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DeepSlumber

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Hey, new here. Long-time lurker. Just curious abt Nembutal "sampling" in small doses to try to get over the gagging hurdle and to see its effects (I would order a third bottle for this purpose). Would there be any likely damage to organs, brain, nervous system from such sampling from time to time? My other concern would be if ever there were a fender bender (not while under the influence--I am a sober person) this stuff stays in the system and wouldn't look good upon a forced blood draw (it apparently stays in hair for three months). I think I talked myself out of it.
 
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CiproKilledMe

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I've done five or six sleep/taste tests with mine and I'm still alive, unfortunately. Just don't take too much or else you might wake up in a hospital days later. Such small amounts are used for these sleep/taste tests that you probably don't need to order a third bottle just to conduct them.
 
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I've done five or six sleep/taste tests with mine and I'm still alive, unfortunately. Just don't take too much or else you might wake up in a hospital days later. Such small amounts are used for these sleep/taste tests that you probably don't need to order a third bottle just to conduct them.
How did you find the gagging reflex in relation to the chemicals?
Here's an account of someone who used vet-grade N recreationally and as a sleep aid: https://erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=68249
Thx for link. Interesting stuff.
 
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How did you find the gagging reflex in relation to the chemicals?

I didn't gag, but that might only because I used such a tiny amount (only 1/200th of one bottle). Even with that small of an amount the stuff is INCREDIBLY strong and nasty so I can't even imagine what it's like to gulp down two entire bottles of it. Obviously it can be done because people have done it successfully, but for myself...idk. Fear of gagging or puking it up is what has so far kept me from ctb with it. I cannot risk waking up in a hospital.
 
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I didn't gag, but that might only because I used such a tiny amount (only 1/200th of one bottle). Even with that small of an amount the stuff is INCREDIBLY strong and nasty so I can't even imagine what it's like to gulp down two entire bottles of it. Obviously it can be done because people have done it successfully, but for myself...idk. Fear of gagging or puking it up is what has so far kept me from ctb with it. I cannot risk waking up in a hospital.
Heard that. Tonight, this sober person, basically a teetotaler (never liked alcohol or beer or wine--just Sarsparilla root beer, imagine that) has been drinking rum, Kahlua (Mudslide) combined with 99 Bananas (99 proof) just to see abt taste. Man, this combo really tastes like what I imagine paint thinner or nail polish would taste like. Disgusting. Hardly gor buzzed even. Bizarre body I have. Sure hope the Nembutal goes down and then so do I.

I'm planning on splitting this incarnation within 12 months, if not sooner. Just working out my will and getting all my ducks lined up. I guess I'll write them a letter the day of the big siesta, and will say something like, "If you don't get a call from me by (whatever is five days later), then assume I am gone." Before I take leave, I'll put everything of any sentimental value or real value (of which I have nothing, really) into a storage unit and give them the key to it plus a copy of the will.

My fear is surviving five days in a coma and then the cops come in and my life is fucked from that point. Dying ain't easy, man.

Not going for a third bottle after all. Just so nearly ready to unplug from this farcical bullshit called life. All in all, it has royally sucked. Sorry. I just can't shut off my dark thoughts. In a year I will though.
 
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