Venting I'm truly worthless.

[bluupup]

All I do is sit in my room, play video games, draw, masturbate, lurk on soyzellig and azuchan, or watch anime. I'm covered in scars and my brain is fried. I cant do anything right. I should CTB. it'd be so much better for me, I know it would.... The only thing keeping me around is my sister, my mom, the chance of reboots for my fav animes, and my cat. I cant imagine leaving my cat, I'd feel horrible. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm literally a fucking chud. I know people romanticize neet boys on the internet but irl? I'm gross. I'm lanky, I fuckin REEK, I don't want to leave my room unless I'm with my sister. not even she wants to come over anymore. she says she's "sleeping" but I know shes just avoiding me because I'm disgusting. my brother stole my vape money and I'm angry about that too. I'm a NEET loser.

 

[Ultimatefighter]

Stop putting yourself down bro, this society sucks these days. If you were born in older times you would have been way more social because there were big group society dynamics and familys. These days it is everyone on there own. Everyone has to deal with so much bullshit what the goverment and companys put on us we can be sometimes to drained to even keep good contacts. Don't blame your sister, maybe she can't deal with it that good. Im sure she loves you anyways.

Keep in mind it is not your fault. Most of it is generated by goverment to divide the people and make them more antisocial.

If you never learn to be good in social enviroments, everyone on their phone all time, everyone including woman have to work just to get by with 2 person household. Its just pure logic how the generation next will decline

 

[bluupup]

Stop putting yourself down bro, this society sucks these days. If you were born in older times you would have been way more social because there were big group society dynamics and familys. These days it is everyone on there own. Everyone has to deal with so much bullshit what the goverment and companys put on us we can be sometimes to drained to even keep good contacts. Don't blame your sister, maybe she can't deal with it that good. Im sure she loves you anyways.

Keep in mind it is not your fault. Most of it is generated by goverment to divide the people and make them more antisocial.

If you never learn to be good in social enviroments, everyone on their phone all time, everyone including woman have to work just to get by with 2 person household. Its just pure logic how the generation next will decline

thank you.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Stop putting yourself down bro, this society sucks these days. If you were born in older times you would have been way more social because there were big group society dynamics and familys. These days it is everyone on there own. Everyone has to deal with so much bullshit what the goverment and companys put on us we can be sometimes to drained to even keep good contacts. Don't blame your sister, maybe she can't deal with it that good. Im sure she loves you anyways.

Keep in mind it is not your fault. Most of it is generated by goverment to divide the people and make them more antisocial.

If you never learn to be good in social enviroments, everyone on their phone all time, everyone including woman have to work just to get by with 2 person household. Its just pure logic how the generation next will decline

I agree with you that @bluupup is being way too hard on themselves. I wish them the best of luck in feeling better, but the part I disagree with you about is that being born in older times would've resulted in a better life for them. Perhaps it depends on what generation they came from maybe.

Could have been the case that if we were living in the 1980s or 90s right now, their life could be even better than they could possibly imagine, but what if they had been born in medieval times? Or the days of the ancient Romans and Greeks? Imagine if being born back then resulted in someone being crucified because they weren't a good enough of a slave to their Roman master...

Or if we think back to even more recent days than that, being born at just the right time to get drafted into the Vietnam war and becoming exposed to Agent Orange. Imagine how much worse that would be. Imagine being a homeless veteran who is riddled with disease because they got drafted into a stupid war and had chemicals dumped on them in the jungle!

Maybe I'm being too negative myself, but I don't know that being born at a different time would necessarily guarantee less suffering. I truly do wish the best for you bluupup, and I agree with UF that none of what you are experiencing is your fault, it's really just the fact that you were dealt a bad hand from the deck of cards that life is, and now you're dealing with it the best you can. I may not be a NEET myself, but some days I wish I was, because having a job isn't always so great either. I'm just lucky that I enjoy using my floor scrubber machine when I'm working, otherwise my job would suck ass all the time, and I would be here posting about how I'd rather be dead than at work.

 

[telekon]

you can draw ? :D

 

[bluupup]

I agree with you that @bluupup is being way too hard on themselves. I wish them the best of luck in feeling better, but the part I disagree with you about is that being born in older times would've resulted in a better life for them. Perhaps it depends on what generation they came from maybe.

Could have been the case that if we were living in the 1980s or 90s right now, their life could be even better than they could possibly imagine, but what if they had been born in medieval times? Or the days of the ancient Romans and Greeks? Imagine if being born back then resulted in someone being crucified because they weren't a good enough of a slave to their Roman master...

Or if we think back to even more recent days than that, being born at just the right time to get drafted into the Vietnam war and becoming exposed to Agent Orange. Imagine how much worse that would be. Imagine being a homeless veteran who is riddled with disease because they got drafted into a stupid war and had chemicals dumped on them in the jungle!

Maybe I'm being too negative myself, but I don't know that being born at a different time would necessarily guarantee less suffering. I truly do wish the best for you bluupup, and I agree with UF that none of what you are experiencing is your fault, it's really just the fact that you were dealt a bad hand from the deck of cards that life is, and now you're dealing with it the best you can. I may not be a NEET myself, but some days I wish I was, because having a job isn't always so great either. I'm just lucky that I enjoy using my floor scrubber machine when I'm working, otherwise my job would suck ass all the time, and I would be here posting about how I'd rather be dead than at work.

thanks. it means a lot you guys actually acknowledge me. I was having a bad couple of hours, I'm okay now. BPD will do that to you, haha.

you can draw ? :D

yes, I can :) I think my drawings arent too bad.

 

[babyblueeyes]

All I do is sit in my room, play video games, draw, masturbate, lurk on soyzellig and azuchan, or watch anime. I'm covered in scars and my brain is fried. I cant do anything right. I should CTB. it'd be so much better for me, I know it would.... The only thing keeping me around is my sister, my mom, the chance of reboots for my fav animes, and my cat. I cant imagine leaving my cat, I'd feel horrible. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm literally a fucking chud. I know people romanticize neet boys on the internet but irl? I'm gross. I'm lanky, I fuckin REEK, I don't want to leave my room unless I'm with my sister. not even she wants to come over anymore. she says she's "sleeping" but I know shes just avoiding me because I'm disgusting. my brother stole my vape money and I'm angry about that too. I'm a NEET loser.

ah wow this is actually pretty relatable except replace Soyzellig with 4chan. honestly if youre a neet or like god tier chud im gonna assume youre still young so there is still hope. unless something crazy happened and like you cant go on 10000% but i think for most ppl in this situation cbt is a better solution than ctb. haha get it.

in all seriousness you need to try and find the courage to leave your room. which is rich coming from me because i dont leave my house ever unless i am running errands. nah but im covered in scars i have personality disorder shit scared of leaving the house shit is bad but i think it is fun to try to be a normal person before i actually kill myself bc im on attempt 5 so its time for me to lock in.

uhhh idk if im making sense but i think ur being to critical of ur self and u can unchud urself and become giga chad ascended to the max. u dont even have to do anything impressive just take a shower wash up open some windows maybe a vitamin if u can afford it. idk i feel like i sound heartless but for me i can be a chud so i can take a shower even if i dont take them that often... doing this stuff wont make u not want to kys btw but it can help provide that habits ppl need to want to live ig. for me it worked for a while but unless you adress the real reason you want to die picking up good habibts will only last for so long ykwim.

oh yeah sorry abt ur money getting stolen i draw furry art on twitter for money so if u have the energy to draw do that they pay mad wells. also maybe get off racist forums i was on those i got so sad u gotta love urself if u wanna unchud.

ok idk if this was helpful tldr i hope whatever happens you can find a real happy reason to want to live frfr

 

[bluupup]

ah wow this is actually pretty relatable except replace Soyzellig with 4chan. honestly if youre a neet or like god tier chud im gonna assume youre still young so there is still hope. unless something crazy happened and like you cant go on 10000% but i think for most ppl in this situation cbt is a better solution than ctb. haha get it.

in all seriousness you need to try and find the courage to leave your room. which is rich coming from me because i dont leave my house ever unless i am running errands. nah but im covered in scars i have personality disorder shit scared of leaving the house shit is bad but i think it is fun to try to be a normal person before i actually kill myself bc im on attempt 5 so its time for me to lock in.

uhhh idk if im making sense but i think ur being to critical of ur self and u can unchud urself and become giga chad ascended to the max. u dont even have to do anything impressive just take a shower wash up open some windows maybe a vitamin if u can afford it. idk i feel like i sound heartless but for me i can be a chud so i can take a shower even if i dont take them that often... doing this stuff wont make u not want to kys btw but it can help provide that habits ppl need to want to live ig. for me it worked for a while but unless you adress the real reason you want to die picking up good habibts will only last for so long ykwim.

oh yeah sorry abt ur money getting stolen i draw furry art on twitter for money so if u have the energy to draw do that they pay mad wells. also maybe get off racist forums i was on those i got so sad u gotta love urself if u wanna unchud.

ok idk if this was helpful tldr i hope whatever happens you can find a real happy reason to want to live frfr

ty for sending all these words I read them btw,,,, I am a chud but a skinny one so its ok, I'm 19 so im young ig,, I do leave my room sometimes.. its just hard. I eat healthy sometimes, but most of the time its random. I'm tryin to work out more also but its hard. I also am a furry so maybe I can get paid do draw furry arts

 

[babyblueeyes]

ty for sending all these words I read them btw,,,, I am a chud but a skinny one so its ok, I'm 19 so im young ig,, I do leave my room sometimes.. its just hard. I eat healthy sometimes, but most of the time its random. I'm tryin to work out more also but its hard. I also am a furry so maybe I can get paid do draw furry arts

holy shit i am also a 19 y/o skinny chud who draws furry art this is so funny i do weight workouts in my room best of luck to you twin

 

[bluupup]

holy shit i am also a 19 y/o skinny chud who draws furry art this is so funny i do weight workouts in my room best of luck to you twin

are we the same person lmao, best of luck to you too, I hope u get wealthy and find your peace <>

 

[Lost in a Dream]

are we the same person lmao, best of luck to you too, I hope u get wealthy and find your peace <>

You and blue eyes are like the depressed version of these guys:



Now all I gotta do is wear a colorful hat and a cat costume and I can unleash your sadness upon the world.

 

[bluupup]

You and blue eyes are like the depressed version of these guys:

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Now all I gotta do is wear a colorful hat and a cat costume and I can unleash your sadness upon the world.

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LMAO

 

[babyblueeyes]

You and blue eyes are like the depressed version of these guys:

this is frying me hahahah

 

[goodbad&ugly777]

You said you draw, how did you get started lol, probably not the best place to ask but I'm kinda looking for something to entertain me before I go or find something I'm interested in

 

[bluupup]

You said you draw, how did you get started lol, probably not the best place to ask but I'm kinda looking for something to entertain me before I go or find something I'm interested in

I started drawing as a kid, and i never stopped actually. but if you're just beginning, try to learn how to manipulate your pencil lines and such. figure out the pencil positioning and such, how to make a thick or a thin line, drawing shapes to start out, or try very basic chibi doodles! :)

 

[valar_morghulis21]

All I do is sit in my room, play video games, draw, masturbate, lurk on soyzellig and azuchan, or watch anime. I'm covered in scars and my brain is fried. I cant do anything right. I should CTB. it'd be so much better for me, I know it would.... The only thing keeping me around is my sister, my mom, the chance of reboots for my fav animes, and my cat. I cant imagine leaving my cat, I'd feel horrible. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm literally a fucking chud. I know people romanticize neet boys on the internet but irl? I'm gross. I'm lanky, I fuckin REEK, I don't want to leave my room unless I'm with my sister. not even she wants to come over anymore. she says she's "sleeping" but I know shes just avoiding me because I'm disgusting. my brother stole my vape money and I'm angry about that too. I'm a NEET loser.

Everyone else is also worthless piece of meat. If someone who has a job dies, it's gonna take the corporation an hour or so to hire someone new to replace them LOL. That's how worthy they are if they got a job. I was fired from a few places before so I know, they do treat you as if you are dead.

 

[bluupup]

Everyone else is also worthless piece of meat. If someone who has a job dies, it's gonna take the corporation an hour or so to hire someone new to replace them LOL. That's how worthy they are if they got a job. I was fired from a few places before so I know, they do treat you as if you are dead.

damn.. makes me feel a bit better

 

[valar_morghulis21]

damn.. makes me feel a bit better

Anytime, my point is don't put yourself down just because of a meaningless thing like having a job and such.