traintracks.mp3
it wears me out
- Mar 4, 2024
- 23
I feel as if I have nothing to offer the world, even the bare minimum of being alive is far too overwhelming for me. I can only last so long as a functional human being before I crack. Tonight I broke one of my longest streaks of three months. Three months I was able to behave normally, not bother a soul, find proper channels to vent. Tonight I couldn't find the right words to comfort my girlfriend. Today I called off work. Tonight I snapped and yelled at my mom. Tonight I broke down on the floor. I can't behave properly, I can't keep up appearances at work and home. I'm not good at living.