute.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

Unless you're fortunate enough to be born to responsible parents who saved/set up a trust fund for you life will be a slog fest.

Spoke to somebody the other day approaching retirement. He angrily said "all I've done in my life is work" and I said you are not the only one.

Agree with everything.
My ancestors were farmers and coal miners. Tough jobs have always existed.
But good jobs did too. They've been decimated.

Life is a joke. I 100% agree that I wish I'd die during my commute.

I see it in their faces on their morning commute. I look away quickly. Bloody awful.

 

[imagonner]

totally agree. i feel so cheated and lied to...nothing to look forward to...fuck this shit...

 

[Spite]

Unless you're fortunate enough to be born to responsible parents who saved/set up a trust fund for you life will be a slog fest.

Well, I was born to a 17-year-old mother - she was literally still in high school when I was conceived, and a monstrous, abusive scumbag father, so my life was over before it began.

 

[oneirataxia]

Dunno if you live in the states, but I feel you and I worry about the trajectory the American economy is taking. I don't like a lot of YouTubers, but one of the few I genuinely look up to posited that the middle class could disappear, leaving only the higher class to do whatever they want and force the lower class into doing their bidding. All the old people who run our country should be listening or helping the young. Instead, they choose to lavish away and take all the power for themselves. Boomers just see stock prices rising and are wholly unempathetic to struggling younger people, because durr, muh stocks and gas prices are good, so that must mean the rest of our economy is good. They are wholly out of touch with the rest of society and I despise them. I hope one day there is hope, but it's hard not to be blinded by the crushing present.

I can't really provide any guidance besides empty platitudes but I sincerely hope things get better for you, as well as the rest of society overall. Also, just wanted to say I like your Suigintou pfp.