BloodStainedAntlers
sic labitur aetas
- Aug 2, 2026
- 49
Feel free to ignore this rant, its just stupid word vomit.
I just had the realisation (once again) that i am just simply too fucking stupid to amount to anything in life. My adhd makes it harder to focus than it already is, and it seems like my brain just doesnt fucking function normally. I feel like I am fully unfit to be a human, flawed all the way from the mind to the very core of my physical existence, I feel like an utter misconstruction of nature. And im so fucking sick of it. I wanted to be smart and I put so much work into it, all my life I've always lovwd school and education, i loved most subjects even the ones i sucked at, and i always tried my best to learn everything i could, but its just not fucking enough. The one thing i thought i was good at was just another case of me overestimating my abilities. Im fucking stupid to the core. I'm angry and im disappointed at myself, because my dream was to become smart, to have as much knowledge as i could possibly have, but im just too dumb. My brain is too fucked up, not even my adhd medication seems to help enough for me to actually focus.
Yet another reason to fucking end it. No matter how hard I work I will never achieve any of my goals, because I am nothing but a cancerous formation in a web of atoms. I cant wait to die. I have no purpose left but to die. I. want. to. die.
I just had the realisation (once again) that i am just simply too fucking stupid to amount to anything in life. My adhd makes it harder to focus than it already is, and it seems like my brain just doesnt fucking function normally. I feel like I am fully unfit to be a human, flawed all the way from the mind to the very core of my physical existence, I feel like an utter misconstruction of nature. And im so fucking sick of it. I wanted to be smart and I put so much work into it, all my life I've always lovwd school and education, i loved most subjects even the ones i sucked at, and i always tried my best to learn everything i could, but its just not fucking enough. The one thing i thought i was good at was just another case of me overestimating my abilities. Im fucking stupid to the core. I'm angry and im disappointed at myself, because my dream was to become smart, to have as much knowledge as i could possibly have, but im just too dumb. My brain is too fucked up, not even my adhd medication seems to help enough for me to actually focus.
Yet another reason to fucking end it. No matter how hard I work I will never achieve any of my goals, because I am nothing but a cancerous formation in a web of atoms. I cant wait to die. I have no purpose left but to die. I. want. to. die.
