Venting I'm truly worthless.

[bluupup]

All I do is sit in my room, play video games, draw, masturbate, lurk on soyzellig and azuchan, or watch anime. I'm covered in scars and my brain is fried. I cant do anything right. I should CTB. it'd be so much better for me, I know it would.... The only thing keeping me around is my sister, my mom, the chance of reboots for my fav animes, and my cat. I cant imagine leaving my cat, I'd feel horrible. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm literally a fucking chud. I know people romanticize neet boys on the internet but irl? I'm gross. I'm lanky, I fuckin REEK, I don't want to leave my room unless I'm with my sister. not even she wants to come over anymore. she says she's "sleeping" but I know shes just avoiding me because I'm disgusting. my brother stole my vape money and I'm angry about that too. I'm a NEET loser.

 

[Ultimatefighter]

Stop putting yourself down bro, this society sucks these days. If you were born in older times you would have been way more social because there were big group society dynamics and familys. These days it is everyone on there own. Everyone has to deal with so much bullshit what the goverment and companys put on us we can be sometimes to drained to even keep good contacts. Don't blame your sister, maybe she can't deal with it that good. Im sure she loves you anyways.

Keep in mind it is not your fault. Most of it is generated by goverment to divide the people and make them more antisocial.

If you never learn to be good in social enviroments, everyone on their phone all time, everyone including woman have to work just to get by with 2 person household. Its just pure logic how the generation next will decline

 

[bluupup]

Stop putting yourself down bro, this society sucks these days. If you were born in older times you would have been way more social because there were big group society dynamics and familys. These days it is everyone on there own. Everyone has to deal with so much bullshit what the goverment and companys put on us we can be sometimes to drained to even keep good contacts. Don't blame your sister, maybe she can't deal with it that good. Im sure she loves you anyways.

Keep in mind it is not your fault. Most of it is generated by goverment to divide the people and make them more antisocial.

If you never learn to be good in social enviroments, everyone on their phone all time, everyone including woman have to work just to get by with 2 person household. Its just pure logic how the generation next will decline

thank you.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Stop putting yourself down bro, this society sucks these days. If you were born in older times you would have been way more social because there were big group society dynamics and familys. These days it is everyone on there own. Everyone has to deal with so much bullshit what the goverment and companys put on us we can be sometimes to drained to even keep good contacts. Don't blame your sister, maybe she can't deal with it that good. Im sure she loves you anyways.

Keep in mind it is not your fault. Most of it is generated by goverment to divide the people and make them more antisocial.

If you never learn to be good in social enviroments, everyone on their phone all time, everyone including woman have to work just to get by with 2 person household. Its just pure logic how the generation next will decline

I agree with you that @bluupup is being way too hard on themselves. I wish them the best of luck in feeling better, but the part I disagree with you about is that being born in older times would've resulted in a better life for them. Perhaps it depends on what generation they came from maybe.

Could have been the case that if we were living in the 1980s or 90s right now, their life could be even better than they could possibly imagine, but what if they had been born in medieval times? Or the days of the ancient Romans and Greeks? Imagine if being born back then resulted in someone being crucified because they weren't a good enough of a slave to their Roman master...

Or if we think back to even more recent days than that, being born at just the right time to get drafted into the Vietnam war and becoming exposed to Agent Orange. Imagine how much worse that would be. Imagine being a homeless veteran who is riddled with disease because they got drafted into a stupid war and had chemicals dumped on them in the jungle!

Maybe I'm being too negative myself, but I don't know that being born at a different time would necessarily guarantee less suffering. I truly do wish the best for you bluupup, and I agree with UF that none of what you are experiencing is your fault, it's really just the fact that you were dealt a bad hand from the deck of cards that life is, and now you're dealing with it the best you can. I may not be a NEET myself, but some days I wish I was, because having a job isn't always so great either. I'm just lucky that I enjoy using my floor scrubber machine when I'm working, otherwise my job would suck ass all the time, and I would be here posting about how I'd rather be dead than at work.

 

[telekon]

you can draw ? :D

 

[bluupup]

I agree with you that @bluupup is being way too hard on themselves. I wish them the best of luck in feeling better, but the part I disagree with you about is that being born in older times would've resulted in a better life for them. Perhaps it depends on what generation they came from maybe.

Could have been the case that if we were living in the 1980s or 90s right now, their life could be even better than they could possibly imagine, but what if they had been born in medieval times? Or the days of the ancient Romans and Greeks? Imagine if being born back then resulted in someone being crucified because they weren't a good enough of a slave to their Roman master...

Or if we think back to even more recent days than that, being born at just the right time to get drafted into the Vietnam war and becoming exposed to Agent Orange. Imagine how much worse that would be. Imagine being a homeless veteran who is riddled with disease because they got drafted into a stupid war and had chemicals dumped on them in the jungle!

Maybe I'm being too negative myself, but I don't know that being born at a different time would necessarily guarantee less suffering. I truly do wish the best for you bluupup, and I agree with UF that none of what you are experiencing is your fault, it's really just the fact that you were dealt a bad hand from the deck of cards that life is, and now you're dealing with it the best you can. I may not be a NEET myself, but some days I wish I was, because having a job isn't always so great either. I'm just lucky that I enjoy using my floor scrubber machine when I'm working, otherwise my job would suck ass all the time, and I would be here posting about how I'd rather be dead than at work.

thanks. it means a lot you guys actually acknowledge me. I was having a bad couple of hours, I'm okay now. BPD will do that to you, haha.

you can draw ? :D

yes, I can :) I think my drawings arent too bad.