Venting is anyone tired to even search how to ctb

[gggy]

im so lazy to even search methods, i feel tired so now i gotta sit with the feeling

 

[Immensevoid]

Yes I am very tired too. this has been one of my main thoughts for the last few months:/

 

[Forveleth]

No. When I want to die, I get super motivated to do research. I've at least skimmed most of the megathreads linked in the pinned section.

Now, actually following through when I'm tired is another story.

 

[divinemistress36]

I always fall asleep while researching methods

 

[idk3]

Depression and anxiety makes everything way too difficult

 

[theboy]

me

 

[deftones]

me 2

 

[Eudaimonic]

Only sometimes, typically when I'm less suicidal. When I'm very suicidal, I usually have enough mental energy to do research, but my executive functioning is too poor to plan much. I get overwhelmed by the amount of information and tasks I have to do beforehand. I'm also too indecisive to decide on a single method.

 

[hopeless08]

Depression and anxiety makes everything way too difficult

When your so depressed you lack the motivation to do the simplest of tasks like getting up to go brush your teeth is a mission much less having to do all the research to find a method, it's almost impossible

 

[EyesOfNight]

It's a very exhausting task to me. First of all, how do you search for something you don't know exists? It's not like there is a "Top 10 Ways to CTB at Home DYI" list.
If you actually manage to find something it's either not gonna work or you can't access it or it's just something you don't want to do.

 

[lnlybnny]

yes but i have no choice