terribleguy
Member
- Nov 4, 2025
- 16
I've put so much effort into my relationship to but completely disrespected, I provide kindness, comfort, money, love, care- I obviously have my moments but I do everything for her, I love her so deeply but its just becoming more and more obvious how shallow her feelings for me are, and it makes me wanna fucking shoot myself, if only i had a gun….
even before we started dating, she wasnt even loyal, meanwhile i was sending her letters- to her i was always supposed to be some fling, some one time fun, and never again- but that's not what she told me. she promised me she loved me, that she didnt wanna date until she saw me, THAT WHOLE FUCKIKG TIME I KNEW WHY- but i pretended i couldn't feel it. its like a million knives slicing you into a million pieces. and ive loved her so dearly- i forgave her and the little things add up…. if you can even call them little.
all of this is a chore, i just wanna die.
nothing ever works and i freaked the fuck out on her and now her friends all hate me and i just dont wanna deal with being alive already- all this on top of everything else is so much.
i hate my fucking life
even before we started dating, she wasnt even loyal, meanwhile i was sending her letters- to her i was always supposed to be some fling, some one time fun, and never again- but that's not what she told me. she promised me she loved me, that she didnt wanna date until she saw me, THAT WHOLE FUCKIKG TIME I KNEW WHY- but i pretended i couldn't feel it. its like a million knives slicing you into a million pieces. and ive loved her so dearly- i forgave her and the little things add up…. if you can even call them little.
all of this is a chore, i just wanna die.
nothing ever works and i freaked the fuck out on her and now her friends all hate me and i just dont wanna deal with being alive already- all this on top of everything else is so much.
i hate my fucking life
